Thursday, March 31, 2005

another anwar...


i watched american idol last nite and it seems like i can't get enough of this man;

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and i was shouting "wow!!" & "oh my God!!" after he ended his turn singing this r. kelly's number;

I used to think that I could not go on
And life was nothing but an awful song
But now I know the meaning of true love
I'm leaning on the everlasting arms

If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it

I believe I can fly
I believe I can touch the sky
I think about it every night and day
Spread my wings and fly away
I believe I can soar
I see me running through that open door
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly

See I was on the verge of breaking down
Sometimes silence can seem so loud
There are miracles in life I must achieve
But first I know it starts inside of me, oh

If I can see it, then I can be it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it

I believe I can fly
I believe I can touch the sky
I think about it every night and day
Spread my wings and fly away
I believe I can soar
I see me running through that open door
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly

Hey, cuz I believe in me, oh

If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothign to it

I believe I can fly
I believe I can touch the sky
I think about it every night and day
Spread my wings and fly away
I believe I can soar
I see me running through that open door
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly

Hey, if I just spread my wings
I can fly
I can fly
I can fly, hey
If I just spread my wings
I can fly

i guess i was flying listening to mr robinson! bravo darlin'!


Wednesday, March 30, 2005

aku, dia @ apple pie!


it was a hectic day. running in & out the server room. there are some people yang cukup degil and refuse to do folder sharing, therefore they decided to email those big huge files. duh! email has been sent to the engineers to inform them to share the folders. but they still sent it thru the email. owh degil! cukup degil!

anyways, i went to the interview masa lunch time tadi. well i applied for part time online researcher. basically the job is about analysing the foreign exchange and sourcing data. then i had to advise the clients about it. emm.. susah jugak. i have no clue whatsoever pasal forex, economy or anything like that. that's the bad part of it. but the good thing is, i can work from home.

there will be a training next week, from monday till wednesday. i'll just go and see what it's all about. kalau rajin, i'll take up the job. kalau tak. hmm....

anyways, i got an email from a friend, titled - professional beggars and below is one of the pictures in the email;

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frankly, cekya takut dengan benda-benda macam ni. why i called these beggar 'benda'? actually they sit still and they won't move in a period of time. street statue, some call it. and akan ada satu masa yang he/she will move.

and it scares the h*ll outta me! and i also dislikes patung yang boleh gerak-gerak tu. yang mana?

alahh.... yang macam A&W bear kat birthday parties tu. orang yang pakai these cartoon characters costumes. entahlah. since i was a little girl, rasa seram when they come near. hahaha...cekya seorang freak!hahaha...

i'm hungry, took some french fries after the interview. teringat plak kat orked;

orked : i like their french fries. they make the best french fries. do you like french fries?
jason : no...yes...
orked : yes or no?
jason : no, i don't like french fries, and yes, they make the best french fries here.

hikhikhikhik...insya-Allah, i'll be meeting a friend after office. nak ajak dia makan la. i'm famished!

so take care guys. jom makan!


p/s : i've changed the comment thingy with haloscan. hoped you guys wouldn't have so much trouble commenting. rajin-rajin la comment yea...hikhikhik

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

extra!extra!read all about it!


i'm not in the peak of my happy-happy situation. kalau kat yahoo messenger tu, i'm 'idle', i guess. hikhikhik...

sedih? yeah.
devastated? yes, of course.

tapi tak apalah. i'll just regard whatever yang dah jadik as a part of my life's journey. yes i cried but it should be apart of going thru a tough time, right? bukan sumatera jek gempa bumi. i guess my heart & soul is at stake as well! duh!

erm kan yuu.
it's ok.

anyways, my friend read the classified and there's this part time job for online researcher or something. we're going during lunch time tomorrow to check it out. if ok, i might be working part time there. siap ada interview la plak. i guess it's time to do something else. i'm pretty bored. get myself filled up with commitments, then i won't feel so empty and bored. wish me luck guys.

it's raining outside, and i've booked a ticket for myself. am watching shall we dance. i know, i know, it's an old movie. but whadda heck. i wanna make my mind wander and swift it with j.lo's moves! huhuhu...

you take care guys.


note : erm kan yuu(in cantonese) = takpelah = it's ok.

Monday, March 28, 2005


...i've got tears falling...



it seems that everyone's kinda quiet today. busy i guess? me? tak busy? bored to the max. rasa nak move on to other workplace. it's been 4 years, and i should make a move, but where?

hari ni, my junior staff punya last day. didn't organise any farewell party. semua macam buat tak tahu jek.

i truly wanna write, tapi tak sure apa yang nak ditulis!

and i notice, most blogs that i frequestly visit every morning, semuanya senyap dan sunyi.either they'r busy or they are just like me.



