Wednesday, September 29, 2004

but why?

salam bloggy..

it's approximately 11:05pm.cekya belum tidur.perut masih senak dan mengah from my berbuka puasa.letih pun ada but i don't feel like lying on the bed and have my eyes closed...

cekya rasa,cekya accidently got myself into trouble.me'rasa'kan satu perasaan yang tak patut cekya layan buat masa ni.
serik.
pedih.
semak.

semua rasa tu akan berputar-putar dalam fikiran cekya.it's something that i'm not suppose to feel right now...it's too early...

and the truth is,i don't wanna feel anything mushy like that for the next 5-6 years.
i feel stupid.
i feel weak.
i feel out of control.

i hate it when i feel so dependant to the feelings.cekya rasa lemas sangat.dan bila dah rasa macam tu semua,i will hope for 'something'...itu yang buat cekya rasa sebak dan sedih dengan perasaan yang tak reti-reti nak 'berdikari' bila di'lepas'kan begitu tanpa ada apa-apa kawalan.i wasn't expecting anything like this to happen though...tak suka betul la!eisk...:(

dan cekya rasa,i have to rajinkan diri to get myself busy.now dah ada kereta,makin panjang lah langkah cekya to search for location untuk snap more pictures.dah lama camera cekya rehat.it's time to warm those pixels again...

cakap pasal camera,i really wanna buy a new digicam.uwaaaa.....ada sapa-sapa nak bagi advance birthday gift?hehehe...i'm eyeing for any canon punya digicam...

rasanya cekya nak jalan-jalan cari pasal weekend ni.sabtu,ada hal,ada tahlil kat rumah cekya...the normal monthly tahlil.mak dah plan nak buat laksa johor...nyum! nyum!so i guess i'll be going on sunday...things to do;

- watch butterfly effect kat tgv-klcc
- snap picture,maybe area taman klcc as i've never been there.besides,i need a good walk!
- survey canon digicam(mana tau,masa tengok-tengok,ada pakwe encem tetiba nak volunteer bayarkan...huhuhu...berangan la cekya....:p)

huh!it's wednesday and i'm planning for my weekends.adui...nampak sangat cekya boring dengan kerja...
anyways,good nite..it's late.will write again tomorrow,insya-Allah...

till then bloggy,wassalam...

melara...


kau yang bernama seri .::. handyblack

pagi rabu yang hening...

salam...
dialog selasa malam rabu;

cekya : adik,esok hantar akak pi kerja boleh?akak kena bawak kek la,ada orang order.
adik : bawak kereta baru?*bertanya dengan begitu excited sekali sambil sengih-sengih*
cekya : iyea la...


dialog pagi rabu;

cekya : adik,cepat bangun...antar akak pi office...

pastu nampak ayah cekya,so cekya terus tanya,

cekya : ayah,cekya pi office bawak wira yea.adik drive.nak bawak kek nih...
ayah : *terpinga-pinga*a'ah..iyealah...
adik : kenapa awak tanya permission ayah.itu kan kereta awak...
cekya : hehehe...tak biasa la!


patut la ayah terpinga-pinga.apasal la pulak anak dara dia ni nak tanya permission...hehehhe...
dah terbiasa,buat apa-apa pun,tanya ayah,tanya mak...bila benda-benda berkaitan diri sendiri pun,tanya mak ayah jugak...

ermm...cekya dah ada commitment,tak boleh nak bazir-bazir duit tak tentu pasal lepas ni...insurance,road tax...uwaaaaa.....

wassalam...

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

flying without wings...

salam bloggy...

i celebrated a good friend's birthday.four of us,went out for dinner kat kelana seafood.it was raining.and bila dah hujan ni selalunya perut lapar!heheheh...we enjoyed the talks,the laughs and of course,the food.anyways,HAPPY BIRTHDAY AAN!i hoped you enjoyed your 26th birthday with us...;)




then,cekya temankan one of my friends,pi bayar her citibank bills.tolong dia bayar coz there was no parking.nasib baik cekya ikut dia,kalau tak,she'll have a tough time finding a parking spot.sudah la kereta banyak,orang yang nak bayar bill pun beratur panjang...lambat punya pasal,i arrived home at about 11pm.

talked to a friend on the phone...this is what he said to me;

...bila kita ada seseorang,say,a special someone,kita seolah-olah mendapat sayap yang cantik,yang membolehkan kita terbang ke mana-mana yang kita suka.lantas kita terlupa,kita juga mempunyai sepasang kaki yang kita gunakan sebelum mendapat sayap tadi...

