..tears in heaven..

i tried to hold it back.
i forced myself not to allow it to happen.
but who am i to turn everything back.
to let things back at its places.
and i cried. hard.

talked to tatot for a while, she had something to do, so fine. i
i guess by not talking about it would make things better.

nah!

it got worst.

and i'm still in the office, half of the office's lights are off though it's only 630pm. i'm in my cubicle. letting my tears flow as they want to. i can't hold back.

not today. not now.

i've lost it all. my self-esteem, self confidence and everything associated with my goodself.

all of 'em.