..shattered..

i don't really understand
why do i feel this way
it's troublesome
it's hurting
it's eating me up
emotionally

why should i feel this way
is it because of the emptiness
that's building up walls
of loneliness
or terror
or tears

i feel empty
i feel sad
i feel numb
i feel there's no more joy
and there'll be no happiness

between the lines
right in front
it just never meant to be
for me
or the rest of my life

i'm so shattered..

cekya, 30/12/05