i fedap tau!

bila cekya tengok abang anwar macam gini, rasa nak mintak clash.
rambut macam roti pintal! huh!

whispering sand..

pasir berbisik is about daya, a lonely and bright girl. she spent her times with her mom, berlian. berlian's a midwife, who eventually helped not only mothers giving birth but also girls who wanna do abortions. and berlian would bury those babies yang tak cukup bulan under a tree kat tepi laut and daya likes to spend her time under the tree. and she can always sense whenever her mom is looking at her, even from far.

and even she hides behind the walls at their house, her mom would know. creepy eh? she'll just count from 1 to 3 and all of a sudden, berlian would call out to her. that's how attached daya to her mom.a few things happen in her life and she ended up being apart from her mom. i like some of the quotes said by daya & berlian but i've forgotten all about it coz i was so fascinated by it's cinematography..

i must say that the movie has got a slow moving storyline but the cinematography was brilliant! amazing! just look at the picture above. it's one of the shots. the movement of the sand, the wind, and both berlian & daya's moves. it's just so dramatic and amazing.

i wouldn't recommend for you to watch the story, but the shots. hehehe....

p/s : picture taken from >>> http://www.filmfestivalrotterdam.com/en/film/10071.html

Jurugambar polis didakwa bunuh Tengku Teh.

PETALING JAYA: Seorang jurugambar polis hari ini didakwa di Mahkamah Majistret di sini atas tuduhan membunuh Tengku Teh Susilawati Engku Akhirat.

Tiada pengakuan direkodkan ketika tuduhan dibacakan terhadap Lans Korporal Abdul Halim Hasan, 49, di hadapan Majistret Azroul Hisham Azulan. Abdul Halim, yang bertugas di Ibu Pejabat Polis Subang Jaya, didakwa membunuh Tengku Teh di kawasan perhentian bas bertentangan Stesen LRT Kelana Jaya antara jam 1.30 pagi dan 10.30 pagi pada 6 Mei lalu. Dia didakwa mengikut Seksyen 302 Kanun Keseksaan yang membawa hukuman mati mandatori jika bersabit kesalahan.

p/s : erm...cekya rasa seram baca latest news kat berita harian online nih. eisk...

guna jari pun boleh?

salam...

i had a half full weekend. the other half was a disaster. saturday, bangun awal and did laundry and all. aiseymen. masa nak kuar pintu rumah, nak jemur baju-baju, my kaftan kat part tangan tu tersangkut kat sliding door punya handle. apa lagi! zrasssssssssss!!!! adus! koyak sampai ke pinggang. sexy kejap! apa lagi, terkepit-kepit la cekya. nasib baik tak ada orang pagi-pagi celik tu ek. kalau tidak, aiseymen. free show maaa! hikhikhik....

then, around 11, keluar rumah dengan mama cekya. pergi beli stuff untuk buat gift. beli kain net, ribbons, mostly pink la! nak wrap small glasses filled with sweets sebab sabtu nih, insya-Allah, baby mai will have her 'cukur jambul' at our house. aiseymen. cekya cakap kat mama cekya, anak dia belum kahwin, tapi tiba-tiba ada cucu nak cukur jambul. hikhikhikhik....

lepas dah settle semua hal, cekya pi kl, meet up with my colleagues coz ada lunch buffet kat legend hotel. ada la sorang officemate cekya dapat coupons, so pergi la, orang dah ajak, ek? aiseymen. betul punya banyak food. senak perut kami-kami orang. after that, pi surau, solat, baru la lega sket...

acara bersambung kat jalan t.a.r. cekya kena beli small pouches untuk bubuh bunga rampai and my colleague nak beli kain for her wedding. meranjaulah jalan t.a.r yang sentiasa penuh dengan orang tu. i arrived home right before maghrib. masa tu, kaki rasa macam kebas and pedih. aduh! betul punya jalan...

and i had a disasterous sunday. rasa macam makanan masa makan time buffet tu still penuh. senak betul hari ahad tu. and to make things worst, i've got flu and a slight sorethroat. aiseymen. baru makan sikit, dah macam ni. nak kena puasa la nampaknya. eisk!

