you,

i’ve been wanting to write something for you. yesterday, i flipped through our memories. good ones, and i got myself in tears.why do i have to get to meet you. yes, i have to be grateful for the wonderful meeting. i have got to admit that it’s hard not to think and question, why hadn’t i meet you earlier. when we’re younger. when we’re free and not ‘tied’ with any commitments and obligations. why?

we kept repeating, “why didn’t we meet earlier?8 years back?”..we did not regret any of that though. and just settled for the phrase-“ini semua takdir Allah”…it was sweet just remembering how you asked if you could hold my hands when we meet. everytime. you asked if you could look me in the eyes when we meet. everytime. you asked if we could be happy and content with what we’re going through. everytime.

and now, we’re apart. at least i feel that way. and maybe because of the written destiny, we have to be apart. the fact that we don’t belong together makes it a good reason for not being together that often and as it is now, never. we were never together like before. we don’t talk anymore. we don’t laugh anymore. we don’t hold hands anymore. we cannot be together, anyway. oh i missed you so much. don’t you?

and this morning, i called you. to wish you happiness, on the day your mom gave birth to you and you sounded startled but happy to hear from me.

only Allah knows how i longed to be with you again. even it’s gonna be less than a second. coz that was all I took to fall in love with you.

lotsa love,
me