...jadi,bila tiba-tiba sayap itu patah-in other words,kita hilang that special someone,kita jadi lemah dan tak mampu bangun dan pergi ke mana-mana.so,remember,kita masih ada lagi sepasang kaki yang cantik,yang membolehkan kita,bukan saja berjalan...tetapi berlari untuk terus ke hadapan,dan meninggalkan cerita-cerita sedih dalam hidup kita...

i was stunned and numb for few seconds.i guess it's true.we always cry and regret when losing something or somebody...and kita sering abaikan apa dan siapa yang kita masih ada...

insya-Allah,su akan sentiasa ingat pesan dia.to that person,terima kasih cekya ucapkan.sekurang-kurangnya cekya akan selalu beringat bila terasa sedih or things aren't working as i wanted it to be...

have a nice day guys!

wassalam...

Monday, September 27, 2004

wet weekend...

salam bloggy...

weekend lepas,cekya tak buat apa-apa.on saturday,cekya duduk rumah saja,kemas bilik and arranged my wardrobe.then around 12,my aunt called. she’s in london.serta merta cekya teringat that i have to buy some stuff for her and sent it last monday but i didn’t!eisk!she’s moving to a new house and she needs all those ayat Qursi and such to put them in the house.tapi kl pun hujan petang-petang so i didn’t get to go to buy the items for her.insya-Allah,monday,i’ll go kalau cuaca mengizinkan...



me and kak lynne

and she gave me this wonderful news!david,her boyfriend dah convert to islam.on top of that,they got married the same day!alhamdulillah...i was jumping with joy when she said it.i’ll be getting nieces & nephews!huhuhu...she’s actually my mom’s cousin but been staying with us since before my mom was married.and my grand-aunt passed away masa my aunt nih first year kat itm.and family cekya anggap dia a part of the family so she lived with us ever since.cekya yang sulung dalam adik beradik so i always regard her as my sister.age difference pun tak banyak sangat.and i address her as 'kak' lynne...huhuhu

she went to UK a year plus ago.she had a rough time masa kat malaysia.so she decided to make a drastic move.i wish I had the guts that she had.just redah aje and tawakkal to Allah that she’ll have a better life kat sana.alhamdulillah,from the look of it,she’s having a blissful life there with david.i met her hubby(i still can’t believe she’s actually married!!)dekat klcc dulu and he’s nice...

tapi,yang buat cekya sedih,ramai ahli keluarga tak berapa senang dengan dia.maybe the way she took off,just like that without saying her goodbyes.i know the reason,and i can’t blame her.life’s being unfair to her...i did insist for her to stay but i guess,by berhijrah macam tu,life would be better for her...and alhamdulillah it’s proven.cekya doa sangat supaya david can guide and take care of her.and she said tadi,masa dia nikah,cuma ada imam and 2 saksi...oh I cried and also speechless.wished i’m beside her!i can’t imagine being married without my families and friends...

hmm...dah la hujan petang sabtu tu..sedih pulak...and to make thing worst...i found this song kat dalam pc ayah cekya ni…adik yang download;

Hanya pada mu
Ku serahkan segalanya
Kau bertakhta di nurani
Anggun cinta mu abadi

Hanya pada mu
Pertama dan yang terakhir
Pohon cinta ku merendang
Disirami kasih suci

Jiwa ku dipalu gemersik tak terkira
Hampir ku terlena dalam belaian mu
Cinta mu selembut sutera menjadi saksi kasih ku
Tiada dua hanyalah satu kau yang ku cintai

Sekelumit cinta sekurun kerinduan
Ku rempuhi ranjau duka
Membara sehangat api
Terhapus sepi di hati ku

Seulas bibir mu kelu tidak berkata
Namun ada sesuatu
Nurbisa dari mata mu
Terpancar cinta yang sejati

Awan yang berarak saujana membiru
Cerahlah wajah mu di rimba sendu ku
Menjadi hamparan cinta suci

hanya padamu .::. qiara


take care darlings!
wassalam...

p/s:kenapa yea...banyak betul perkara dari masa lalu yang datang pada cekya...

Friday, September 24, 2004

hari ini...

salam bloggy!

it’s a little bit dull this morning. but i was entertained by forwards yang mengarut-ngarut.i started it...emailed it to my ‘clique’,4 of us and everybody started replying!hahaha...bestnya cekya kacau orang pagi-pagi jumaat nih!

hmm..rasanya it's been 2 days since i wrote anything.i have the urge to write tapi tak terkata pulak.wednesday evening,my friend picked me up kat lrt taman jaya coz i had to give a cd to her.ada orang pesan to give it to her.since she lived nearby,she picked me up and tetiba dia ajak cekya pi one utama.i agreed.so pi round-round,dia kata nak pegi to her favourite cd store - rock corner kat the new wing.jalan laju giler minah tu!sakit betul kaki nak berjalan pakai heels!adui la!

she spent 'hour's kat situ.cekya pun browse for movie cds.memang every friday during lunch time,kalau tak ada plan,i'll watch cd with the 'clique' girls.i bought 2 cds.9 bucks je.maybe cerita lama,but haven't seen them kat tgv or gsc.