i'll post the pictures masa lunch buffet tu esok eh? and a few shots i took masa kat jalan t.a.r!

have a great week guys!wassalam!

a tribute, to cek comel.

salam…

petang semalam, cekya singgah ampang park. seronok plak lepak kat payless bookstore kat situ. tapi disebabkan masa dah suntuk, i can’t afford to stay longer. my friend is picking me up near menara citibank and we’re going for dinner. masa dinner, adik cekya call, dia cakap demam dia dah teruk sangat, and he got sharp pains kat pinggang sebelah kiri. eisk risau sungguh! balik tu, terus bawak dia gi klinik. then cekya decide nak singgah rumah cek comel(bukan nama sebenar. hikhikhik...) sebab nak pick-up barang yang dia beli untuk cekya. memang cekya dah sms dan bagitahu that i’ll be coming over. masa tu around 11 something. macam ni la lebih kurang perbualan cekya dengan cek comel;

cekya: hello, assalamualaikum.
cek comel : uhmm…...hhmm...(macam tengah ehem-ehem jek!)
cekya: alamak...ko dah tido ke? sorryla...
cek comel : uhmm...uhhmm...
cekya: ala shiannyaa….
cek comel : uhmm...uhhmm...
cekya: ko dapat sms aku tak?
cek comel : uhmm...uhhmm...
cekya: ermm..ko dah tido, takperlah, esok je aku amik barang tu…
cek comel : uhmm...uhhmm...
cekya: bye, assalamualaikum..
cek comel : uhmm...uhhmm...

and pagi, ni, cek comel call, nak drop by rumah cekya untuk hantar barang-barang tu. yang pasti, cekya tak ada la jawab,” uhmm...uhhmm...”hahahhaha...

mekaseh la. aku berazam nak abeskan coklat tu, hari ini juga. hikhikhik...

jap lagi, cekya nak gi warehouse sale. estee lauder, mac, stila and banyak lagi beauty product yang lain. i’ll be going with my officemates. hahaha… kuar shopping time office. bijak, bijak. amik time off semata nak shopping. tak pernah la cekya buat perangan gini. tapi sesekali notty, apa salahnya, ye dak? hehehhe...

gotta go to settle some stuff sebelum pi sale nih. huhuhu...daaa!
wassalam!

footnote:
- cek comel sebenarnya baru saja pulang dari hong kong dengan bondanya.
- dia juga sering menyebut perkataan ‘amin’ walaupun ketika itu beliau bukannya sedang berdoa.

semalam, yang hujan...hikhikhik

salam...

kita hanya mampu merancang. Allah jua yang menentukan. dan dah tersurat cekya tak dapat ke berjaya time square semalam. silap cekya jugak. sebab sebelum keluar office tu, cekya menyanyi. sampai jek main entrance office, hujan turun mencurah-curah. adeh la! at last, amik cab and pegi maju junction. habis basah kuyup coz the cab stopped at the opposite side of the road. jenuh berlari terkedek-kedek. udah ler jalan tuanku abdul rahman tu luas. hahahah...

round-round tengok barang, stopped by kat bodyshop. semenjak dua menjak ni, rajin benor cekya angkat hand break kalau depan bodyshop. maklum la, sale sampai 70%. walau tak beli, rajin sangat nengok barang-barang dia. macam besh jek. hehehe...

and i bought a bodysuit for baby mai. purple coloured with small little flowers kat dada baju tu. hehehe..comey sangat! and i managed to buy il divo.huhuhu...

masa tengah merayap dengan my colleague tu, someone called. cekya terlupa his number and forgot that i wouldn't wanna answer his calls. i've decided that enough is enough. dah malas lagi nak involve dengan dia. bila cekya jawab, berdas-das perkataan keluar. stuff like "mana menghilang?", "kenapa sengaja tak jawab call saya?", "tak nak jumpa saya ke?". aiseymen. i was hurt by him, and yet, i wanna be around him anymore, ka? i don't think so. bukan sombong. bukan nak buang kawan. but it's time to be selfish. i don't wanna be hurt anymore. daripada cekya sakit hati, it's better if cekya jauhkan diri. that would be better coz it seems that even i explained that i wanna be away, this chap is not taking a no for an answer. letihnya.

