between my eyes...

losing a love so dear
it's just so painful
knowing that it's not mine
accepting that it will not be
yet wanting it near my heart

shall i fold myself
and be quiet
and treasure the loneliness
feeling the absurdity
yet getting senses in my wretched mind

emerging into a dungeon of sadness
oh i can't afford that
i don't wanna face that
not anymore
not ever
not again!

cekya
5:29pm
18/04/05