ONLY YOU..

where are you?
it's been days since i've waited for you..
online, on phone, i even imagined you at the office lobby..
where are you?
there are no news whatsoeva..
even a single word for me..
i'm just wondering, where are you..
what are you doing now..
i can keep in touch. i did give you instant messages..
coz i don't have your number..
my fault. i didn't ask. i've forgotten all about it when i hear you talking..
who are you actually stranger?
who keeps filling my mind with you.
only you.
sheesh!

grilled birthday!

salam!

i had a birthday dinner last nite. it's a good friend's day, cek aan. she looked radiant. we had sate kajang hj samuri. nope, bukan kat kajang but kat uptown, pj. huhuhu..didn't know that they have an outlet there. besh jugak. makin dekat dengan rumah cekya. takyah susah payah gi kajang lagi ye?

got back at about 11, watched friends, pastu terus baring-baring sambil baca buku. tengah nak termamai tu, my cousin-ira & ika's mom called. her hubby admitted to kjmc. he got migraine, pastu doctor gave him a jab. agaknya tak sesuai, his face swelled and he got difficulty breathing. then doctor gave him another jab, i guess a different one kot. terus tak sedar, sampai lah ke pagi ni. terus mintak adik cekya gi tengok coz cousin cekya sorang-sorang. kesian pulak dia. i can't go, perut tengah memulas-mulas time tu. besides, hari ni kerja, gotta get up early and stuff.

and i just called my cousin to check his condition. alhamdulillah pagi ni ok sikit, dah sedar but the doctor tengah amik darah untuk buat test. i just hoped that he'll be ok. seram betul bila dengar macam tu. cekya pun ada mild migraine. hopefully taklah sampai kena macam my cousin.

gotta go. take care people!
wassalam.

weekend...

salam!

alhamdulillah, kenduri sambut ramadhan at my mak long's place berjalan lancar. we didn't continue our journey to jb. maaf la tatot, jangan kata manggis, bayang-bayang manggis pun tak nampak. yang tinggal pun duku & langsat. masam plak tu. eisk...bertambah masam ler wajah cek tatot yang memang masam lately tu. hikhikhikhik...

anyways, sunday was more fun. i planned for a photography session with my good friends. one of the gang is celebrating her birthday today. so we went to ikea & the curve's area. snap loads of pics. then singgah ikea to buy any frame that we could place our chubby faces for my friend's birthday. we found a frame that can place 4 photos. the perfect one, i would say. i'm in the midst of selecting the pictures and would send it for printing this evening.

i truly hope she'll like it. we even planned to force her to put the frame in the office. i'll take some pics once the frame & pictures are done. i'm kinda excited. it's been quite a while since i did something like this. the last one was a huge card for KRU..duh! hikhikhikhikhik...

then, we had meatballs & spaghetti for tea @ ikea. beautiful meals. nyummy!!



after office, the birthday girl ajak mamam satay kajang kat uptown. i am so tired to go. coz yesterday, i went to a friend's place kat kajang for a kenduri sambut ramadhan as well. but we're not gonna give the present today. on sunday, insya-Allah.

alrighty then. gotta go!
wassalam.

and it's friday....already!

salam...

rajin betul cekya update blog lately nih yea. maklum la...tak sesibuk dan sepenting fellow bloggers yang lain. so keje pun tak ada la banyak sangat ek. huhuhuhu....iyeaa la tu. keje cekya, lepas satu, satu, lepas satu, satu. aiseh. semenjak semua dah in order nih, kerja dah macam biasa masa kat office lama. routine stuff, time to time calls.

anyways, dalam tak berapa sibuk tu(konon), meja cekya belum lagi berkemas. tengok ler gambar kat atas tu. dengan CD yang berselerak. all sorts of documents, diskettes dan lain-lain. malas betul nak kemas benda remeh-remeh tu le. hikhikhikhik...