anyways, balik office, terus ikut parents cekya pi rumah baby mai. my dad brought some durian & kuini from my mak long's place kat muar, so nak bagi-bagi those fruits. when we arrived, ira & ika dah selamat tido after given their medication. both girls are having their flu and all. nampak very calm and serene jek tengok anak dara dua orang tu tido. hikhihik...

and baby mai dok menangis. tak nak tido. jenuh ibu dia dukung and buai-buai. eisk...then, bila dia senyap dengan mata terkebil2 dok stare kat ibu dia, cekya tarik kaki dia perlahan sambil cakap,"nangis la lagi maiiii...", and she'll start crying all over again... muahahahhaha....cekya ke, baby mai yang notty nih? hikhikhikhik...

gotta go. i wanna make some calls to someone who might be offering a job to me. or will she not? tengok la nanti macam mana...kalau jadik, my office would be beberapa tapak from wtl's office. hehehe...daaa people.

wassalam!

cekya, kalau dah tido....eisk!

salam...

pagi tadi, kemain liat lagi nak bangun. dah berapa malam, cekya tidur tak nyenyak. asyik terjaga. i guess it's because of the heat. adeh la...!

tapi pagi tadi, tak terjaga sampai mama cekya ketuk pintu. aisey. lenanya tido! maybe sebab penat jugak. petang semalam, lepas keluar office, cekya pi klcc to buy il divo's cd. to my surprise, the cd dah sold out. eisk! frust sangat! try carik salem power station but the music shop is no longer there. adeh...balik dengan tangan kosong dan perasaan yang hampagas. hikhikhikhi....

then, balik dari klcc, i went for dinner dengan my friends kat secret recipe, ttdi. biasa la, kalau dengan diorang, siap dengan gelak ketawa tak ingat alam punya. hikhikhik...perut kenyang, senak dengan gelak ketawa, mata ngantuk, diiringi oleh hujan yang syahdu-syahdan kat luar. alahai...ngantuk yang amat. send my friends home, pastu balik, clean up myself and tido.

pagi nih pulak, office dah macam kat cameron highland coz my boss lupa nak tutup aircond. aiseymen. udah ler sejuk dengan hujan malam semalam belum hilang lagi, masuk office macam masuk ice-box. hikhikhik...sabor ajerlah wahai boss...eisk!

petang ni, insya-Allah kalau tak ada apa, cekya nak pegi cari kat area bukit bintang sambil melawat 'borders' kat berjaya times square. hehehe... wanna buy some books la. dah tak ada stock nak diulit time malam. ada yang tanya, rajin cekya berjalan sorang. cekya memang prefer jalan sorang. it's better that way. i can decide where i wanna go. when i wanna go. what i wanna buy and i can take as much time as i want. hehehe...

gotta go. till later!wassalam.

i wanna have him..back!

salam...

rasa macam banyak sangat cekya nak cerita tapi tak tahu nak mula dengan yang mana. hehehe...anyways, my visit to kluang was alright. sepanjang perjalanan, banyak awan yang cantik-cantik. amazing views. and i decided to make an entry on awan sahaja. all in my fotopage. it's for you, mr awan...heheheh!

makcik cekya dah ok. dia dah pun sedar and she's not as weak as when she first admitted to the hospital. rupanya, she had a high fever on monday and then pengsan sebab terlampau panas, and oksigen tak naik ke kepala. ermm...seram jugak masa my cousins cerita keadaan dia at that time. sebelah kiri badan dah tak function and her eyeballs dah pandang ke atas. then hari rabu dia sedar and but she was so weak. alhamdulillah, when we saw her last saturday, she can sit and talk to us. memang keadaan dia dah beransur pulih.

then there were sunday & monday. i did nothing on both days. it was rather hot and i was home most of the time, helping my mom kat dapur jek. and we had air bandung with mashed buah kuini. with lotsa ice in it.

eisk. sedap woo..hikhikhik

and akademi fantasia's fever is here. kelakar. bukan the contestant tapi aznil. adeh la! he never failed to entertain me. gelak jek tengok dia. even my dad likes to watch him. hmm...speaking of entertainment, i saw oprah and simon 'rude' cowell was on the show to talk about american idol and also, the group he formed - ll divo.

