to move on...

salam...

sunday. it's been helluva week. frustration, worries, regrets were all over me.
eventhough it's over, i still worry.
i guess it's time to grab another 'cab' and go to the next destination. it won't be good if i stay.
but it is also not good to move on. crap!

and i'm having a nasty headache today. that's double crap!

i'm no miss cheerful anymore. went to ikea & the curve yesterday. took a few pictures. i'll post it in fotopages tomorrow. till later...enjoy life while you can.

love,
cekya

a way out..

salam...

it's been a tough week. obstacles are like tv soap series! bersambung-sambung. tak sudah-sudah.
lepas ini, itu.
lepas itu, ini.
i guess anyone would feel as bad as i'm feeling if they are in my situation. pedihnya!

maybe this is a sign for me to move on, start anew. some door to something better for me. perhaps.

do pray for this worried, sad and terribly miserable lady.

love,
cekya

in my heart!

Dihempas ombak
Terdampar buih
Menanti waktu pulang ke laut

Begitu rindu
Di pisah takdir
Meniti saat bersulam cinta

Lihat...lihat..
Ke dalam mataku
Sinarnya menyala
Lihat...lihat..
Ke dalam mataku
Cintamu bertakhta

Sebelum ku kenal
Dirimu siapa
Aku tak kenali
Apa itu cinta

Setelah ku kenal
Dirimu sebenar
Kau cinta sejati
Kusandarkan jiwa

Digilis angin
Tercarik awan
Menanti detik sebelum hujan

Begitu sendu
Diguris resah
Meniti hari bersulam tangis

Takkan berganjak pendirian ku ini
Selagi kita tak kembali bersatu
Selamanya

Takkan berubah perasaan terhadapmu
Biar digugat
Biar dicabar
Biar dihalang

Farah Dhiya / Bertakhta di Hati

helluva week...

salam...

hi guys. port dickson was great. as always. the girls were naughty and unbelievably annoying. as always. and i was having fun and worried about a few stuff. not as always, though.

i've learn lotsa stuff. learn, bukan belajar tapi realise, that friends are not always friends, in the right meaning and sense. i was frustrated. orang yang cekya anggap kawan, teman susah senang, were actually back-stabbers. ermm...no. i won't put it as back-stabber. but it IS something like that. i guess helping out friends and being nice to people is just not worth it. i kept thinking about it that i forgot to eat, slept at 2 in the morning. i just can't 't believe myself! maybe i was THAT frustrated. kecewa sangat dengan sikap orang-orang yang kononnya rapat dan boleh bantu waktu susah. deng!

for the first time, in 4 years, i felt sad being in the office. the first thing i look forward to everyday now is balik time. i just wanna be home. and i truly truly appreciate my mom. she was with me all the time. she even called to check whether i'm alrite. mama, thanx so much!

dengan kata lain, hati dah tawar with what had happened. i'm turning into a very quiet person. let it be.

wassalam.

p/s : i've posted pictures during the trip to pd. enjoy!

bijak, bijak!

friends,

enough said!
hikhikhikhik...
bagus betul kawan ku nan seorang ini...

love,
cekya

friendtastic 2..

salam....

went for movies semalam with miss tatot. she had her kambing-related headache and i was furious at ktm's kommuter. it seemed that the trains were delayed. i had to get out of the platform and took a bus instead. kommuter nih macam sengaja tak bagi cekya naik la. hari tu, terbabas ke seremban. ni delay pulak. carik pasal betul eh?

but soon as the movie starts, miss tatot's i-wanna-hit-my-head-hard-on-the-wall headache IMMEDIATELY disappear. huh! and she started to tease & kenakan cekya on our way to the carpark & also on the way home. chet! i don't think my ponstan healed you miss tatot. it's the fantastic 4. and yes, you're hot. in your head. makan la kambing lagi. hehe!

siapa-siapa yang ada plans to watch this movie. go watch! bring your kids, your nieces, nephews, anak jiran pun ok! besh la! i truly had a good time. ketawa coz cerita tu lawak la jugak! fun, fun, fun! lupa sekejap dengan benda-benda kusut bin masai dalam kepala ni. dan tatot pun terlupa sakit kepala angkara kambing kat kepala dia. sakit atas mata la, bawah vetebrata la, kat tepi medula oblongata la...ceh!

spend your weekend with the fantastic 4, guys! eceh!
wassalam...

dripping..

salam!

