reflecting...

salam!

lama cekya diam since kejadian amok dalam blog nih. hahaha....amuk tu dah hilang, cuma still rasa sebal of what had happen. bila teringatkan perkara & orang-orang yang terbabit sama dalam kejadian tu, hati rasa marah, tak tenteram dibuatnya. tapi sebab cekya ada job wedding last weekend, i had to let go and buat bodoh. my confidence to shoot was really dropping that friday. rasa nervous nak snap pictures. and rasanya, cekya masih tak dapat nak get over the inferiority complex of meeting new people. going to weddings, i mean untuk amik gambar, requires you to be extra friendly, extra nice and gotta actually TALK to people.

so, bila dicampur-campur, memang bergelodak la isi perut nih. rasa nervous, marah dgn kejadian hari tu and the need to be extra friendly with the silly inferiority complex membeli belah yang ntah apa-apa tu, i did the shoot. i was not satisfied of the pictures. macam ada yang missing.

the passion. oleh kerana sebab-sebab yang tak elok tu, i've lost my passion that day. the pictures taken are ok. tapi tu lah...i hope my mood will improve in 2 weeks to come coz we're having another wedding on the 20th.

i know i can do it but it's not showing in my picture...:(

sekarang ni pun, cekya masih lagi rasa tak seronok dengan what actually happen last week. rasa bodoh tu still terasa. bila fikir-fikir, terus terdetik,"alahaiii...bodohnya aku!"

emm cekya dengar ada orang singapre nak turun KL next week. wtl, please inform me of any meetings. would wanna join you guys for a drink.

so, till later...take care!
wassalam.

p/s : the above picture was taken for a contest, entitled malaysian heritage. cekya amik gambar ni 2 weeks back. it's my mom's tempat bakar kuih cara or kuih bakar. and the tikar mengkuang, an old one. hehehehe