man! bukan saja handsome but these guys have wonderful voices. memang la best sebab semuanya opera singers. they are from france, spain, us and sorang lagi cekya tak ingat la...cekya nak carik cd dia petang karang la. best sangat when they sang unbreak my heart, spanish version. erk...dengar lagu-opera style la pulak sekarang ni yek? hikhikhik...

gotta go. till later!
wassalam.

p/s : kelmarin, cekya mimpi someone. siapa dia ek?

pagi yg sunyi..

salam...

pagi ni, senyap je. walaupun sekeliling cekya bising, bunyi kereta, bunyi lrt, orang berasak pergi keje. tapi pada cekya, my world is kinda quite. masuk office, mkn kuih sambil settlekan apa-apa yang patut. receive calls dan attend to email kalau ada users' problems. prepare claim untuk tambang cekya pi nikko hotel semalam, dengan claim boss cekya ke shah alam kelmarin. dan settle, naik tingkat 5 dah settlekan a few IT matters kat atas.

and now, my eyes are filled with tears. bukan nangis tapi dah banyak kali dok yawning. alahai. ngantuknya. napa ek?

it's friday and i'll be heading to kluang esok. ada makcik cekya masuk ICU. so nak gi visit dia.
have a great weekend guys!

penawar dik asmara...

salam...

i had a deep conversation with a dear friend. it touched me more than anything for the past few days. been avoiding discussions on jodoh, on love life, on how far a sincere person can be when he/she is in love and loves their partner dearly. whole-heartedly. passionately. come to think of it, i love being busy. so i would not think of these stuff.

been to a few blogs and i can't be NOT sad for my friends. they've lost their love. their passion in life. stepping back to the former world. the place without the love that has actually contributed so much in their lives. i can't help but cry and grief for them. i was down for 5 solid years and i guess i can say this - "been there. done that." so they say.

and to make my heart ache even more, i saw this couple at the lrt, paramount station. i've been seeing them off and on at the station actually but the fact that i had discuss something about deep relationship, i was touched when seeing them again, this evening.

the lady, her right leg is impaired and she'll be with walking stick all the time. and the man will fetch her at the station and get out of the car to hold her and attend to her till they reach their car. every single time. he won't fail it. even if there are few cars lining up behind him. he'll just waived his hand at the drivers to give him a few second and assist to his lady. with great smile and his eyes will look at her affectionately. everytime. owh i am a jealous freak!

is that love, my dear friends?
is that true love?

many of us have not found their true love. some claimed that even they are attached to somebody, it is still not true love.

some questions. how true is true love? how do you classify it as true? with words? with the way you treat your loved ones, as what that guy has shown his lady?

i wrote this posting with a song for each on everyone of you and i'm still repeating it. it's just so soothing...

Malam bulan dipagar bintang
Makin indah jika dipandang
Bagai gadis beri senyuman
Pada bujang idaman

Belai kasih ingin dimanja
Dengan cumbuan mesra
Untuk pelipur lara
Penawar dik asmara

Malam bulan dipagar bintang
Tambah seri cuaca malam
Murni sungguh ciptaan Tuhan
Bulan bintang lampu alam

Andai kata bintang menyepi
Bulan tidak berseri
Malam menjadi sunyi
Tidak berseri lagi

{Bulan Dipagar Bintang - Allahyarham Tan Sri P Ramlee & Seniwati Roseyatimah}

have a good nite sleep guys. i won't be. coz i'll be thinking, what is actually true love? but there's just one thing i'm sure of, "andai kata bintang menyepi,bulan tidak berseri lagi.."

wassalam...

tentang dia...

melly's intuition!

i bought melly's cd after listening a few of her songs in tentang dia.
great tunes.