it's a cold morning. i guess it has rained the whole night. pagi ni cekya bangun awal tapi sampai office lambat jugak. baju yang plan nak pakai tu, button dah longgar. kenalah jahit kejap. pehtu ada plak jahitan kat hujung baju yg dah nak terbukak jelujur dia. jahit la jugak. maklum la, baju lama. kebaya masa cekya kat college dulu. huhuhuhu...nak dekat 8 tahun dah baju tu. pastu lupa pulak nak gosok tudung malam semalam. aiseh! leceh betul la. makanya, sampai lambat jugak walaupun bangun awal. eisk!

dalam seminggu dua nih, cekya asyik sampai lambat. entahlah! buat apa pun dah tak bersemangat lagi. blog ni pun jadi mangsa. cekya cuma posting gambar-gambar yang kat fotopages saja. gambar masa balik muar and also my friend's wedding.

banyak contributing factors yang buat cekya jadik gini. as i mention, pasal html but tentang tu, it's a small matter. mak cekya pulak kurang sihat lately. demam. with her coughs and all. my mom jarang sakit tapi sekali dah sakit, berhari-hari. yesterday morning, her left eye macam kabur pulak. tapi malam semalam, kurang sikit batuk dia. dah tak macam malam-malam sebelumnya. sakit dada betul dengar dia batuk. risau jugak tengok dia macam tu. her sights pun dah ok. alhamdulillah. we're having a family trip to pd(again) on saturday. i hope she'll recover soonest.

ada lagi issues tapi rasanya macam tak terluah. tak tercakap. let it be la eh? hmm...gotta go. i've got some stuff to do dalam server room. till later guys.
wassalam!

p/s : checkout my fotopages. ada gambar pengantin baru...;)

a silly, but necessary move..

salam all...

i was away, 1% of the reason being because of html. i wanted to do something else. time does not permit. i was busy clearing up my place. too much papers and stupid things. 60% is my boss'! i'm still organising. i republished my blog, coz i know, some of you are actually worried about me. thanx so much!

first thing's first. why? no specific reason-lah! there are many! but i just wanna be alone. sorry guys, i did not pick up some of your calls and reply any smses. i don't feel like talking/replying, interacting... minta ampun sangat-sangat.

orang kata, some things are better left unsaid. i was and still upset. full stop.

lotsa love, cekya

semusim...

salam...

it's raining outside, it's 1230pm sharp and i'm terribly hungry. aduh pedih peruttt...uwaaaa!! i did not take any breakfast pagi tadi so dalam perut nih tengah nyanyi-nyanyi lagu bila resah by anuar zain...hahahaha...adeh lapo!

semalam, sungguh tak productive. sikit pun tak buat keje. i studied adobe photoshop's techniques instead. and i manage to burn my friend's brother's wedding, siap dengan background music sekali. it can be viewed using vcd or dvd player. muakakkaka...and that's another software. besh sungguh!

then later that evening, i went for some drinks with my friends kat nasi kandar kayu, ss2. hujan lebat, hot teh tarik. anything better than that? takde kot! hehehehe...

*lunch break sat, hujan dah reda!hikhikhikhik*

ok i'm back! basah pun, basah lah! i just couldn't be more hungrier. sambil lunch tadi, we watched vcd at my workstation, tengok cerita lady boss! adeh la kelakar betul saiful apek tu. lawak gila! me & my colleague actually planned nak pi tengok kat cinema tapi tak jadik. sampai dah keluar vcd pun, ada sorang lady boss kat office ni beli. so tengoklah ramai-ramai...hehehe

ermm....dah musim buah. i'm going back to muar tomorrow, insya-Allah. itupun kalau mak cekya dah sihat. yeah, dia demam. maybe musim buah & demam dah sampai...demam AF pun iyea jugak kot? huhuhuhu....

gotta go! wassalam.

my baby, you!

as i look into your eyes
i see all the reasons why
my life's worth a thousand skies

you're the simplest love i've known
and the purest one i'll own
know you'll never be alone

my baby you
are the reason i could fly
and 'cause of you
i don't have to wonder why

baby you
there's no more just getting by
you're the reason i feel so alive

though these words i say are true
they still fail to capture you
as mere words can only do

how do i explain that smile
and how it turns my world around
keeping my feet on the ground

i will soothe you if you fall
i'll be right there if you call
you're my greatest love of all

marc anthony - my baby you

[invisible to everyone]

salam....

today, i'm in black tudung. ramai cakap, muka cekya nampak lain. macam apa ek? or macam siapa ek? huhuhu....
nothing much happened for the past few days. i actually sold my old camera. kesian kat dia. but a close friend of mine bought it from me. yeah she's a close friend. tapi malam tu dia lain sangat. she came to my house at about 830pm. with her officemate. dia dok carpool dengan that lady. fine. and her friend was rather quiet. she'll speak but cuma bila ditanya. fine. so off we went for teh tarik kat ss5, with another 2 friends. 5 of us. we laughed and talked and kutuk and laughed again.

