ola!

salam semua...

cekya tak tahu,kenapa dan apa sebenarnya yang terjadi pada my emotional condition.i can just blame it on pms but it seems like it is more than a hormone thingy...

and this time,with some 'help' from problems around me,things are getting worst.adoi runsing betul.rasa nak fly cepat-cepat ke uk and further my studies.kalau orang nak kata i'm running away from my problems or what not,i'm not afraid to admit that i AM avoiding those problems.kalau boleh solve,i'll face it.

ini,things that are not meant to be solved.benda tu akan menjadi kenangan pahit selamanya...
insya-Allah,cekya nak bincang dengan mama & ayah minggu depan.ahad ni,insya-Allah they'll be arriving kat klia at about 3pm...

cekya nak bincang dan ceritakan panjang lebar tentang segalanya.cekya harap sangat mereka faham akan kemahuan cekya kali ni.rasanya,dah tiba masa untuk cekya start anew.mungkin silap cekya sendiri...dan dah tiba masanya cekya merubah segalanya...termasuk tempat tinggal,tempat belajar dan tempat mencari rezeki...

and please,jangan fikir yang cekya tak sayangkan keluarga terutama mama & ayah.itulah harta yang tak ternilai buat cekya.but i guess i can give more to them if i were to migrate...and i know,i will love them much much more!

teringat masa cekya di uk,tahun 1999...pertalian adik beradik,and also my relationship with my parents are beyond everything...rasa terlalu sayang!bila dekat,bercakar tapi bila jauh,cekya rasa teramat sayang dengan adik-adik...dengan mama & ayah,apatah lagi...

pernah ada orang bertanya,"do you think that by going to uk,you could have settled every problems that you're facing?"..memang,cekya rasa 90% daripadanya akan selesai...dengan izin Allah!tak sanggup rasanya menangis sampai tertidur selama-lamanya...sudah cukuplah segala kepedihan yang cekya tanggung...

rasanya sampai sini aje sesi meluah perasaan.hehehe...dalam bergenang airmata,alhamdulillah,cekya masih lagi mampu tersenyum dan buat lawak dengan teman-teman rapat...

cakap pasal teman rapat,cekya nak pi ronda one utama esok dengan seorang kakak kat office ni.we're ambitious,sebab nak habiskan rounding at both wings.kita tengok la lutut siapa yang ketaq esok!hahahah.....

oh yea...lagu ni,lagu cekya masa kat college dulu,too much - spice girls!

Too much of something is bad enough,
But something's coming over me to make me wonder,
Too much of nothing is just as tough,
I need to know the way to feel to keep me satisfied.

i guess it is true,too much of something is bad enough but nothing is just as tough!i'll stop here.will write again tomorrow,or if my weekend's occupied,i'll just blog next monday...

have a nice weekend darlings!
wassalam...