Friday, March 25, 2005

it's already friday?!


wooosh!! it's friday! sekejapnya masa berlalu. and it's weekend lagi. i might go and watch miss congeniality on sunday. it all depends. need to gosok all my working attires. did i mention that the palang in my closets semalam roboh. too many baju, and there my mom's baju in there. half of the space eh. i have told her to take out her clothes from the closet since dia dah ada new bedroom set. sabo ajelah! i had to repair myself. duh!

and when she heard me banging the closet, she shouted from the living room;

"s*****...! keluarkan baju-baju mama tuh eh...!"

adeh ibuku!

anyways, petang semalam, met ewa, my ex-schoolmate. she's preggy and she looks so comel with her maternity dress. hikhikhik... and we had tea @ secret recipe. and i had this;

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the cake was fine, the banana's fresh, the chocolate layer was just nice, not so lembik, not so keras. perfect! hikhikhik...

*sigh, sigh, sigh*

then, i came back and met up with cek juls. she picked me up @ kelana jaya lrt. we had kuey tiow goreng kerang @ kelana jaya. i'm turning into a kuey tiow freak. *sigh*

have a great weekend darlings...

p/s : i have updated 'the story'. for those yang follow cerita tu, please click on the link on your right hand-side.

Thursday, March 24, 2005




a friend asked me this morning;

"you dah lama tak upload gambar yea.."
"a'ah...connection slow. lagipun, i dah lama tak amik gambo.."
"oh??dah lama tak amik??"

it's been a while since i browsed around places to play with my camera.
it's been a while since i took pictures from weird angles which have made people around me frowned with disgust.
it's been a while since i took unnecessary scenes or people around me - not important to others but it is, i'm sure.
it's been a while since i hold my camera.seriously.

the passion is still there cuma cekya dah tak bersemangat to do snapping and to learn more about photography.i know that i have to practice to make my compositions better. maybe my baby cam does not have the right features for good quality photos but i have to improve on my compositions.
*sigh again*

why cekya tak ada semangat lagi??
i have the answer but i might wanna keep it to myself. ni semua gara-gara plan nak beli camera baru. hmm...anyways, my lil sis is going to buy herself a camera. selamat snapping, enjoy it while you can, while you want to...:)

last nite, me, cek juls & cek jot went to nasi kandar kayu @ ss2. i discovered that i don't like something. nasi kandar. me, being someone who never fails to finish up her meal, neglected nearly half of my nasi kandar with ayam madu. adeh. ruginya. rm6.80 - flushed. next time, no nasi kandar for me, anymore, ever again. so i stuffed myself with trophy from nestle-chocolate coated vanilla ice cream. nyam!nyam!nyam!hikhihikhik....

eh, gotta go!


Tuesday, March 22, 2005

some questions...

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cobalah untuk setia ~ kris dayanti

galoh chendera kirana, an epic princess...


yesterday sucks. big time. sorry tatot, didn’t get to reply your sms. i was fast asleep after isya’. that’s my kinda solution. sleep to get the s#*t outta my mind. cekya terjaga from the deep sleep around 1 a.m., made some drinks and grabbed the book i’ve been reading. dah tinggal a few pages and i thought of finishing it.

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yup. hikayat panji semirang. i found this book when my dad was cleaning up the garage. there were several buku sastera melayu. all of ‘em belonged to my late grand aunt. she was a teacher, a headmistress actually. nak tahu nama sekolah dia? sekolah kebangsaan bukit senyum, somewhere in johor bahru. heheh...comel ek nama sekolah dia. she thought arts, malay-lit and other subjects as well. i still remember, when i was like 3-4 years old, she’ll bring me to her school on saturdays for her extra-curiculum activities. she thought zapin at that time and i’ll sit on the student’s table, watching and moved my hips along with the tune. huhuhuhu...funky eh? hikhikhik...

owh i missed her. and i missed my grandma.

anyways, hikayat panji semirang is about a java princess, galoh chendera kirana. she lost her mom, the queen, killed by her daddy’s mistress, paduka liku(evil lady, i tell you!). and paduka liku has a daughter as well, galoh ajeng. she was actually depressed of her mohter’s death and paduka liku’s being, so dia mengembara, menyamar as a man, changed her name to raden panji semirang asmarantaka. she was actually engaged at that time, to raden inu kartapati. so masa wedding day, raden inu kartapati came to the kingdom, to marry galoh chendera kirana but she wasn’t there. instead, the king married his other daughter, galoh ajeng to raden inu.