****delayed postings @ 9.55pm****

well i watched tentang dia last saturday and unfortunately, i don't feel as sad. it is a sad movie and it is about losing. losing your loved ones, losing trust, losing strength, losing confidence, basically everything, emotionally. gadis' character is actually rather weak. not the acting. tapi cara gadis handle masalah dia. the way things are happening to her, had make her feel worthless of herself and knowing rudi made things worst. she can't hold herself good enough. agaknya cekya dah terlalu banyak kehilangan. some people handle things differently. that, i wouldn't wanna deny.

maybe, gadis is not as emotionally strong, as i am.

but i'm totally amazed, on how she could avoid randu, the guy yang dok kejar dia each and everyday, giving her things, saying nice words to her and she managed to ignore him. kalau cekya, dah kalah dah. hikhikhikhik....

or maybe, i'm not as emotionally strong as gadis.

like i said, lain orang, lain cara pendekatannya on stuff in life.

overall, it's a good movie. i never say unpleasant things about other people's film or karya-karya orang seni ni. to me, if you can't do anything as good or nice as that, just sit back, and try your very best to enjoy others' work. it's not that hard, eh?

nite people. wassalam.

busy day, and an early nite.

salam...

didn't expect that my monday, yesterday, would be THAT hectic. came in early and my boss wants me to follow him to our subsidiary in shah alam. they've moved to a new office and there were some settings on network need to be done. we were there all day long. sheesh. didn't manage to get our lunch left us tired and sleepy. hahaha....cekya and my boss dok yawning dalam kereta, on the way back tu. hehehe...

sampai office around 5, terus ajak officemate cekya mamam kat belakang office. hhmmm....hot steamy nasi goreng ayam with teh ais. pehhh!!!...rasa macam so worth it dok berlapar since morning. huhuhuhu....tapi bibir cekya pecah, so kenalah makan slowly walaupun laparnya terkata. hikhikhikhik....ada hikmah juga pecah kat bibir ni. tak ada la berebut, yek?

then, cekya balik rumah, had my bath and solat, terus baring and sedar, dah pukul 6.30am. aisey! betul punya tido. it seems that i AM really tired.

i might be going to shah alam again a little later. tak sempat nak browse other people's blog. sorry guys! take care, wassalam...

...a belated wish...

annOyed!

salam!

it's 10 minutes to 8pm. i wanna go home but still in the office. oh yes, i enjoyed doing my tasks. but having to prepare things at the very last minute, i'll be hating my job like hell. duh! and having to do it in an 'urgent' mode is not THAT fun, eh? double duh!

and to make things worst, it's raining outside. that's why cekya takleh balik.

tadi, i called up my cousin, nak mintak permission dia bawak ira & ika to go swimming tomorrow morning. my cousin said they've been asking when am i taking them for swimming. hehehe..kesian pulak bila dengar. insya-Allah, kalau tak ada apa. cekya nak bawak diorang esok pagi. and i might be taking some pictures of them having fun. kalau la ada camera baru..*sigh*

tapi tak apalah, my 'ayang' Genius dah banyak berbakti and helped me record lotsa moments in my life. thanx a bunch my darling camera! hikhikhik...

i guess, cekya kena redah hujan jugak lah. i've promised my youngest brother to marinate some chicken for his barbeque party esok.

you guys, have fun during the weekends ya!

wassalam.

shoulder blades...

salam...

it's 10.30pm. i'm tired, but i wanna write what happened today in the office. but first, i'd like to say a little bit about the canon powershot i was eyeing for, for months...

and yesterday evening, when i was doing my monthly visit to the shop, cekya nampak its display model was not at the usual place. deng...! then i asked the salesgurl;

"dek, emm...canon powershot S1...hapentah tu, dah tak ada ke?", dengan muka yang cuak lagi disappointed.
"dah out of stock la kak.."
"owh, bila next stock sampai yea?", dengan muka yang dah senyum sikit.
"tak pasti la kak. maybe next month, kalau tak ada, memang dah out of production. sebab dengar ceritanya, akan ada model baru, nak tambah pixel pada model tu"
"abeh kalau tambah pixel, harga dia sama ke??", dengan muka yang masa mula-mula tanya adik tu.
"mungkin dalam dua ribu lebih la.."

adui. hampanya cekya! rasa macam nak rebah pun ada(ini adalah exxageration semata). cekya rasa macam budak kecik penggesek biola yang gi kedai muzik, tapi biolanya dah dibeli orang(macam cerita p. ramlee, cuma dalam cerita tu, budak tu dapat beli biola). cekya terus merayau ke kedai camera sebelah menyebelah, dan bertanyakan camera. negative.