- two can play that game : a lady who her friend goes to whenever they got problems with their man.unfortunately,one day,when she's out with her girlfriends,she saw HER man,dancing with a young woman at the club.so she get on a mission to implement a 10-day plan to hit her man...huhuhu....spicy!!







- buying the cow : about a guy who's afraid of commitment,avoiding his girl coz she always popped 'd' question.he has a bestfriend who he turned to everytime nightmares happen!









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emm....masa cekya umur 12 tahun(if i'm not mistaken),cekya pernah mimpi,nampak dua orang budak kecik,a girl and a boy tengah jalan pimpin tangan kat padang yang luas.the girl was carrying a cute little basket and both of them dok pick flowers.the girl was wearing a blue dress with a hat,ada flowers entwined keliling topi dia and the boy pakai white shirt with overall.

and the funny thing was,lagu kat bawah ni,jadi background.no words came from either of them but this song...sedar dari tidur,cekya terus cari lagu ni coz i wasn't sure lagu apa dan siapa yang nyanyi...here it is...and till now,cekya akan terbayang the girl and the boy,holding hands...siapa agaknya budak-budak tu?hmm....




secara tiba-tiba aku mengingatimu
di kamar sepi malam syahdu
inikah katanya rindu
sengsara tiada terhingga
setelah perpisahan pun berlalu

terdengar lagu cinta membawa kesayuan
membangkitkan hasrat yang terluka
lalu aku terdiam pada lena yang panjang
terurailah rahsia yang terpendam

bertahun dalam derita
tanpamu aku melara
berbekalkan saat mimpiku di perjalanan ini
pemergian dirimu putuslah cinta yang lama
menghentam diriku dalam memori

malam kian memaksa lagu menghanyut pilu
wajah-wajah duka pun hilang
jika tersua lagi mungkin aku menangis
menahan getaran hati yang musnah


memori luka :: sons of adam


p/s : it was the best dream i have ever had!

take care darlings!
wassalam...

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

ohoooooooo...hoi!

salam...

alahai...cekya betul punya boring pagi ni!...sejak dari pukul 8,melayan benda halah ni;



eish..boringnya!uwaaaa........i wanna change my job!!uhuk...

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

kehendak Ilahi?

apa la cekya ni!

salam blog!

kadangkala,cekya rasa cemburu,terasa dan rasa tak best bila cekya dengar kawan bertunang,orang tu naik pelamin,member nih tengah prepare utk the best wedding ever.

lebih sebak bila an old flame bagitahu yang his wife's preggy,with twins!

as much as i wanna be happy for these people,i'm actually hurting inside.i'm not being desperate nor over-emotional here tapi cekya akan rasa a little disturbed.

and hanya Allah saja yang tahu,how much i hate this feelings!

*sigh*

well,tadi,someone from my past,messaged me.saying sweet words and all.he's younger than i am.he's very determined that i'm gonna be his,one day.adoi!gila ke apa?but as much as i convinced him that things won't work,dia tetap yakin yang Allah dah tentukan jodoh dia dengan cekya!kalau cekya ni ala miss venezuela,tarak hal la tapi....alahai....

aiyohhh...apa nih???

when i asked where was he for the past few months,he said sorry coz he was busy to work things out in order to provide a good life for both of us...adoh!and he said he prayed every now and then that when he contacted me in future,i'm still not attached to anybody.he's scared that i might be married when he's ready for marriage.

hilangkan diri,alih-alih timbul,cakap semua tu....pelik betul....i truly hope that he's only playing with words eventhough he sounds damn serious about it....macam tak masuk akal betul la mamat tu....risau jugak kalau tiba-tiba dia terjengul depan pintu,asking for my hand from my parents.i know so little about this guy,and nak live my life with him??i might be out of my mind if i agree....

cekya rasa,lepas nih sure dia hilang lagi.i even asked him,saja nak perli;

"lepas ni,tahun bila pulak you nak contact i?"

anyways,jodoh pertemuan,hidup mati,semuanya ketentuan Allah Ta'ala...cekya redha dengan apa yang dah terjadi dan yang akan terjadi...