raden inu kartapati was devastated. he wants galoh chendera kirana and not the gedik princess. so, he traveled all over the country, went to all region, searching for the queen of his heart. romantic lad! hehehe...never thought that i would love reading the story. huhuhuhu...

a love story is always a girl’s bestfriend, eh? Hikhikhik...

lotsa LOVE,

Monday, March 21, 2005

movies, baby!


i've noticed that my entries are a bit meleret lately. entah. ngarut jek ek? anyways, i had a steamy weekend. damn it was HOT! i was sweating and praying hard for the rain. alhamdulillah, it was raining heavily petang semalam!

i watched 2 movies @ gsc-berjaya times square. the cinemas are HUGE! puas hati la especially cinema 1. was truly a movie marathon day for me, coz balik tu, me and my friend watched 'sepet', third time for me and second for her. she bought the CD(yeah!!the CD's out! siap dengan uncut scenes lagik...huhuhu), so balik from BTS, lepak tengok 'sepet' pulak. hikhikhik...she's a totally 'sepet' freak, so am i. hahahaha...
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hitch. a good movie. guys out there, go watch this one. you might get ideas how to have the woman you've always wanted. hikhikhik!

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boogeyman. i've noticed, there are parents yang suka takutkan their children. for what reason, i'm not so sure. kan susah, kalau malam-malam, tengah sedap dok cuddling and kissing and yang sewaktu dengannya, tiba-tiba anak jerit, ada hantu dalam gobok la, under their beds la. it would definitely ruined the lovey dovey moments. erk! hahahha....(please be informed that i have no experience whatsoeva. just an assumption. huhuhuhu...:P)

all and all, i had a good weekend. less time at home which i really wanted. entah. i don't wannabe at home, don't wanna be in the office, don't wanna g wondering around in the shopping complexes. i just don't know where i wanna be right now. east london, maybe...

take care darlings. love you guys so much!


Friday, March 18, 2005

thoughts for weekend...funny!


i got this from the email, and i like number 35 & 36. huhuhu....terkena cekya!

1. Can you cry under water?
2. How important does a person have to be before they are considered assassinated instead of just murdered?
3. If money doesn't grow on trees then why do banks have branches?
4. Since bread is square, then why is sandwich meat round?
5. Why do you have to "put your two cents in".. . but it's only a "penny for your thoughts"? Where's that extra penny going to?
6. Once you're in heaven, do you get stuck wearing the clothes you were buried in for eternity?
7. Why does a round pizza come in a square box?
8. What disease did cured ham actually have?
9. How is it that we put man on the moon before we figured out it would be a good idea to put wheels on luggage?
10. Why is it that people say they "slept like a baby" when babies wake uplike every two hours?
11. If a deaf person has to go to court, is it still called a hearing?
12. If you drink Pepsi at work in the Coke factory, will they fire you?
13. Why are you IN a movie, but you're ON TV?
14. Why do people pay to go up tall buildings and then put money in binoculars to look at things on the ground?
15. How come we choose from just two people for President and fifty for Miss America???
16. Why do doctors leave the room while you change? They're going to see you naked anyway.
17. If a 911 operator has a heart attack, whom does he/she call?
18. Why is "bra" singular and "panties" plural?
19. Do illiterate people get the full effect of Alphabet soup?
20. Who was the first person to look at a cow and say, "I think I'll squeeze these dangly things here, and drink whatever comes out!"
21. Why do toasters always have a setting that burns the toast to a horrible crisp, which no decent human being would eat?
22. Why is there a light in the fridge and not in the freezer? (i've always wondered.. ;)
23. When your photo is taken for your driver's license, why do they tell you to smile? If you are stopped by the police and asked for your license,are you going to be smiling?
24. If Jimmy cracks corn and no one cares, why is there a stupid song about him?
25. Can a hearse carrying a corpse drive in the carpool lane?
26. If the professor on Gilligan's Island can make a radio out of acoconut, why can't he fix a hole in a boat?
27. Why do people point to their wrist when asking for the time, but don't point to their crotch when they ask where the bathroom is?
28. Why does Goofy stand erect while Pluto remains on all fours? They're both dogs!
29. What do you call male ballerinas?
30. Can blind people see their dreams? Do they dream?
31. If Wyle E. Coyote had enough money to buy all that ACME crap, why didn't he just buy dinner?
32. If corn oil is made from corn, and vegetable oil is made from vegetables, what is baby oil made from?
33. If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons?
34. Is Disney World the only people trap operated by a mouse?
35. Do the Alphabet song and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star have the same tune?
36. Why did you just try singing the two songs above? (lmno...)
37. Why do they call it an asteroid when it's outside the hemisphere, but call it a hemorrhoid when it's in your butt?
38. Did you ever notice that when you blow in a dog's face, he gets mad at you, but when you take him for a car ride; he sticks his head out the window?
39. Do you ever wonder why you gave me your e-mail address in the first place? ;)~~

