Thursday, November 30, 2006

brighton's railway station - carboot sale!


hi people...

brighton's railway station is a place where most people in brighton commute and take the train to london, to london bridge station or london victoria station for them to go to work, or simply to go for a shopping spree.

but we'll talk about london later.

here's some pictures i took at the weekly car-boot sale at the car park of brighton's railway station. only on sundays! it's simple amazing to actually see and have the viewing pleasure of what these people are selling. kelakar pun ada gak la. things yang kita tak jangka pun org akan jual but it's there. old phones, projectors[the ones they use kat panggung wayang yang lama], as well as new stuff macam crystal vase yang mama cekya beli. it's only 7 pounds. kalau kat kedai biasa, it's almost 70-80 pounds. huhuhuhu....

there are also story books, all in good condition selling for a pound or paling mahal pun, a pound and 50 pence. murah eh? baju kids, baju adults, comforters, segala pinggan mangkuk. china set pun ado! punah betul diorang nih. segalanya dijual. sekali imbas, as if they brought the whole house to sell...

here are some pictures kat sekitar market tu.

next entry will be the seven sisters country park. amazing name eh? wait till you see the park. the most amazing view i've ever seen!

p/s : wtl, cekmi, thanx for spending the evening. best lak borak2 sampai tak sedar dah pukul 10! hahaha...

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

in malaysia again...

salam all!

i heard that everything's well with everybody. except for azell, she lost her handphone. goodness. nevermind. a good reason to have a new one though. hehehehe...

anyways, i'm gonna start to bored you people with bits and pieces of my story during my stay in the UK, to be specific, in brighton, london & barking.

after the safe landing at heathrow, me & my family immediately head for brighton, south of london, taking a 45 minutes of journey. sampai pukul 4 petang and it was dark, macam dah pukul 8 malam. yeah, shorter days and longer nights for us! it was 12'C and windy. goodness! cekya tak sangka langsung that it would be THAT cold.

anyways, brighton's definitely a nice place. reminds me alot of barking[i'll tell about barking later], when i was completing my final semester, 8 years back. kat brighton nih, life's slow. semuanya slow. in a good way lah. very relaxing. take your own sweet time boarding off the bus and driver would still smile and say, "thank you!"

another interesting fact about brighton is, it's where my dad used to study, completing his degree. i did follow him wandering around the town, searching for his old flats[we couldn't find it and he's a little disappointed]. he kept guessing and tried to remember places yang dia pernah lepak, places he go, shops. next door neighbour. everything. he even asked my aunt if sainsbury's is still there. . indeed, it is still there,cuma dah kecik sikit dari dulu.

here are some of the pictures in brighton. i'll post more pictures nanti. till later!

p/s : notice that shop - REDS? wish Redmedia would have some shop like that one day. a studio, i mean. in london maybe? huhuhuhuhuhu!

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

bye for now...

hi guys. after a few days of busy, busy schedule, i started my leave today. dari pagi, busy jugak but busy packing. though last minute, alhamdulillah, i've settled everything this evening, and i'm ready to leave. the flight's at 11.15am tomorrow morning, 15th november 2006.

guys, do take care and pray that the journey and everything would go smoothly.
insya-Allah, if i have the time[which i'm not pretty sure], i will update the blog.


Thursday, November 09, 2006

some stuff, through my eyes...


here's some pics i took during an outing with a sweet comel friend. a guru in photography. he has a great selection of pictures @

anyways, keje office dah kurang but i have things to settle.
and my weekend, is packed!!
saturday dah abes coz my bros are going to have their friends at home. kena masak. nasik tomato's in my mom's list. jaga la budak berdua tuh. nanti balik from uk, i'm gonna invite my friends for bbq and you guys are going to do the bbq-ing. berdiang ler kat bara api tuh. hehehehe...

and on sunday, gotta see some friends before i go off and petang sikit nak gi carik luggage. yeah. cekya tak pack satu haper pun lagik. siap baru nak beli luggage tuh. hahahha...i thought of buying it coz cekya ingat nak visit s'pore & india[i need the luggage for this trip] next year. nak tangkap gambar puas-puas! insya-Allah! wanna come, guys? hehehhe...

i might do a little checklist here in my blog. korang tak kesah kan? it's just for my note. youall nak baca or add things to it, please do. esok lah cekya prepare.

it's 12.30am. i must sleep now. nite-nite friends.

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

done, another portion...


it's 2 am. i'm still up. i guess, being too tired pun, susah nak tido. and yes. cekya letih sangat. banyak nak settle dalam minggu nih. cekya tertekan betul.

with reference to the below entry[tulis blog pun dah macam tulis formal letter], cekya tertanya jugak, when will be the glorious time, or day, that i will let go. a dear friend have sweetly asked me to forgive. i got my eyes bertakung dengan airmata bila dia cakap gitu. to forgive. then only i can proceed with whatever i may wanna do about all these. but first, forgive him.

maafkan dia? cekya akan cuba. coz me, being me and letting my feelings flow will worsen the situation. melayan perasaan, adakalanya memburukkan keadaan, kan? i must make myself worthy. takleh nak macam ni. sedih. hurt. whatsoeva. bla bla bla.

and sometimes, crying does wonders. dah tak tahu la mana nak buat nih.
apa pun, i feel sad that i feel that i'm losing a very dear friend. rasa jauh.
dan hilang, dan lenyap, dan kosong.
i missed being a good friend.
i missed being someone for him to refer to on anything.
i missed the old times, oh i do.

though the london trip will only be 2 weeks, i know i'll cry inside knowing that i'll leave him. and you guys. people who means so much to me. coz i know. i might or might not return.
frankly, i never want to return...:(

i hope the shadows in the picture is like me, being here, beside you guys, even if i'm not around.

cukuplah kot pengalaman selama 28 tahun di malaysia. i always wanted to start anew.
may Allah bless us all and give me the chance, one way, or another.

nite. take care people.

