but why?

salam bloggy..

it's approximately 11:05pm.cekya belum tidur.perut masih senak dan mengah from my berbuka puasa.letih pun ada but i don't feel like lying on the bed and have my eyes closed...

cekya rasa,cekya accidently got myself into trouble.me'rasa'kan satu perasaan yang tak patut cekya layan buat masa ni.
serik.
pedih.
semak.

semua rasa tu akan berputar-putar dalam fikiran cekya.it's something that i'm not suppose to feel right now...it's too early...

and the truth is,i don't wanna feel anything mushy like that for the next 5-6 years.
i feel stupid.
i feel weak.
i feel out of control.

i hate it when i feel so dependant to the feelings.cekya rasa lemas sangat.dan bila dah rasa macam tu semua,i will hope for 'something'...itu yang buat cekya rasa sebak dan sedih dengan perasaan yang tak reti-reti nak 'berdikari' bila di'lepas'kan begitu tanpa ada apa-apa kawalan.i wasn't expecting anything like this to happen though...tak suka betul la!eisk...:(

dan cekya rasa,i have to rajinkan diri to get myself busy.now dah ada kereta,makin panjang lah langkah cekya to search for location untuk snap more pictures.dah lama camera cekya rehat.it's time to warm those pixels again...

cakap pasal camera,i really wanna buy a new digicam.uwaaaa.....ada sapa-sapa nak bagi advance birthday gift?hehehe...i'm eyeing for any canon punya digicam...

rasanya cekya nak jalan-jalan cari pasal weekend ni.sabtu,ada hal,ada tahlil kat rumah cekya...the normal monthly tahlil.mak dah plan nak buat laksa johor...nyum! nyum!so i guess i'll be going on sunday...things to do;

- watch butterfly effect kat tgv-klcc
- snap picture,maybe area taman klcc as i've never been there.besides,i need a good walk!
- survey canon digicam(mana tau,masa tengok-tengok,ada pakwe encem tetiba nak volunteer bayarkan...huhuhu...berangan la cekya....:p)

huh!it's wednesday and i'm planning for my weekends.adui...nampak sangat cekya boring dengan kerja...
anyways,good nite..it's late.will write again tomorrow,insya-Allah...

till then bloggy,wassalam...