have a blastful weekend!

lotsa love,

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

you're everything...

Kau merubah segala
Cinta yang ku dahaga
Kehadiran dirimu menyinari
Mekar semula hatiku

Kau lukis hidupku
Kau hias hatiku
Kau sambut cintaku, tulus ikhlas
Suci hatimu, kasih

Kaulah segalanya
Yang menyinar hidupku, kasih
Hanya satunya yang ku cintai

Sambutlah cintaku
Jangan kau pergi dari sisiku
Cintaku padamu ikhlas sejati

Hulur tanganmu kasih
Sambut cintaku
Jangan tinggalkan daku seorang diri
Tak sanggup lagi dilukai

Maafkan daku, jika salahku
Peristiwa yang pernah ku alami dulu
Aku tahu, betapa pahit mu
Menerima sejarah hidupku

Kaulah segalanya
Yang menyinar hidupku, kasih
Hanya satunya yang ku cintai
Sambutlah cintaku

Jangan kau pergi dari sisiku
Cintaku padamu ikhlas sejati

Cintaku padamu, ikhlas sejati

~hazrul nizam-kaulah segalanya~

p/s : this is the song i sang with tatot. we got our lungs out singing this number. best ek tot. along the highway. singing this very sweet song. i've got tatot to sing it with me but wil there anybody out there who would sing it FOR me? only Allah knows...:(

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

for you, or them?


i have noticed, some of my blog friends during my early years of blogging, they are either letting their blogs go idle or they just quit blogging. they’ve stopped sharing words and thoughts online.

why eh?

i’ve asked a few of them on this matter. ada yang cakap dah boring. ada jugak yang cakap tak ada idea nak tulis apa. and some even thought that their privacy’s being invaded. why is that so?

some said that their colleagues dapat tahu about their blog. ada yang can’t impress their readers as much as they did before. as a result, their blog terbengkalai and quiet. less comments, less visitors. definitely NOT like captain danny’s place.hikhikhik….

cekya tertanya. what’s the purpose of having a blog anyway? just to impress other people? just to make other people like their style and menyembunyikan the truth about themselves by making the stories or any write-ups interesting?

and they write to attract readers. of course, we all do. tapi itu ke sebab utama these people blog. apa pun, cekya faham, every individual have their own preferences on why they are doing certain things that we might not understand.

for me, i write what i feel. what i do. my routines. the boring and silly ones. the happening and fun ones. i just hope that one day, this blog will be in my wasiat list for my daughters & sons. so they would know,

how much fun their mummy had, whining and laughing around the virtual space,
how much fun their mummy had, being grumpy and weeping over silly things-all because of the stupid PMS,
how much fun their mummy had, having passions for photography and journal writing.
how much fun their mummy had, blabbering about the ups and downs of her life.
how much fun their mummy had, when she was young.


i’m truly busy in the office, but thank you for the visits, my friends. but i’ve dropped a few lines at some blogs.

take care my sayangs(nih ‘sayang’ dalam kiraan plural..huhuhuhu)..


**update @ 12am**
it's around 12.30am or so. still not asleep. i'm full. i was terribly down today. banyak sangat hal-hal politik kat office which makes me so upset. nak cerita kat sini pun, it'll make me feel more annoyed than ever.

anyways, i went to ikano for dinner with tatot. she picked me @ tmn jaya lrt station. i was quiet and muka pun macam ntah apa-apa till i got into tatot's car. she was so lively, and cheerful. no wonder. she just finished her meeting with mr ****. cehs!

and me, being down and all, kept saying the wrong things, asking stupid questions. however, we had a good laugh while eating. and me, seorang yang good girl, finished up my dinner while ms naughty gurl did not! want some proofs?let's see;

