have you guys been in a situation where you really, really don't wanna do something. like you have this weight in your chest, saying, no, don't do it. instinct that tells you not to do something or else something pretty bad's gonna happen?and you, being you, just do it. langgar aje apa kata hati cakap. hati dah cakap, fikiran dah bilang. tapi still buat gak. in the end, sendiri suffer. degil la lagi!it happen to me today. and i feel freakin' crappy about it. do list down things that are negative, super negative, harsh, volatile, evil....anything! name it. it's all in my chest.how can you be so stupid, girl!!!!!!!!! i'm just so bloody mad at myself. nape la bangang sangat.eisk!and i cried. i cried coz i was being dumb. i cried coz i saw it coming, but still, i took the route i wanted too. i took the way i wanted too. you're old enough, so cekya, next time, think! for goodness sakes! next time eh? will there be a next time?i am idiot. such a fool, you are!
salam!
i've been wasting my time in the office. tak buat keje satu apa pun. all i do is either blog-hopping, fotopages-hopping or play with my pictures, doing editing and that sort of thing. malas, menyampah, bosan, cukup! hahahaha....my boss is not around. he's on leave today. so....that explains la! hahaha...
semalam, lrt went bonkers. dari pukul 630 till around 930. kawan cekya dah muka lain macam. bengang, merengek, annoyed, panic...and all lah! she just got a job here in kl and she's not used to these kinda stuff. as for me, dah biasa dah lrt rosak. when things like this happen, cekya boleh imagine the lrt's technical guys, trying to solve the problem soonest. sure pressure habeh. it seems that nearly 1000 passengers were trapped in 3 coaches. kesian diorang.
tapi, passenger yang faham, tak apa...nih jenis yang tak faham, memberontak. masalah jugak yea. here are some piccas for you guys' viewing pleasure. klcc, taken last 2 weeks, at nite, of course. the second one, burung tu cekya shoot kat zoo negara & the last one is the sandy beaches, shot during my recent weekend getaway with some friends. enjoy!
love, cekya.
salam!
last saturday, cekya gi snap-snap kat kuala selangor. i'm actually hunting for pictures to be send for one of the photography competition. so we went to a perkampungan nelayan, right after bukit malawati. the place is just so damn calm. senyap je. and they lead a simple life. nampak relax and no kelam kabut punya.
then, on sunday, i went to the wedding i mentioned in the earlier posting.
and the quest that i told you guys about, below are the results. we're planning on printing some pictures of me, and 2 other friends to make it as a birthday present.
zuhri la yang tukang snap gambar. goodness, it was awkward for me as i'm always behind the camera.
kali nih, bertukar position pulak. we had fun during the shoot. bukan shoot kat mana-mana pun, kat rumah cekya jek.
seronok gak sesekali buat activity tangkap gambar sendiri. lawak!
oklah. cekya nak sambil surfing. lately malas nak buat keje. hahahahaha!eisk!
love, cekya.
p/s : cekya rasa tak best sangat 2-3 hari ni. ntah!
salam!!
hi bros & sistas.
cekya teramat sibuk hari nih. tapi sempatttttt lagi nak blog. hahahah...fotopages pun sempat update tadi. above is one of the pictures i posted. do visit my fp. hari nih buat entry black & white. terasa gloomy pagi nih..wuhuuu! lately mengantuk la kat office nih. tido lambat hari-hari. it's either balik lambat dari kerja, or doing some photography related work, ataupun membaca. dah lama rasanya tak membaca and last week, i bought myself 2 novels. mind you, the pride & prejudice's cover on your right hand side tu dah tak valid. and i'm reading when rainbow ends, by cecelia ahern. cara penulisan unik, bukan macam normal books coz it contains letters, emails, chats, as well as cards to do the story-telling. something different. tak ada lah boring sangat.it's about 2 bestfriends, having each other, not knowing that they don't only have each other but meant for one another. best jugak lah! and ada sense of humour. sigh! sometimes, apa yang depan mata, kita tak pernah appreciate but when it's no longer in front of us, baru terasa, baru sedih, baru terkilan and what not. pelik manusia nih. selalu nampak yang jauh. yang dekat, buat tatau jek...sad but true.oklah, cekya nak gi klcc, gotta buy a wedding gift for a colleague. so sunday, i have a wedding to attend, not to shoot[at last!!] and esok pulak, i've got a quest. nanti cekya cerita kemudian.take care and have a beeeutiful weekend, guys!
love, cekya.
salam!i hope you guys had a great weekend. mine was too. but tiring. wear-off betul! tapi, kerja punya pasal, i had to tahan all that. ikutkan memang nak tumbang. hehehe... the wedding was in pagoh. went with zuhri and his family in one car. sampai je, around 5pm, terus buat kerja, till the nikah, sampailah orang balik, which was around 11 something. makan sikit, then cekya terus mandi and tido. the next day plak things starts at about 10.30am sampailah pukul 5.30pm. yeap, 7 hours straight. no rehat-rehat and makan-makan. then balik tu memang pengsan la dalam kereta. zuhri didn't get to sleep, kena drive pulak. pengsan-pengsan pun, i had fun bullying zuhri's son, adi. adoh lawak la budak tu. at first, he was the one dok bully cekya, tapi masa balik tu memang cekya plak bully dia. best wooo... mengekek-ngekek kitorang ketawa. he's one fun boy. :Dthen semalam, cekya turun kluang pulak, to settle some stuff. pegi, 3 jam, balik, 4 jam. i had to take the bus back to kl sebab parents cekya nak turun jb. tak tahu la kenapa skema sangat bus driver tuh. kalau ye pun jadik pemandu berhemah, agak-agak le! rasanya kalau pregnant, dah terberanak la dalam bas tu. eisk!!gotta remind myself, not to take that siput express anymore!p/s : gambar atas tu are some of the shots of the wedding. more @ http://redmedia.fotopages.com.love,cekya
salam!hullo friends. lately banyak keje. tapi cekya tak buat sangat. macam dah malas dah keje company nih. rasa disappointed dengan keadaan dan apa yang telah dijanjikan. buang masa jek dok concentrate buat keje. ngadap blog hari-hari lagi bagus!selain keje, team redmedia pun ada problem. bukan internal tapi ada orang-orang yang kurang waras dah tabur nasik dalam rice cooker nasik tambah kami. apa masalah dia, cekya pun tak tahu. dulu, memang ada orang tak betul tu ada masalah dengan cekya and it was settle there and then. tup-tup, baru ni, dia dok slam-dunk gambar yang kami ambil untuk product shoot teapots tu. kalau betul tak agree, tanya la dulu apa yg sebenarnya kitorg buat. jangan la main hentam. and he even condemned the way we work during a wedding. tak professional langsung.i feel sad and down, coz maybe disebabkan cekya ada selisih faham dengan dia, he's giving it back this way, membabitkan team members. entah la...rasa macam nak lempang jek. well, we gotta accept facts that friends can turn into your biggest enemy. sheesh!and this emotional bag that i'm holding onto my chest is making things worst than ever. weekend nih, redmedia ada wedding job. do wish me luck. i just wanna focus and snap piccas better.wish me luck bros and sistas.love,cekya