i found some other nice cameras masa dok browse tu. i might be buying one of them. insya-Allah. been waiting for that moment for quite some time now. hikhikhik...

so, selamat tinggal canon...:(

anyways, i had a great day. masuk je office, boss cekya cakap my department dapat puji-pujian raihan from our MD. sebab we updated our website frequently and because of that, our latest vessel dapat contract worth 10 million USD. they got the vessel's info on our website. and all these while, it was me yang update everything. eisk..seronoknya! at least i know i'm contributing to something big for the company. and i enjoyed doing my work the whole day. sampai lenguh belakang badan nih. eisk...huhuhuhu

owh tomorrow's another day. i wanna hit the sack and have a good nite sleep. hopefully. why did i say hopefully? coz i've been sleeping at 3.00am since monday nite and i'm truly exhausted. then bangun pun lewat and i've been coming late to the office since monday. grief!

gotta go. sleep tight my fellow friends.

wassalam

p/s : richard gere & jodie foster. damn it was good. and sad. teresak-esak cekya menangis. i just wanna love again...:(

owh my!

salam...

i really wanna update...tapi cekya busy sangat. got loads of things to tell...one of them is, the canon powershot s1Is that i wanted so much is obsolete. no more in production. tatau la kedai lain but i went to canon's shop kat klcc and there's no more. duh!
i'll be writing more about it sat lagi la kot..

daa...!

pencuri lapar!

Perompak larikan 21 ketul ayam goreng, RM2,200

NILAI: Dua perompak yang menyamun restoran makanan segera, KFC dekat sini semalam bukan saja melarikan wang tunai RM2,200 tetapi juga satu barel mengandungi 21 ketul ayam goreng berperisa kari bernilai RM53.50.

Dalam kejadian kira-kira jam 10.50 pagi, dua perompak yang memakai topi keledar berusia dalam lingkungan 20-an itu dikatakan terus memasuki restoran itu.Seorang daripada perompak terbabit kemudian terus menuju kepada pengurus restoran syif malam, Shahasnida Muhammad, 26, yang duduk di tempat pelanggan sambil mengacu parang, manakala seorang lagi perompak berkawal di pintu masuk. Perompak terbabit kemudian terus memaksa mangsa mengeluarkan wang daripada peti simpanan yang mengandungi RM1,800 dan dalam mesin juruwang sebanyak RM400. Sebelum melarikan diri, perompak terbabit sempat mengarahkan seorang juruwang membungkus satu barel mengandungi 21 ketul ayam goreng berperisa kari sebelum melarikan diri.

Pemangku Ketua Polis Daerah Seremban, Superintendan Mohd Taib Latif, berkata ketika kejadian terdapat suami isteri yang sudah berumur dengan cucu mereka serta lima kakitangan restoran. “Kita menyiasat kejadian itu mengikut Seksyen 392 dan 397 Kanun Keseksaan," katanya ketika ditemui di tempat kejadian.

Sementara itu, pengurus restoran syif siang, Azrin Syiham Shariff, 27, berkata dua perompak terbabit dipercayai datang ke restoran itu petang semalam (kelmarin)."Perompak terbabit sudah datang semalam (kelmarin) sebelum kejadian dan mereka jelas tahu siapa pengurus restoran kerana terus menuju ke mangsa (Shahasnida) yang sedang duduk di tempat pelanggan dan memakai baju biasa."Walaupun mangsa memberitahu dia bukan pengurus restoran, perompak terbabit terus mengancam mangsa dengan parang sebelum mengarahkannya membuka peti besi dan mesin juruwang," katanya.