anyways, cakap pasal benda remeh, i've settled one benda remeh. my insurans & roadtax. sedar tak sedar, minggu depan, genap la kereta cekya setahun. yey! happy birthday wira! at first, macam takut-takut nak uruskan benda-benda tu semua, tapi cekya dapat rescue call dari mayban finance untuk settlekan semua, and yesterday, i got my renewed roadtax & insurans policy. thanx wtl sebab explain pasal insurans tu. hikhikhik...maklum le, tak pernah....malas nak mintak tolong ayah, so cekya buat le sendiri. tak sangka, senang jek. just a few phone calls have made the deal.

i had sleepless nite dok fikir pasal insurans tu. cemana nak renew, nak kena gi mana, macam mana nak cakap. hahahaha... ntah apa-apa ntah ek? i'm usually like that. kalau nak buat sesuatu for the first time, memang risau. even the smallest & the simplest thing.

oklah, gotta go. i'll be going back to muar & jb for the weekends, so do enjoy yours!

wassalam.

Your Blogging Type is Kind and Harmonious

You're an approachable blogger who tends to have many online friends. People new to your blogging circle know they can count on you for support. You tend to mediate fighting and drama. You set a cooperative tone. You have a great eye for design - and your blog tends to be the best looking on the block!

What's Your Blogging Personality?

Your Blog Should Be Purple

You're an expressive, offbeat blogger who tends to write about anything and everything. You tend to set blogging trends, and you're the most likely to write your own meme or survey. You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you - not what anyone else has to say.

What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?

salam...

hari ni cekya demam quiz. lepas tengok kat blog wtl, cekya pun try out a few tests. hehehe...besh jugak. "your blog is about you, not what anyone else has to say." huhuhuhuhu...macam pedas jek ayat tu. tapi betul apa...we blog about ourselves. what we think. what happened in our lives. who we met. expressing ourselves.

all about us. happy writing people.

wassalam.

pop-pop corn!

salam!

semalam, cekya buka puasa kat klcc. memula tu, ala-ala malas la nak buka puasa. coz tak ada member, tapi, tepat maghrib, puasa, kenalah dibatalkan, ye dak? so i went to klcc. mamam mcdonalds' grilled chicken foldover. aiseh! tatau napa, lepas minum & mamam fries, rasa kenyang teramats sangat. i guess sebab minum gassy drink kot. i was terribly full. terus bungkus miss foldover, decided to makan kat rumah, tunggu perut reda sket. after maghrib, i head home.

bila sampai rumah, nak tengok tv but all channels are showing crappy stuff. sabar ajelah! astro yang berpuluh channel tu, satu apa pun tak berkenan nak tengok. eisk! buat membazir jek cekya bayar tetiap bulan. bukannya tengok pun, orang lain yang dok mengadap. hehehe...tapi, kalau cekya balik lewat, sure ada movie best. ceh! sabotaj betul la astro nih...hmmm....

anyways, banyak perpindahan berlaku among the crews. pindah rumah, pindah office, pindah minda, pindah hati.

pindah hati? hmm....

have a great day at work fellas!

wassalam.

hmm...

salam...

it was a lovely saturday evening . it was somebody’s wedding. my parents and all of my families, aunts, uncles, cousins, nieces, nephews are all in the ballroom. i decided to take a stroll at the garden. it was full of pink and white roses. cekya nampak dia. he looks good in his tux. dressed lavishly. handsome? nah! something about him that i’ll always love.

i saw him singing at one of my cousin’s wedding dulu. everybody knows that i adore him so much. anuar. eisk! cemana pulak dia boleh ada kat sini. he walked towards me and asked if i’m here alone. i said no and explained where my other comrades are. and he offered his hand to accompany me into the ballroom. i was extremely shy. majlis will start any minute now, let me accompany you inside, he said.

aseh! cemana nih? he grabbed my hands anyway and we clasped our fingers. he was holding tight. i'll never forget that! eceh! then we entered the ballroom where everybody has taken their places. i went to the table where my whole family were hanging out. here’s my family, i said. hmm…introducing your family already? he said. and he smiled knowingly. uh! i was just being nice, mr zain!

i introduced everybody. he, however, stopped at at one of my my cousins. she was a stewardesses dulu and i guess they know each other. then my mom called. i turned around. he’s already besides me, clutching his fingers with mine. eceh!

i was about to introduce my mom to him when i heard my mom said…

ehh bangun laaa! kata nak teman mama pi rumah makcik liana, hanto kuih…!