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good gurl@cekya's plate
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erk...macam lapor sangat cekya ek. hikhikhik...i'm trained not to leave my food and abandoned makanan yang tak berdosa. konon. however, ms tatot did tapau her leftovers. huhuhu...i guess she's having it in bed right now sambil main gitar..hikhikhik

i might not be going to the office esok. rasa macam malas. felt so demotivated.insya-Allah, if i have the hearts to be up at 7am tomorrow, then i'll be in the office. kalau tak, i'll stay home or perhaps pi shopping with my mom. another heartbreaker. duit tak ada, nak beli barang cemana?

let's just stick to plan A, shall we? hhehehhe...

good night guys.


p/s : tot, aku rasa kepala aku merekah masa kita gelak tak ingat dunia as if kita tengah minum todi. hahaha...BEST tak?anyways, THANX so much for laughing along. huhuhu....BEST sangat masa kita bantai lagu hazrul tuh ek?gerekkkk sehhh...huhuh....amcam kak lun..cekya boleh jadik s'porean dak?hikhikhik....uikss..sungguh panjang 'p/s'ku. huhuhuhu...

Monday, March 14, 2005



wow...3 days without writing anything in here. rasa macam dah 30,000 tahun. hikhikhik...yeah, i am addicted to blogging but it’s just that don’t have the time and i’m a bit too lazy to login at night and also at home.

well i had a full weekend. movie and kids marathon. saturday, i was out of the house at about 10. my mom was like; "awalnya bangun hari ni. nak berjalan la tu!"


adeh la...hehehe…went to fetch a friend @ the lrt station and we went to one utama, and decided on the award winning movie, million dollar baby. it truly deserved the awards, alright!

~million dollar baby~

and i can’t deny the fact that ms swank is a true actress. tak tahulah orang lain but i like her actings. then we had lunch and i sent him off kat lrt asia jaya. on my way home, a friend, cek juls called. she wanna go watch a movie kat sunway pyramid..huhuhu another movie but this time, it was sepet, again! and i laughed & cried more this time. kalau tengok lagi sekali, alamat banjir la kot cinema tu.hehe…

and sunday was full of my cousin’s daughters. took them to carrefour with my mom and stayed indoors coz it was raining heavily petang semalam. we watched sound of music(which was one of the contributing factors of the rain kot coz me and my mom were singing along with ms andrews…hahahaha), then terus terlelap.

and i had the strangest dream. cekya mimpi jumpa my old friends. especially the guys. Hmmm…bukan ex-boyfriend tapi kawan-kawan masa study. i guess i‘ve been missing them so much. lama tak lepak, borak-borak yang membuang masa..hehehe..i remembered masa college, we were sitting, having chats at the college's cafe, when a friend of mine, shahrul, he was smoking masa tu and he suddenly asked me for a tissue. then dia smoke mcm biasa, then hembuskan those crappy asap on the tissue. the he showed me the white-turned-yellowish tissue and said to me;

“kalau kau nak tahu, inilah yang masuk dalam badan aku”
“eeiiii…kuningnyaaaa….dah tahu mcm tu, kenapa ko still isap rokok???”
“takde la…aku saja tunjuk, nak kasi kau tahu”
“nak buat apa?kau kan tahu aku sure bebel…”

adeh la! kawan-kawanku! huhuhu….i missed them so much. wished i could turn back time. *sigh*

i’m pretty busy, so i guess i should get back to work. later guys! daaaaa…

p/s : and i miss my blog buddies as well, especially all of the crew’s of mr danny’s ship-kak lun, tatot, WTL, and danny himself, to name a few. and also, sis zuril...;)*another sigh*

Thursday, March 10, 2005

crem craving!


i have this crazy obsession on la cremeria - almond pecan praline. ughh....i just can have the whole tub all by myself! gila betul! ahah! that explains why i still have the coughs around! huhuhuhu.....

since small, i don't really fancy chocolates, sweets and even ice-cream. but this one really makes my day. and my mum has made it some sort of ritual, kalau pi giant or anywhere, sure dia beli. hikhikhik...