*sigh*

i'll write again later!daaa bloggers....

p/s : teringat pulak posting pasal diamond ring kelmarin!tapi yang cekya tahu,bapak dia tokey batu permata kat penang....wild wild wessttttt!!!!!!!hahahhahaha.......mata duitannya cekya..eh silap...mata batuannya cekya...huhuhu....

Monday, September 20, 2004

tralalala!

salam bloggy...

i had a tiring weekend.saturday,2 of my closest friend tetiba muncul kat rumah.apa lagi, nak ajak keluar le.i was planning for wicker park,so i said i wanna go to carrefour subang to buy kain ela for raya dulu,then pi watch movie.i bought 3 pairs,one for raya,one for work and another one's for my mom.then,we go straight to mid valley.one of the girls wanted to go home.nak pegi tengok teater dejavu kat istana budaya katanya,with her cousin and she'll be joining his cousin at klcc at 7pm.and it's only 2pm!we ignored her and angkut her to watch wicker park as well...!huhuhu...;)

and at last,after weeks of craving,i got to watch the movie!well,i must say that the movie needs a lot of patience.banyak flashbacks.and it's impossible to start watching even 1/2 an hour late coz you really need to know what and how things happen kalau nak faham...anyways,i love the movie.i understand how the man changed alot in 2 years just because he lost his lady whom he loves so much.coz i was once in his feet..:(

anyways,lepas movie,we terus head home and sent awek yang nak pi tengok teater tu.it was 545pm at that time.muka dia dah macam keropok belinjau coz she feels that she's gonna be late for the teater.hehehe...tak tahan wooo....she's an expert in showing how annoyed and irritated she is without saying a word!hehehe...sorry la dear friend...bukan selalu kita pi tengok wayang sama-sama!

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tempted to throw yourself?heheh...i almost did!

yeah,i went the gm's pot luck party.it's suppose to be party beside the pool tapi sebab hujan,we ate in her apartment.it's somewhere near the old subang airport.so lepas hujan reda,we bring the kids to the pool.not mine,the other colleagues!hehehe....and i get to snap some pics and the pool was so tempting!ruginya tak bawak extra clothing.boleh jugak buat a few laps!hahaha..menyampahnya aku dengar!betapa terujanya cekya kalau nampak air!hahaha....pantang betul!

we left at about 5,singgah giant,bought a few stuff and head home.it was a little tiring.walaupun tak buat apa-apa!hehehhe....

take care friends!
wassalam...

.::HE::.


Friday, September 17, 2004

to go or not to go..THAT is the question!

salam bloggy!

it’s friday.pejam celik,it’s reaching the weekends.i have few plans for the weekends.tapi rasa malas nak go tru weekend ni.insya-Allah,kalau tak ada apa,i’m heading for mid valley esok to watch wicker park.tgv dah tak ada show lagi.so kena la pi gsc.then on sunday ada makan-makan @ pot luck kat one of the gm’s house.it’s gonna be at her house,somewhere near hyatt saujana,subang.rasa malas nak pegi but as my colleagues have mentioned,bukan senang nak dapat invitation daripada dia.whatever they say,she had done something to me before.it’s forgiven but not forgotten.

kadang-kadang it’s hard for us to forget things that other people did to us especially stuff that had hurt us bad.but she’s ok now.cuma masih teringat dengan sikap dan cara dia masa cekya report pada dia dulu…she was the meanest lady i have ever known!tapi my officemates dah ajak-ajak to join the crowd.some of them even assumed that i’m going.most of them duduk kl so they are not familiar dengan kawasan subang.kesian pulak!emm...

anyways,pagi tadi,entah macam mana,tergerak hati nak tengok diamond rings dalam internet.memandangkan tak ada kerja at the moment,cekya pun browse a few diamonds websites.uiskhhh…cantiknya…and this is my pick!hish...tahun bila la cekya nak dapat diamond ring nih ek?nak tunggu ‘orang’ bagi,i have no one.nak beli sendiri??alamat makan biskut kering la for few months!

so have a great weekend guys!
wassalam...

