done.

salam...

i guess this is going to be a long entry.
there were so many things that have happened for the past few days;

kak lun got her second hero.[payah betul nak sebut nama your baby nih!]
awan got a new dslr camera and visiting singapore. [i envy you!]
cekmi got a new mum for raya. and he likes her. splendid eh? [you looked blushin red yesterday. why eh?]
wtl finished her classes with flying...errr..not colours but bebel2 coz she got a "ntah apa-apa lecturer" and shared answers with her classmates in the exam hall.[ding dong bell, gurlll!!!]
i_mshe's worried sick about her mommy. hoped she'll fine in no time, sis. [hugs!]
kak emmy hold a brilliant 'open house' yesterday. smashin' food. groovy tunes. [one of the biskut sedap sangat. the one with choc rice on top. heaven!]

me? i had muar on saturday. slept the whole journey, pergi, and balik as well. sheesh. last week was pretty tiring for me. banyak keje cekya nak habiskan before i go for that two weeks holidays. i repeat, TWO weeks. and my new short, kecoh, berlagak and stuck-up GM a.k.a OTP[read : orang tua pendek] is questioning my leave. hello! it's only TWO freakin' weeks!
minggu nih pun busy jugak. nih pun dah fedap mengadap kerja and from the look at it, i have to take home some stuff. and the worst thing is dok siapkan keje orang. as if!!! takper. sabar cekya. i hope london would give me a pleasant surprise. and as at now, i'm not excited for london. geez!

sunday, a visit to kak emmy's place, and 2 other friends later that evening. it was great, meeting my friends and letting go those ridiculous documents. good fun, will upload 'em piccas later..;)

emotionally, i'm just ruined.
i've got a friend. a close one. no strings attached. should not be any. but i found out that this person has been going out with someone. intimately.
cekya marah? yes.
cekya jealous? yes.
i do have a little feelings tapi tu tak membuatkan cekya marah & jealous. i know where i stand and this feelings won't go far.
the reason why i'm just so pissed off that this person actually lied to me on a few occasions. the reason of lying to me is because of the girl he's seeing. he lied. oh come on. kuala lumpur is considered a small town. malaysia ni, kecik aje. wherever you are, putrajaya, kajang, bangsar. akan ada orang yang kenal. and sikap orang malaysia ni, ala kecoh sket. mesti bagitahu. and being a close friend to him, i was told of these stories. why did you lie to me?
bukti?
oh i have proofs. and it's just so sickening. annoying. and it has made me cry, and broke my hearts into a million pieces.
napa ek cekya nangis? why should i?
entah. cekya pun confuse. and trust me, i hated these feelings more than i have ever imagined.
confront him? untuk apa? what rights am i going to claim? i have no relationships whatsoeva with him. kang tak pasal-pasal kena balik. and lately, i've been very somber and unenthusiastic with the stuff he talks or anything that he plans for us. kecik hati? i guess.
and i know he's just so annoyed with my attitude.
nak buat cemana, i just can be quiet. pendamkan aje. bukan nak. tapi terpaksa. they say some things are better left unsaid. i guess they missed out the part, "and it'll hurt like hell".
i just pray, the person i mentioned above would read this and understand why i'm not being myself lately. too bad. the heart's ruined!

oh i'll write more later. ada kerja pulak!
wassalam.