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the ice-cream is toffee, i think. and there's this small chunks of almonds and pecans. pastu ada swirls of chocolates dalam tu. not too much. just fine. owh yes! the ice-cream is so, so fine.

read my lips. FINE.

get it now! another iklan after a cerekarama @ danny's place. huhuhu....

have a great day guys. wassalam!

p/s : kak lun's truly upset about something. stay calm sis. i'm sure things would be FINE again. buy la cremeria. it'll wash of all of your anger, i'm sure!hikhikhik

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

debating-something rare!


i had a mouthful discussion last nite. rasa berapi telinga pun ada. i spoke to a friend - LLB. he's good at talking and he reads well too, which makes me feel very stupid at times when talking to him. like i mentioned to
tatot last nite, he always starts his conversations with;

"do you know that....." with excitements in his calm voice. how is that possible? he did it anyway. hahaha.... he even knows there are three levels of dozing off for cats. kira kalau dah masuk level 3, kucing tu dah tido nyenyak la kan. adeh la! level 1, kira tido-tido ayam. kucing, tido ayam?urgh!*pening*

but anyway, i was rambling about my boss being stupid*our bosses are all stupid, except for capt danny aka mr macho..hikhikhik...* and i was furious at him for quite some time. it's bloody difficult when someone that you talk to is basically 'bodoh sombong'. and we talked and discussed about working culture and so forth. tiba-tiba he talked about orang melayu. he goes;

"you know what. this is what i feel la. no offense, tapi i tengok la kan, orang kita(read : orang melayu) ni, they spend time more time playing around, not doing their job and in the end, satu kerja pun tak siap..."

i was like,"heh? tak semua kot yang macam tu. ada yang betul-betul dedicated.."

"yeah but most of them macam tu. i tak tahu lah kan coz i prefer berkerja dengan chinese or indians. they get their jobs done..."

"i have worked with a chinese boss dulu and now, my superior pun melayu. we work out stuff just fine. kerja jalan. maybe they have different ways of working tapi, setakat ni, what i see is, kerja siap. that's important no matter what race pun...right?"

"yeah but malays have this working ethic which they prefer to sit and do work, diorang takmo explore.."

cop.iklan.he's malay.

so i continued;

"i agree. ethics. bukan bangsa yang jadi issue. ini semua terpulang pada diri sendiri. untuk kita sendiri maju. by the way, you pernah kerja in a majority malay workers punya environment ke?"

"tak pernah..."

"aah...then you can't really say ler LLB. you gotta experience it yourself. an organization tu macam a big chain, rantaian manusia yang buat kerja as a team. kalau one of those chains rosak, maka rosaklah organization tu. kalau ada yang tak betul, tak betul lah. tak penting 'chain' dari mana, keturunan apa. it's what the 'chain' contributed to the organization so it would be stronger. i don't know...that's what i feel la...coz you can't really say melayu is like this and that. it's not fair, don't you think?"


cekya terasa jugak because i am malay, obviously. i have to admit, apa yang dia cakap tu, ada betulnya. tak ada sesiapa yang sempurna, tapi nih semua soal attittude. soal ethics. the way your work. the way you get your job done. kalau dah 3 bulan bagi peluang to get ready
ms tatot's trip to hong kong, itu adalah terlampau. right, tot? bukan sebab keturunan dan bangsa.

satu saja : kenapa perlu lihat saja yang negatif, sedangkan kita perlu berusaha untuk memperbaiki yang negatif. takkanlah, tak ada satu pun yang positif. sad, but true.

and today, someone has beautifully pissed me off. i was updating some company info and i called the company's secretary-CS*she's a little bitchy lately, since dapat title CS nih*. i called her to get some info and this is what she said, in a disgusted voice;

"awak nak buat apa? saya busy la! tak ada masa!"


"ok. i'll just get the info from your assistant."


so i called her assistant. we talked, asked her for some info, yadda..yadda..

tetiba, this VERY POLITE CS called me back and asked;

"why do you need the info?you wanna update the company info kan?"

sendiri tanya. sendiri jawab. purrrfect.

"bila dah siap, can you please print it out and give it to me. i'm afraid the numbers that you have are private lines."

"this is what the admin gave me. and this thing dah bertahun dah. didn't you notice about it before? benda dah lama ni."

"takpe. just print it out and give it to me."


she was being grumpily busy and now, she wants the print out to check the contents that i was updating. duh! haper benda tu? what happen to the busy lady? suddenly so free, ah? eisk!

i just can't work with this kinda people. and these people, would ruin 'the chain'! i'm not perfect tapi i'm disappointed with certain people yang look down on other people's capability.

it's mean.
unquestionably mean.

till later guys. take care.

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

{jelingan manja - saloma}

Jelingan manja
Menusuk ke kalbuku
Menambah rasa cinta
Dalam lubuk jiwaku

Lagaknya dia
Menarik perhatianku
Dapat ku membayangkan
Dari ruang matanya

Ku tahu dia menyinta
Dari bayangan tingkahnya
Jangan pura-pura bang!