Thursday, September 16, 2004

wicked me?

salam!

i'm a bad little sis!i have a brother dulu.asal mula tu,kawan,we shared interest in music and also poes writing.tapi bila dah lama-lama,we regard each other macam adik beradik.me being adik and him,my abang.we shared any problems or news as many as possible.kadang-kadang geram jugak dengan dia coz he's the very slow and relax type.cekya nih,cepat gelabah and kalau boleh nak cepat-cepat get into a discussion and think of a solution.tapi cek abang tu,relax je!:)

anyways,sedar tak sedar,it has been 2 months(he said so,i did not even realise the fact that i didn't call,sms or write any emails to him,let alone meeting up with him!)since the last time we contacted.and yesterday,i got this in my inbox;

Dear sis,
Just to let you know that I survive ! Maaf pada adik kerna tidak memberitahu bahawa abang baru aje lepas operation (Major juga take 3 ½ hour ) anyway I just start work again.I've been on leave since 17/7/04 until yesterday 9/9/04.
So how's life been treating you lately. Dah ada new boy friend? Do let me know more
about your self soon ok, my sis.
Take Care & be happy,and not to forget may Allah bless you in whatever you do.
wassallam.


cekya rasa bersalah sangat!kenapa la tak terlintas yang he's into something serious??sebelum ni,dia pernah 'hilang' sekejap coz he was totally busy,even nak say 'hi' pun payah,so what we did was exchanging emails.and masa baca email ni,barulah perasan yang i have not receive a single email from him.i did write to him few weeks back but knowing him,not geting any replies was normal!why was i being ignorant?adui!i felt so terrible!kalaulah cekya call hp dia or his office,i would have known about his condition...kenapa la tak terlintas langsung...:(

abang,i am so sorry!for being ignorant.adik minta maaf sangat...nanti kita pi tengok wayang ndak?abang belanja!huhuhu....abang simpan lagi tak lagu-lagu yang kita suka dulu tu?emmm....i feel bad,i'm sorry again..


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on a lighter note,cekya teringin nak tengok wicker park for weeks!!

it's about a guy who sees a woman in a café who looks like his former girlfriend, who disappeared without a trace years ago. so this guys nak find out sama ada the lady he saw was actually his long lost girl.

i might be going this saturday or sunday,show pukul 3.30pm.tengok sorang la besh.nak tengok PGL,macam tak menarik.napa la cekya tak excited nak tengok PGL eh?*sigh*


oh ye!cekya dah update my fotopages with my nieces uncut version of their days in PD!have fun...take care darlings!

wassalam!

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

black or white??!!

salam to my dusty bloggy!



got back from PD on monday,arrived at about 7.petang tu,before berangkat pulang,sempat lagi berendam and entertain my nieces kat beach.from 3pm, to 5!hehehe...bila jeling-jeling kat area banglo,ayah cekya dah siap pakai ketayap,nak balik dah!hahaha...anak daranya tak reti-reti nak 'wrap-up'!huhuhu...ampun Tuanku!

walaupun 'busy' dengan acara berendam dan merendam(i managed to get my 5 year old niece underwater!hahahah....she cried like hell!huhuhu...jahatnya cekya!),i get to snap some pics.feel free to view.some of the pictures are redundant.many pics that i took,all at the same angle.can't help it.just love the views!apa pun,i just love the pic below!ntah la...the green leaves nampak alive...;)



the vacation was alrite.rasa lama sangat.and that's what i like about it so much.the time flies really slow and i can enjoy every bit of it,even if half of the time,i was busy membulia my nieces in every way possible!hahahha....i'll post the pics of my nieces kat beach..uncensored!hahahahha....

take care darlings!
wassalam...

p/s : banyaknya cekya punya 'hahahaha'....nak nanges ke?hmmm....

Saturday, September 11, 2004

days of my life...

salam bloggy...

it's approximately 1:31am sekarang ni.yeah,i'm still online.thinking that i might be able to write anything for the next few days,so here i am.

tadi cekya pegi jugak interview.promised mr h at 6pm tapi member cekya yang baik hati yakni cek odah ter'trap' dengan boss dia.bercerita dan sesi ngumpat.huhuhu....so we end up going out of the office at 5:45pm!dah la jem!sabar ajelah.ceh odah dah gelabah coz she's afraid that i'll be late.cekya ok je.dia kata cekya nih macam tak risau nak pi interview.well..well..well...dia tak tahu,what's going on in my head!cuak,nervous,kalut...you just name it...butterflies,kura-kura,burung kakak tua,semuanya pakat-pakat main playground dalam perut cekya!eisk...!

and at 6:15pm,kitorang sampai at the business center.mr h called,tanya mana cekya(hish..tak sabar-sabar cek abang sorang nih..aku dah la kalut!)..so i told him where i was and he gave directions to his office.dah sampai tu,cekya tersilap dengar.i thought he said 4th floor,rupanya 1st floor(rasanya butterfly duduk dlm telinga kot!)..and he actually went searching for me masa cekya turun tangga tu...huhuh...(makin tak sabar nampaknya cek abang kita nih!hahahahha....)

