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salam....

hari ni(pada ingatan cekya) is a birthday of a friend. once, he was the closest friend i've got. i told him every problems about me and him. well it turned out that i've got the wrong date, but the right age!hahaha...mixed up antara birthday & age dia. his day was 23rd and he turned 29 a week ago. then we started off by asking how each other are doing. according to me, i'm fine..hehe...but he was busy telling me how busy he is, with work, nak kahwin, how things have changed, his perspective of life. he was being patient all these while, handling life, bersyukur sangat - all of those things that you feel when you found the love of your life and having that person in your life, till the day you die. fine.

and he was telling me to pray, hope for the best, Allah will balas segala kesabaran kita, if you refer kat al-Quran, Allah ada sebut this and that - all those things that you said when you' re settling down, nothing else matters except for working out things to face the future with your hubby/wife, and you don't really need to hope to find someone to be with you, when there are no worries in mind whether you're going to get married or not, because you ARE getting married...in a month's time.fine.

i was a little irritated. no,no missy nice-lady today. boring pun ada tapi mengenangkan it's been a while since we contacted each other, and knowing that he's gonna get married, it was his birthday(which i'm still figuring out why did i care so much!), so i decided to ring him up and kept quiet till i got the space to mencelah. and there goes, segala laser-laser pun keluar, sampai terdiamlah cek abang tu.

it is very good to console other people. and i don't mean to deny whatever things that he said. apa yang dia cakap tu memang betul. and thru experience, he can say and advice me on what and how to do things. masalahnya, jalan cerita seseorang itu berlainan. dan usaha seseorang untuk dapat apa yang dia mahukan tu depends pada keizinan Allah Ta'ala. and if Allah does not permit you to do/have it, there goes. yang mampu kita lakukan hanyalah berdoa. redha.

degilkah cekya ni, seolah tak mahu menerima nasihat orang? i know, from his voice, he's kinda disappointed dengan penerimaan cekya. nak buat macam mana. dia dah jumpa dengan 'pintu' yang menghubungkan dia dengan kebahagiaan. dan cekya masih lagi terkial-kial dalam pencarian sendiri. secara mudahnya, cekya bagi contoh pada, katakan kita nak pergi rumah anuar zain(hahaha...contoh abg nuar la jugaaakkk). without peta. kita akan terus-terus mencari dan kalau kita jumpa, alhamdulillah dan insya-Allah, kita takkan ada masalah untuk pergi ke rumah anuar zain lagi. dan kita akan bagitahu semua yang kita dah jumpa rumah anuar zain. maka berbahagialah kita!

but, if it's destined that we are not suppose to find anuar zain's place,yet, then kita akan terus mencari, mencari dan terus mencari. nampaknya, we're not meant to meet anuar zain, not yet. sedih woo... abg nuar cumil.hahahah.... kita belum ditakdirkan untuk bertemu dengan 'pintu' yang menghubungkan kita dengan kebahagiaan tu..
maka teruslah kita menghadapi ujian Allah dalam pencarian tersebut. pada cekya, that's how we settle down. the destiny.

ermm...kalau ada yang merasakan terlalu sempit pemikiran cekya, harap maaf. ini kenyataan. kenyataan yang tidak dapat cekya sangkal.

wassalam.... s : hari ni, rasa macam nak tengok wayang lagi. huhuhuhuh....