Jikalau daku
Mendapat akuannya
Aku kan bahagia
Hidup dalam dunia

p/s : song, don't you think?



i just realised there are alot of things, that i don't know.
despite my passions for reading, i don't really read.
although my love for photography is overwhelming, i don't really capture.

kenapa ek? i'm just not satisfied. bukanlah nak jadik professor serba tahu tapi i just wanna be able to answer and converse well if any subjects were brought up.

kenapa ek? all of a sudden, i felt a pang of guilt. for not wanting to explore more of what materials that i should read. i pick my materials. mostly fictions and also books on photography. that's about it. ugh. rasa cam buduh plak. *isk*isk*

i just have to work on my reading. more titles. more materials.


last nite, i went to ss5 to buy my favourite char koay tiow. saw my ex-schoolmate. we hardly speak during our younger days. we just know we're in the same school and we would exchange smiles if we bumped into each other.

she asked,"ingat lagi tak?"


"a'ah. keje kat mana sekarang?". as if she know where i worked before.

"kg baru."

"you dah kahwin ke?"

soalan paling susah nak jawab untuk sekelian singles dibumi Allah ini.

"belum lagi.."

with a look which says "are you sure you're not?" but what the heck!

"oh. nak phone number you boleh? i nak kahwin ni. nanti boleh hantar card. datang tau..."

one down. didn't know that you can send wedding invitations thru handphones. ah! MMS. hikhikhik...

"oh ok. it's 012-291 yadda yadda yadda yadda..miss call. i'll save the number.."

she called my number.

then i go,"oklah shazlin, i have to go. i'm rushing off to somewhere". yeah right. rushing off to stuff my face. i'm hungry, i could eat danny's ship. heh!

relationships, marriages, a family of our own. do i really have to think about it? should i ever dream of something like that. i still think of my past. the person in it. and unfortunately, i found out something unpleasant about him yesterday. something to do with him, his wife and his little charmer. late last nite, i was actually thankful to Allah, that my jodoh is not with him. for i shall grief if he does something like what i heard he did to his family.

alhamdulillah. i'm not with him.


Monday, March 07, 2005

sneaking snickets...!


i managed to watch the bauedelaires orphans last sunday, going thru all the unfortunate events, since their parents passed away. it was nice. the cinema was full of kids. hehehe...cerita budak-budak, so memang penuh la. i was thinking nak buat movie marathon but these bauedelaires kids made my mind tired. tak tahu kenapa. bila keluar from cinema, i was like sitting and tried to control my breathing and relaxing my mind. i'm not sure which part of the movie made me that exhausted. huhuhu...

violet, klaus & little sunny...;)
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then, i had lunch @ avenue K while reading the latest book in my collection. spent quite a while kat situ, best jugak. lepak, makan and read. sambil tu jeling-jeling ke luar kedai and watch people in and out from the lrt station. hehehe...

i might be doing it again in of those cafes outside klcc, facing the fountain. i find it very soothing and relaxing, spending time alone. oh damn! i always spend my time alone. sampai bila yek? owh that question makes me down, dowh!


Friday, March 04, 2005

kiss me...


yeyyy it's friday...i've plans for weekends so it's not gonna be fully sleeping and eating all the way!wuhuu!!

i've got our monthly tahlil tomorrow. had to cancel a date that i've been waiting for weeks. dah nak lukis peta untuk kawan tu the routes to one utama since dia tak tahu jalan. then my mom asked a few nites before on what are we going to prepare for saturday..i was like sheeeshhh!!it's the tahlil. so terpaksa cancel. uwaaaa....

and i've booked for lemony snicket's on sunday kat klcc. my colleagues said that it's good. a must see. wuhuuu....2 movies berturut-turut on 2 sundays. hebat cekya. abehla duit mung. hikhikhik

and i took the test below. ermm..i go blush. tatau napa...hehehe...wanna try it out? why not eh?;)

Your Seduction Style: The Charmer

You're a master at intimate conversation and verbal enticement.
You seduce with words, by getting people to open up to you.
By establishing this deep connection quickly, people feel under your power.
And then you've got them exactly where you want them!

so, oklah, have a great weekend. wassalam.

Thursday, March 03, 2005

...antara keanu reeves dan anuar zain...


the plans for aviator was changed. my partner bought constantine instead. he sneaked out after lunch to buy the tickets, knowing that the lines would be bursting kalau beli tiket petang. half price day. and yeap, the cinema was packed!