masuk je office dia,one of my favourite smells-IKEA!hahahha....rasanya satu office tu barang IKEA kot....and the worries i had days ago was actually unnecessary!we had an informal interview.there were no 'tell me about yourself question'...or 'why do you wanna leave the current company?' type of questions....and i felt so easy talking to these guys-another friend of mr h joined us for the interview.bila cekya tengok diorang berdua ni,i guess they're young,maybe late 20's or paling-paling pun middle 30's la...

the job's nice.updating what's new and happening in town and update it in their server.those info will be displayed on handphones(for whoever requested the info-lah)...and i also get to go out and meet people,updating happening things in town,movies,restaurant,anything that is related to the society and salah satu yang mr h ni sebut,'you'll have to go out and make reviews,take PHOTOS'.....eisk masa dengar perkataan photo tu,apa lagi...terbeliak sambil tersenyum la cekya.

the job spec really really fits me.what i want,apa yang cekya suka.everything.cuma satu!company tu baru.so i actually have doubts.takut jugak.it's a 4 year old company and i can't expect much.tapi,if they are not really making,you guys mesti pelik bila tengok the salary that they are willing to pay.it's kinda high for a company macam tu.emm....i am so curious!how i wish yang cekya kenal sesiapa yang kenal diorang ni.i might call encik ahmad.mamat tu kenal ramai orang....tak mustahil la kalau dia kenal these guys....they are young and i considered them succesful,at the level they are going la kan....

hmmm so i'll just wait for the email that mr h has promised to sent next week.looks like his kinda urging me to accept tapi dia kata he got 2 more candidates.so i'll just have to wait...

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on the other hand,i'll be leaving for PD tomorrow morning.yey!!boleh snap pictures!!and berendam...huhuhu...
so take care darlings.
wassalam....

Thursday, September 09, 2004

if it's not that,then what is?

disini ku berada
disini ku tetap jua
dari dulu ku menanti

dari mula dan kini
mimpi ku impianku
harapan dan keinginanku
membara selalu

tak dapatkah kau merasakannya
kehangatan dan sucinya cinta ini

agak sukar bagiku
untuk meluahkannya
dari dulu ku menanti
dari mula dan kini

bukan itu bukan ini
hanya kau sentiasa dihati
bukan itu bukan ini
yang kuingin hanya segalanya
dirimu kasih

apalah ada pada diri ini
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segalanya sunyi dan sepi

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jika dunia jika semuanya
tanpa kehadiranmu

bukan itu,bukan ini .::. sutera

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salam...

napa blogspot ni.tried to post dari semalam,i can't get thru!

*frustrated!*

Wednesday, September 08, 2004

a job hunter!

salam blog dearie…

last nite,cekya sampai rumah around 12 midnite.13 going on 30 was nice.jennifer garner tu comey ah!she’s just simply sweet looking!you guys should watch it.sekarang nih heboh pasal PGL so i guess tickets for other movies should be available and you can get ‘em easily…kan?anyway,while laughing and enjoying ms garner’s reaction towards her wish to be 30,i was actually worried about some stuff…(asyik risau je cekya.kalau tak risau,sedih…hish!)

pagi semalam,my superior and another colleague got into an online conference kat yahoo messenger.my superior told me yang the person i talked about in
this entry wants us,3 of us,out!from the company!i was shocked though i have expected things to be this way,somehow rather!but i didn’t expect it to be this quick…one way,or another,he’ll find possible ways to kick us out.the main reason was dulu,before he took over our department, we reported to someone else and we are so called ‘orang-orang kuat’ this someone else.sabar ajelah!sakit hati betul!and it seems like he's going to get 'his' people to join the company...

so me and another colleague started searching kat j*******t for jobs.hehehe…macam la orang tak tahu apa j*******t…huhuhuhu and i applied a few.to my surprise, one of the companies answered.i was actually speechless and told the person(mr. h) that i’ll call him a little later…

oh dear…it’s been ages since i attended the last interview and i just don’t know whether i’ll be able to convince the interviewer,to talk and face ‘interviews type of questions’.and even it’s still in IT field,it’s a totally different thing from what i’m doing now.i guess it’s a good thing sebab cekya rasa,i should make changes.rasa macam tak boleh nak develop apa-apa with what i’m doing now.tapi,dari semalam,dok risau apa nak jawab bila dia tanya soalan?apa soalan yang dia akan tanya?nak pakai baju apa nanti?boleh ke cekya jawab soalan-soalan diorang?

but when i think of the current situation,i needed to move on and decided to return mr h’s call and agreed to meet up with him on friday,after office.he told me to bring the normal stuff,certs and all...and also,samples of my work.heh?alahai...i’ve never been in a project basis jobs la..cemana ek??aduss!!!kena selongkar baliklah cekya punya certs dalam almari tu.hehehe...

it’s wednesday and i’m already having cold feet,butterflies in my stomach.adoi la...apa pun,my hopes are at average level.tak nak la harap sangat.i’ll just give it a shot.kalau dapat,alhamdulillah.kalau tak,alhamdulillah jugak coz i had the opportunity…


gotta go guys…(my superior dok tanya cekya buat apa,karangan ke?cekya jawab,buat surat resign!heheheh….dia pun gelak!)

wassalam!