tapi yang mengherankan cekya, kawan cekya tu senyap je. ketawa pun macam tak nak ketawa. we've been talking and dok ajuk the way she laughed all these while and that night she was laughing like "hihihi" only. then sikit-sikit pandang kat her officemate tu. macam takut nak ketawa pun ada! napa ek? control ke? or maybe she's different in the office. but...why? why do you have to be someone else and act differently towards your friends. can't she be herself? i've known her for years and this is the first time that she's a little different when we're with someone from another angle of her life.

hmm..people change, eh? or mungkin, dia pun dah berubah?

wassalam.

p/s : i would want things to be as before. but future is not my hands!

a night to remember?

salam....

i'm not sure where to start. i'm not sure how do i start. i went to my cousin's wedding last friday. it was kinda tedious coz i had to get ready in the office, then take a cab to nikko hotel. and i met with a pitiful incident. i truly hoped the boy whom had an asthma attack nearby the lrt would be in a good condition now.

the ballroom was nicely decorated. satu jek yang cekya tak suka. its lighting. lemah betul kalau nak snap pics with orange lights and it's from the candles ONLY. huhuhu... i snapped a few je coz memang payah nak snap. bosan betul! can't really take pics. ada la sikit and you can find it in my fotopages.

berbalik pada wedding, the bride & groom came in at about 830pm. punctual jugak! and we had english style food. besh gak. something different, and also, the same day at lunch, i took nasi beriani so i would wanna swallow something different. masa makan, ada little kids on the stage, menari zapin and few other dances. comel sangat!! and tiba at the end of the dinner, the mc announced that there's a surprise for the bride. and this chap came out of no where!



menggigil ler gamaknya cekya! goodness...fanatikkah aku? at that moment, yeah, i do call myself a fanatic! terduduk je sambil record whatever he sang. tak teringat to get up and snap pics. aiseh. terkedu!!

sabtu, ahad...asyik terfikir pasal dia ni. aiseh!! teruknya!! kesian tatot sebab balik from the wedding, i called her straight away!! muakakakak...maafkan kami...maafkan kami...maaa-afkan kaaami....ewahhhh! ecececehhh...macam pendekar bujang lapok la pulak! sorry la kacau your beauty sleep...hikhikhikhik...

anyways, getting myself buried in mr. zain's amazing voice, i got my heartbreak healed! eceh!
have a good evening dear friends...;)

wassalam!

p/s : untuk yang tak suka anuar zain, mintak maaflah atas posting yang so anuar!hikhikhikhik....

tak sanggup lagi dilukai...

(gambar hiasan - cd yang tatot dapat belikan untuk cekya. at last, dapat jugak!!)

salam!

indeed, a good weekend. lepak with the girls, saturday with tahlil and sunday with my good friend's elder brother's wedding...i'll upload the pics later. fotopages down la pulak hari ni. i guess it was from yesterday. i hope the page would be better. i noticed they decreased the resolutions of the pictures uploaded...deng!

perut sakit. am suppose to go the fitness centre today, tapi macam malas jek. with a stomach pain, i guess sebab lauk kenduri semalam la..adui peritnya! asyik berulang alik ke toilet..more than 5 times dah...letihnya!

it's 5 pm! and i'm still not sure where i'll be heading...daa!!

wassalam.

salam....
it's been a not so very good week. sad, breakdowns, tears. they are all over me. i truly hoped my weekend would recharge my batteries! alhamdulillah,yesterday was fun. i followed one of my colleague for swimming at one of the hotels kat kl nih. the pool was nice but the swimming was damn funny! we had few funny scenes! hahahah...my colleaue, she banged her head on the pool's wall! hahahaha....last week, cekya terhantuk jugak masa pi swimming dengan miss whales. sampai naik urat kepala member cekya tu. rasa cekang betul muscles kat perut masa ketawa tu. adeh la..tak tahan sangat-sangat. the funny part was, dia ingat dia dah sampai to the other end. rupanya baru 2 kali kuak, dah sampai. macam pelik jugak, tapi rupanya terhantuk dinding sebelah kiri...muakakakka!! moralnya, pakailah goggles ketika hendak swimming!

i'll be attending a wedding on sunday. i hoped to capture some nice pics. till later people. have a great weekend. i am so sorry for not being able to blog-hop...busy amat cekya minggu ni...

daaa!
wassalam...

p/s : checkout my fotopages. ira & ika buat aksi-aksi yang separa terlampau. hikhikhikhik!