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we got a rather good seat. we sat and chatted about the very low increment he's getting and how devastated he is about it. i know he's been doing his job. i can see that his face and eyes turned red so we stopped talking about it. tetiba ada these 2 girls at the back of us talking pulak;

girl 1 : it's been so long i dont watch movie-lah.
girl 2 : yeah. i like keanu reevers very much!

soon as she finished her line, i've got myself giggling. stuffed. riversss sunggowhhh...hahahahaha....and my partner was giggling as well!adeh! can't stop ourselves from laughing then. it was good, since the trailer was shown like 1/2 hour before the movie starts. my partner was actually pissed off with the delay(and also the increment thingy). so it was a good laugh for both of us!hehehe...

then masa balik, a friend smsed me;

Mlm ni prince charming
u ada kat tv3 kul 10 pm,
jgn lupa tgk, si puteri
dok peluk2x dia...Hehe

and another one;

Tv3 skrg anuar zain.
Citer puteri

owh love you guys, sungguh supportive sekali dengan cekya yang memang adore gila kat abang nuar nih. huhuhuhu....dan abang nuar memang comey semalam. kalah keanu reeverssss. hahaha....till later! daaa...


Wednesday, March 02, 2005

bumble bee!


owh i'm totally bored today. ergh! feelings can just turn your life into a pathetic case. damn! i wanna write something but it's all stucked up here. deng!

anyways, i'm gona be home late. ada orang ajak tengok the aviator. adakah cerita ini best sahabat-sahabat ku? coz i don't fancy di caprio that much, in fact the last time i watched him was in err....titanic, which i'm still not sure why people watch it like thousands of times(exaggeration is sure damn good for your health...hehehehe) and they still cry. hehehe....

owh apa yang cekya merepek ni. i'll just login later lah...when i can write. daa!

lawak for today!

something i got from the email this morning!hilarious!hahahaha...

Inilah al-kisahnya...

Pada satu hari, di tengah-hari yang panas terik dek mentari...ada sepasang suami isteri yang terperangkap dalam kesesakan jalan raya... Si suami seorang yang panas baran sehingga tak tertahan2 barannya kalau marah, walhal yang si isteri pulak seorang yang amat penyabar dan lemah lembut... Setelah 20 minit berlalu,keadaan kesesakan jalan raya masih belum surut membuatkan si suami tadi mula naik darah dan melenting2, bagaikan nak terkeluar stereng kereta dihempap2nya..

suami : hish,marah betul aku! diorang ni,kalau nak betulkan jalan pun,buat la waktu lain,ini tak...masa ni jugak terhegeh2 nak buat!
isteri : sabarlah bang...tengok tu,kan ramai orang kat depan tu,accident kot..
suami : arrrgghh..kau diam! orang perempuan mana tahu hal2 macam ni! oooo,accident ye?!

Dengan perasaan marah,si suami tadi keluar dan menghempap pintu kereta sehingga terperanjat isterinya yang ada penyakit lelah itu..

isteri: eh,abang!nak ke mana tu?
suami:kau jangan banyak tanya!duduk aja dalam keta ni,aku taula apa nak buat!

Dengan marah yang masih meluap2,si suami tadi berjalan dengan angkuhnya menuju ke arah orang ramai yang mengerumuni sesuatu tidak jauh dari situ...tiba2,si suami tadi menarik nafas dalam2 dan menjerit sekuat...


Mendengarkan si suami tadi terjerit2 begitu, secara automatik semua orang beri laluan kepadanya. Si suami tersenyum2 dan memuji dalam hati 'menjadi jugak taktik aku'. Apabila si suami sampai saja di tempat kejadian,bagaikan nak terkeluar biji matanya melihat 'adiknya' yang terlantar tak bernyawa... mana tidaknya,'adiknya' itu SEEKOR MONYET! kesiaaann...

tuh ah..eksyen lagik.muahahah....*adeh takleh stop gelak..hahahahaha*

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

i'm feelin' it!

Aku terasa rindu
Namun begitu pun
Rindu ini bukan untuk siapa-siapa

Kenapa rindu
Sedang rindu itu selalu untuk seseorang
Untuk sesuatu

Mau apa lagi untuk disimpan
Sedang hati pernah luluh
Hanya kerna rindu





a friend of mine, pi visit tunang dia kat kota kinabalu, sabah. and she bought me this box. lawa ek. suka sangat-sangat. i might be changing my tabung babi to this small kerang 'gobok'. hikhikhik...

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thanx my fren..;) wassalam.