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

when a dream comes true...

salam...

malam ni,at 940pm,i'll be in one of gsc's cinema,watching >>>>>




huhuhuhu....ada pulak yang mengajak dan offer hantar balik,apa lagi....setuju aje lah kan...lagipun cekya memang tak pernah tengok wayang time malam.anyways,what difference does it make?dalam panggung tu pun gelap!hehehe....

nanti kalau besh,cekya kasiktahu.tapi kalau in the next entry,senyap jek...means tak berbaloi la..heheheh and whenever i go to mid valley,i'll always see the opportunity for books-MPH!eisk...buku-buku kat atas shelves tu macam melambai-lambai..cekya dah tengah sesak nih!cehs!

anyway,take care darlings!
wassalam!


p/s : kenapa,makin hari,cekya rasa benci kat orang tu?itulah,orang tua-tua dah pesan...jangan suka sangat,esok-esok,bertukar benci...:(

humor me!

salam...

got this thru the email...

WOMEN'S REVENGE
"Cash, cheque or credit?" I asked, after folding items the woman wished to purchase.

As she fumbled for her wallet, I noticed a remote control for a television set in her purse.
"So, do you always carry your TV remote?" I asked.
"No," she replied, " but my husband refused to come shopping with me, so I figured this was the most legal evil thing I could do to him."

WIFE VS HUSBAND
A couple drove down a country road for several miles,not saying a word.

An earlier discussion had led to an argument and neither of them wanted to concede their position.
As they passed a barnyard of mules, goats, and pigs, the husband asked sarcastically, "Relatives of yours?"
"Yep," the wife replied, "in-laws."

WORDS
A husband read an article to his wife about how many words women use a day... 30,000 to a man's 15,000.

The wife replied, "The reason has to be because we have to repeat everything to men...
The husband then turned to his wife and asked, "What?"

CREATION
A man said to his wife one day, "I don't know how you can be so stupid and so beautiful all at the same time."

The wife responded, "Allow me to explain.God made me beautiful so you would be attracted to me; God made me stupid, so I would be attracted to you!

ladies,enjoy this...
guys,no offence eh?hehehehe...

have a great day!
wassalam

Monday, September 06, 2004

not a good day!

salam bloggy!

hari ni cekya busy,the whole morning,though i wasn't that sure,what kept me occupied.sedar-sedar,dah pukul 12pm*lunch time!!*...patutlah perut bunyik-bunyik...lepas lunch,i got a few things to do including submitting my leave for next week.cuti-cuti malaysia lagi!hahaha...adui la..sakannya cekya yek?boleh la amik gambar lagi this time...

after lunch,i find myself bloating.tak tahulah kenapa,rasa loya sangat.rasa nak terkeluar isi perut.and i don't feel good at all.wonder why...hmm...

weekend was alrite.saturday,was quite busy coz tolong mak masak and all.we had our monthly tahlil.slept late-around 1pm(watched queer eye for a straight guy-handsome seksangat la mamat yang telah dia'modify' dek the fab 5!).

and i have also agreed to commit myself to something-paying monthly installments for a car.dah decide nak beli wira.dah pun submit everything.memula mak kata gen-2,pastu wira,kendian satria s.e.berat hati jugak coz i'm always afraid of these kinda things.tapi,nak atau tak nak,kena jugak commit.tak bley dah shopping bagai nak rak lagik!uwaaaaa.....!!!!!

then,semalam,cekya had a festival at home.festival tido!and i didn't get to watch any movies.malas la pulak...!so i decided to lepak(read:tido) at home.hehehe...

and while lepaking,i thought of starting on writing,another passion of mine.i know,some friends have been nagging for me to write.and i've been thinking of filling up my wasted times,expressing my feelings in my writings.tapi,bila nak start 'enjin' tu yang lemah sikit!the storyline is there,somewhere in my head tapi nak put it in writing tu la yang payah benor rasanya!

insya-Allah,cekya cuba malam ni...we'll see!
wassalam...