Sementara itu, juruwang, Norhanida Sharif, 21, berkata dia terkejut apabila tiba-tiba perompak terbabit mengacu parang ke dadanya dan memaksanya membungkus satu barel ayam goreng berperisa kari."Kerana takut dicederakan, saya mengikut arahannya membungkus ayam goreng yang diminta sebelum menyerahkan kepada perompak itu," katanya.

p/s : bagai nak pecah perut baca berita nih dalam berita harian online. muahahahaha...adeh adeh...cakit perut!!

happy mama's day...

i bought this for my mom for mother's day. she was shrieking with pleasure. mana tak nya, her favourite thing - knit & crochette punya buku. hikhikhik...

happy mother's day, mama!

love, cekya

baby emiera aina..

i can't help myself from putting up her pics. comel giler!! rasa macam nak gigit- jek. emiera is my officemate's niece.

babies are just adorable. no doubt about it! my life is full of babies lately! brilliant!

pinkie day!

salam...

my day was full of pink colours! i wore white with pink roses shirt and a pink tudung and my new pink casio watch complemented my appearance. then my dear friend ewa gave me a shocking pink blanket for my birthday. it was actually a belated present but what the heck! it's nice!

i love it!!

then after meeting ewa at kl sentral and had an early dinner, i went straight to lrt taman paramount and cek ejot was waiting for me. we headed for one utama. cek julie & cek ana were supposed to meet up with us there. actually, i also missed ewa's birthday and i badly wanted to give her something. she's preggy so i got maternity dress or shirt in mind. so i bought her a nice cotton shirt, so she could wear it to office or something like that. tak dapat pulak nak tunjuk coz i got the customer service's lady to wrapped it up for me. and i guess you would have guessed the colour of the shirt i bought. yes. pink. huhuhu... ewa would be annoyed & happy at the same time. huhuhuhu....

anyways, i realised, that i missed my friends' birth dates lately. so here goes;

ewa - 22nd april
ahmad dzuhair - 4th may (this chap actually merajuk coz cekya tak pernah lupa his birthday before this and cekya buat hal plak tahun nih. hikhikhik...hang majuk ya ahmad...?satgi aku beli kat hang ubat rambut kasik kelemumur hang clear, ndak???hikhikhik...)
and last but not least,
mr b.h - 5th may (the person i mentioned 2 entries before)

well i missed him terribly today. cekya pelik. why do i feel this way? sebelum ni, i was alrite and i'm so sure it's not pms! cekya tak tahu kenapa, but i can't concentrate on my work, people around me. i felt that there were so much to focus on. banyak yang perlukan perhatian tapi all i did was, think about him. and i'll just smile, just thinking about how comel his giggles are. adeh! parahnya. i was handling it quite well, till these few days.

does this show that i've gotta go and get him;
or is this a sign, that i should forget him, and 'us'?

i have already sensed the lost, and i've already felt the panic inside me. the outing with my friends did help a little but when i'm back and lie on my bed, it keeps running through my mind, over and over again.

duh! i'm actually babbling!

it's approximately 1:02am. off to bed.
wassalam.

05/05/05 @ 05:05:05, a time to remember!

you,

i’ve been wanting to write something for you. yesterday, i flipped through our memories. good ones, and i got myself in tears.why do i have to get to meet you. yes, i have to be grateful for the wonderful meeting. i have got to admit that it’s hard not to think and question, why hadn’t i meet you earlier. when we’re younger. when we’re free and not ‘tied’ with any commitments and obligations. why?

we kept repeating, “why didn’t we meet earlier?8 years back?”..we did not regret any of that though. and just settled for the phrase-“ini semua takdir Allah”…it was sweet just remembering how you asked if you could hold my hands when we meet. everytime. you asked if you could look me in the eyes when we meet. everytime. you asked if we could be happy and content with what we’re going through. everytime.

and now, we’re apart. at least i feel that way. and maybe because of the written destiny, we have to be apart. the fact that we don’t belong together makes it a good reason for not being together that often and as it is now, never. we were never together like before. we don’t talk anymore. we don’t laugh anymore. we don’t hold hands anymore. we cannot be together, anyway. oh i missed you so much. don’t you?

and this morning, i called you. to wish you happiness, on the day your mom gave birth to you and you sounded startled but happy to hear from me.

only Allah knows how i longed to be with you again. even it’s gonna be less than a second. coz that was all I took to fall in love with you.

