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salam...

today, after a year, cekya decided untuk mintak balik some cash yang cekya pinjamkan to someone. amount tu tak adalah banyak sangat but to me, it's still money and it's mine. cekya ada sebutkan hal ni to that person sebulan yang lalu and this was the reply;

"sebelum i mati, i akan bayar duit you.."

erk. sungguh general sekali statementnya! tak apalah. cekya diamkan dan berkawan macam biasa dengan dia. this morning, cekya tergerak nak tanya lagi. i had to pay a few things and bila mengenangkan cekya dah bagi peluang pada dia untuk kumpul duit to pay me back, i had to ask.

and to my frustration, the money's still not there. bayangkan, dalam jangka masa setahun lebih tu, dia berkahwin(without telling me..ada pulak duit nak kahwin, yea?) and i suppose banyak lagi yang dia spend, dia takleh nak bayar duit cekya yang seciput tu. sedihnya.

cekya tulis ni bukan to show off that i have loads of money to give away dan betapa baiknya cekya sebab pinjamkan orang duit tapi my frustration when trust is betrayed here. and i end up being tight with my financials due to these people yang manis mulut bila nak pinjam.

if i have that much money, i'll just give it away, not wanting them to pay me back. entahlah. ada orang cakap, takyah baik sangat dengan orang. tapi, we're just human. kita ada rasa simpati bila orang susah. and at that point, i was thinking, maybe ini hari dia and he/she ought to have my share of rezeki. tapi, bila tiba masa untuk bayar balik, people take it for granted.

bukan kita nak suruh dia bayar lump sum. sikit-sikit pun tak apa. tapi, i got nothing.

some people just not worth the help and care we gave 'em.

sad but true.

wassalam.