[some dialog that caught me speechless in 'gubra']

We should talk about this.
>Orked, you don’t have to do this.
>Orked, let me tell you this.
>You were traveling so much. And I think I was lonely.
>And she threw herself at my feet.
>She’s nothing. She’s nothing.
>She’s just a piece of meat. Yes!
>Sayang, I love you more than anything on earth.
>Forgive me please.
>She’s nobody, sayang!
>You’re my wife. She’s nothing, sayang!
>She’s stupid, you know. Compared to you.
>You have no idea, how stupid she is.
>I can’t even hold a decent conversation with her.
>Sayang, forgive me sayang…
>You know, she’s nothing more than a mistake, you know…
>I promise to you, I will never make that stupid mistake ever again.

>What are we to you?
>What are women to you?
>Stupid? Piece of meat?
>Hey kau yang bodoh, kau tahu tak??
>You’re the piece of meat!!
>You’re the stupid mistake!
>Bloody stupid melayu man!

p/s : malay men, no offense. but some of you, are like that. but i know, there are MORE good malay men. it's just that i have not found mine. ;)

Monday, November 06, 2006



i guess this is going to be a long entry.
there were so many things that have happened for the past few days;

kak lun got her second hero.[payah betul nak sebut nama your baby nih!]
awan got a new dslr camera and visiting singapore. [i envy you!]
cekmi got a new mum for raya. and he likes her. splendid eh? [you looked blushin red yesterday. why eh?]
wtl finished her classes with flying...errr..not colours but bebel2 coz she got a "ntah apa-apa lecturer" and shared answers with her classmates in the exam hall.[ding dong bell, gurlll!!!]
i_mshe's worried sick about her mommy. hoped she'll fine in no time, sis. [hugs!]
kak emmy hold a brilliant 'open house' yesterday. smashin' food. groovy tunes. [one of the biskut sedap sangat. the one with choc rice on top. heaven!]

me? i had muar on saturday. slept the whole journey, pergi, and balik as well. sheesh. last week was pretty tiring for me. banyak keje cekya nak habiskan before i go for that two weeks holidays. i repeat, TWO weeks. and my new short, kecoh, berlagak and stuck-up GM a.k.a OTP[read : orang tua pendek] is questioning my leave. hello! it's only TWO freakin' weeks!
minggu nih pun busy jugak. nih pun dah fedap mengadap kerja and from the look at it, i have to take home some stuff. and the worst thing is dok siapkan keje orang. as if!!! takper. sabar cekya. i hope london would give me a pleasant surprise. and as at now, i'm not excited for london. geez!

sunday, a visit to kak emmy's place, and 2 other friends later that evening. it was great, meeting my friends and letting go those ridiculous documents. good fun, will upload 'em piccas later..;)

emotionally, i'm just ruined.
i've got a friend. a close one. no strings attached. should not be any. but i found out that this person has been going out with someone. intimately.
cekya marah? yes.
cekya jealous? yes.
i do have a little feelings tapi tu tak membuatkan cekya marah & jealous. i know where i stand and this feelings won't go far.
the reason why i'm just so pissed off that this person actually lied to me on a few occasions. the reason of lying to me is because of the girl he's seeing. he lied. oh come on. kuala lumpur is considered a small town. malaysia ni, kecik aje. wherever you are, putrajaya, kajang, bangsar. akan ada orang yang kenal. and sikap orang malaysia ni, ala kecoh sket. mesti bagitahu. and being a close friend to him, i was told of these stories. why did you lie to me?
oh i have proofs. and it's just so sickening. annoying. and it has made me cry, and broke my hearts into a million pieces.
napa ek cekya nangis? why should i?
entah. cekya pun confuse. and trust me, i hated these feelings more than i have ever imagined.
confront him? untuk apa? what rights am i going to claim? i have no relationships whatsoeva with him. kang tak pasal-pasal kena balik. and lately, i've been very somber and unenthusiastic with the stuff he talks or anything that he plans for us. kecik hati? i guess.
and i know he's just so annoyed with my attitude.
nak buat cemana, i just can be quiet. pendamkan aje. bukan nak. tapi terpaksa. they say some things are better left unsaid. i guess they missed out the part, "and it'll hurt like hell".
i just pray, the person i mentioned above would read this and understand why i'm not being myself lately. too bad. the heart's ruined!

oh i'll write more later. ada kerja pulak!

Thursday, November 02, 2006

mom's birthday...


yesterday was my mom's birthday. i bought some cake and kfc and had a little dinner. just the 2 of us. the guys in the house, semua takde. my dad, outstation[he sent a shweet sms though. check out the pic], tengku mahkota was on standby at work and my youngest brother was in uniten, sitting for his final semester.

these few days cekya letih sangat. keje banyak and sleep was like a food to me. hungy for nice beauty sleep. hehehe...
anyways, i hoped everyone's fine. kak lun, congratulations take care!