lotsa love,
me

~prague duet @ lies & whispers~

i watched this vcd i bought in jb recently. sedih sangat. i tried putting myself at the heroin’s shoes. yup, i cried. it’s about an american psychologist,dr lauren graham. she went to prague, czech for a conference and falls in love instantly to a famous writer, jiri kolmar. He was also attracted to lauren and gave up his playboy ways, just for her. jiri nih disebut-sebut to be a minister of tourism untuk czech. he was a respectable man kat prague. lauren then decided to stay in czech with jiri.
masa kat prague, lauren tried to find if there are any living relations because her late grandfather was a czech. however, she found some shocking news about him and that he was actually with the nazis and have killed many children and two of them were jiri’s little sisters who was 7 & 9 years old at that time. it was jiri’s father who recognized lauren’s grandfather in her family picture.

their love is at stake.

lauren felt horrible. she felt guilty, confused and the news she just heard were just unbelievable. dia rasa bersalah sangat pada jiri, and his whole family. jiri kept convincing him that she’s not guilty of anything and she should not feel that way. news spread about their relationship, and the media, out of nowhere, knew about lauren’s grandfather. it has all jeopardize jiri’s chances of being the minister and lauren felt worst.

so she decided to go home. jiri try nak pujuk but she was in tears and truly wanna go home. so she went. back in chicago, lauren started working again and people stopped going to her clinic. kesian sangat. the news about her grandfather being a nazi dah spread and they won’t go to her anymore. so she decided to leave and went to some refugees camp untuk treat children. and one day, jiri came for her. to take her home with him…:)

p/s : suka sangat masa jiri ckp - "i'm completely in love with you..." masa he proposed and "promise me that you will not leave..." masa jiri told her about her late grandfather. jiri sungguh encem. ala-ala sean connery gitu. hikhikhik.....;)

welcome baby umairah!

nur umairah wahida ~ born on 26th april, 2005, at 6:40pm

salam...

as promised, here's baby umairah's pic. tak dapat nak amik gambo dia banyak-banyak sebab all of her poses are like the above. sama jek. sekarang ni asyik tidur aje. jarang bukak mata. sebab dia tahu, kalau celik mata, her two sisters tu akan kacau dia. bijak sungguh baby mai! huhuhuhu....

i also have uploaded some pics on my fotopages. dah bersawang. hikhikhik...so, enjoy!

wassalam...

...brit, birth & berth...

salam...

i had a tiring journey to jb. the 3 days turned out to be a little bit bored, far from what i have expected it to be.

quite comfy berth..

dengan kerenah my auntie yang kononnya dah jadik orang british. alahai... bukan tak boleh nak cakap english, tak kisah. i love talking in english. tapi takyah la nak ada accent sekali. baru 2 years, and she has changed alot, bukan takat accent aje. i wonder how would it be after 20 years. she might not know me at all. *sigh*

anyway, i can't really talk about that night's journey senan cekya sedap tidur. nasib baik tak terlepas ke singapore. cekya tersedar at about 550am. the train's suppose to reach jb at 630am. so i decided to baring-baring. instead, cekya tertidur, and alhamdulillah terjaga when they announced that dah sampai station jb. hahahah...hampehnyerlah! kelam kabut pakai tudung and kejut ny auntie. gila betul. kalau tak, kena mintak kak lun jemput la kat station singapore! hahaha...

and on sunday, pi tengok baby sister ira & ika...they're calling her mai - nur umairah wahida. tak tahu la confirm ke tidak but ira & ika dah address her as mai, so i guess they'll stick to the name la kot. nice name. love it. nanti cekya upload gambar baby mai...;)

yesterday was muar trip. ada cukur jambul. 2 of my cucu sedara-my cousin's cucu. yes. dah jadik tok ah cekya nih. aiseh! kahwin pun belum, dah ada cucu!huhuhuhu...;)

the highway was jammed. accidents, cars slowing down. cekya tak drive, tapi letih sangat. i can imagine how tired my dad was. then my second brother buat hal plak. he kept calling, tanya bila nak sampai coz he wants his weekly allowance coz he's going back to the hostel. my dad tried driving as quick as possible and try carik the shortest route. sampai rumah, he said actually he's going back this morning, and not last nite. and my dad relax je, saying,"oh, ok..."

adui la. makin menjadi-jadi perangai dia. wonder when he's gonna realise all that. it's 6pm. gotta go. i'm tired.

take care people. wassalam.