Saturday, September 04, 2004

...plans for weekends...

salamss bloggy...

i'm not in a good condition.sedey petang tadi.my good friend in the office is leaving.he's so comfy to talk to.and the best part is,he said that i'm the best thing that had ever happened to him since he joined the company 2 years ago..*blush-blush*

we go thru thick and thin together.masa dia ada problem with his ex-girlfriend,sampai la ada girlfriend baru...and me,i cried on his shoulders almost every time i had problems.i still do!petang tadi,i was referring a problem to him.hingga ke saat akhir!hahahah....

seronok ada close friend from the opposite sex.it's just that i gotta confess my worries over men,asks him men-related stuf...why men do this and that.and he's always there to answer my curiosity and listens to my compaints and naggings..without fail pulak tu.he's such a darling!

and i'll miss him.dok kacau2 cekya at my place.nearly everyday.kutuk-kutuk and just blah pi department dia...

and i'll just angkat wiper kereta dia sebelah aje everytime lalu sebelah wira buruk dia tuh(haha...mampuih kalau dia baca nih!!)...and i'll purposely flip in his side mirror...dia punya la bebel!hahahah....

i'll miss teasing him and kutuk him right at his face.kelakar betul muka 'terkena' dia...

p/s:encik ahmad,kalau ko lupa kat aku,SIAP kau!

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oh yeah!insya-Allah,my weekend would be packed.esok ada monthly tahlil and sunday,i'm planning to watch pgl with shah(oh yeah..we're not an item.just friends.i guess i'm not good enough for him...well he said so!and this silly lady still does not mind going out with him...*sigh*tak apalah..Allah tu Maha Kaya,cekya...) but it looks like all of the tickets were fully booked.kalau macam tu,i guess i'll be going alone coz all shah wanted to watch is pgl.kalau cekya pi sorang pun ok...tengok garfield ke...i just need to be alone...!

it's 1 o'clock..time to go to bed..take care bloggies!and have a great weekend...

wassalam

Friday, September 03, 2004

dulu kala?!!

salam bloggy!

105 years ago,cekya logged in to tmnet e-browse's page.tak caya??cuba tengok kat bawah ni...heheheh



p/s:kenapa?tak percaya?hahahahahaahhah!

he's a free man...

salam bloggy...

cekya rasa,almost all malaysia bloggers would giving tributes to datuk seri anwar ibrahim this morning.beliau dibebaskan pagi semalam,alhamdulillah!sebak yet happy..tu yang cekya rasa when i first heard that the court has freed him..dari dulu,cekya suka tengok muka beliau.sejuk jek...


GOING HOME: A beaming Wan Azizah accompanying her husband as he is whisked to freedom from Putrajaya’s Palace of Justice, after welcoming the court’s majority decision to set aside Anwar’s nine-year conviction on charges of sodomy. — NST picture by Rahim Rahmat.

cekya harap datuk seri anwar boleh lekas-lekas buat treatment untuk back ailment dia.i can see clearly last nite on news that he's in terrible pain.and i'm most happy for his children.they get their dad back!about the allegations,itu antara dia dengan Allah.kita tak boleh nak komen lebih-lebih coz we did not witnessed anything involving the allegations.ayah cekya selalu pesan,kalau tak tahu,lebih baik...shhhyyyyy...kan?hehehhe...

take care darling!wassalam...

Wednesday, September 01, 2004

mengenai dia...dia siapa?...entah!

salam bloggy!

tadi cekya kemas-kemas laci nak carik cd anuar zain,tiba-tiba terjumpa OST ada apa dengan cinta.terus pasang...lagu ni...emm....



will that someone appear and stay in my life?only Allah knows...

wassalam!

Selamat Pengantin Baru!

salam...

kat sini,cekya nak mengambil kesempatan nak mengucapkan SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU kat kawan cekya,ewa dengan cek abangnya zul...alhamdulillah,both of them selamat diijabkabulkan pada sabtu lepas di masjid uia,seksyen 17,pj.




suka sangat tengok ewa happy!cantik baju bersanding dia...baby blue...

walaupun ewa yang kahwin,cekya pun busy jugak coz i was requested to take pictures.hari sabtu & ahad memang lepak kat rumah ewa untuk amik gambar nikah,berinai and bersanding.meriah sangat!banyak jugaklah dapat snap tapi quality gambar tak berapa elok.agaknya camera cekya merajuk,dah lama tak amik gambar...heheh....


kalau ada time,nanti cekya nak postkan all the pictures kat fotopages,insya-Allah!

dan untuk semua bloggers,cekya ucapkan SELAMAT HARI KEBANGSAAN yang ke-47.dah merdekakan diri?bebaskan diri dari rasa-rasa negatif dan kuatkan semangat untuk sesuatu yang lebih baik!

wassalam!