adeh! mama..mama….ganggu betul ! tengah best mimpi di pagi ahad nan mulia nih……

huhuhuhuhu...

lately, kerap beno mimpi dia. napa ek? but seriously, bila cekya dah macam kurang minat dia, mimpi-mimpi macam ni akan datang. macam nak ingatkan cekya, not to forget him. ceh!

anyways, thanx for making time to read, my friends. huhuhu...
wassalam and have a nice week ahead!

silly fifty!

salam!

kalut..kalut!

petang tadi cekya singgah klcc. kononnya nak beli syampoo yg dah abes. i clearly remember, i've got 60 bucks in my purse. so dengan confidentnya, masuk pharmacy and grabbed my pantene, terus pi counter. bukak purse, ada 15 bucks sahaja. terkial-kial cekya carik my 50 bucks note. korek handbag, korek purse. last-last, i took back the syampoo and korek bag lagi. nasib baik tak punch in kat cashier. kalau tak, i malu! huhuhuhu.....

memang la duit tu cukup untuk bayar syampoo but i was worried about my 50 note tu. mana pi? i remembered putting it in my handbag sebab nak cepat and didn't put it in my purse. cekya dah risau, takut cicir mana-mana coz that is the only money that i have, sampai gaji. damn!

hati kemain risau lagik. balik dari office, i went to meet up with my friends, lepak kat syed bistro nearby my house. bual-bual sambil gelak, but i was still worried. risau sangat pasal duit tu. i only have 15 in my purse.

tiba je rumah, cekya geledah semua handbag yang ada dalam bilik. nope. the money was not there. adui!! tambah risau! cekya keluarkan isi handbag, and still, i didn't find the money. mata dah bergenang dah. duit akuuu!!! uwaaa!!! puasa la sampai dapat gaji, nampaknya! uwaaaaa!!!

sekali, entah cemana, cekya selit jari kat tepi purse tu. tadaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!hikhikhikhik....duit tu ada kat tepi purse rupanya. ada small pocket kat tepi purse cekya tu, and masa tu, baru cekya ingat yang cekya selitkan kat situ. huhuuhuhuhu...terus tak jadik nangis. hikhikhikhik....

cengeng!

moral : kalau dah pelupa tu, takyah la cuba-cuba nak selitkan duit sana sini. konon nak sorok, terus tak jumpa! hikhikhihik...

ntahla. lately macam blur semacam. kelmarin, tertelan ponstan 500mg tu, 2 bijik, so altogether 1000mg. cekya ingatkan panadol. siap muntahkan balik semua isi perut. tapi ubat tu tak keluar jugak...masa tu dah siap mengucap. mana la tahu, tak bangun pagi lagi. bak kata rabbani, pergi tak kembali. haruuuu!!!!

thanx tatot, ko telah membuatkan aku tenang seperti sedia kala. huhuhuhu!

wassalam and nite-nite people!

bilang saja!

salam!

good day everybody!
i guess i was a little bit toooo upset in my previous entry. hey nobody's perfect and smiles all the way. i believe there are ups and downs for all of us.

apa pun, cekya masih lagi geram dengan orang tu, tapi takpelah, let him be. tak kuasa mauk layan deh! hikhihkihkik...

hari ni, as usual, kerja memang banyak. those small-small stuff, bila kumpul, banyak betul! berterabur atas meja ni. and i'm yet to snap pictures of my new office. nantilah, when i'm free, i'll snap a few, kasik tunjuk office baru. for the time being, kalau amik pun, i don't think the pictures would be nice coz there are some places yang still under repair or construction.

eventhough cekya selsema, i can still smell the paint & syellex. ugh!! anyways, i'm not in the best of health. malam semalam, cekya menggigil sejuk. i've got fever, along with running nose. after maghrib, cekya tido. terjaga pukul 11, clean myself, makan, and took 2 tabs of panadol actifast. lepak sekejap depan tv, then tido. memang badan betul-betul rasa tak sedap.

alhamdulillah, pagi ni bangun, demam dah kebah, berpeluh-peluh dibuatnya. cuma hidung masih srot sret lagik!

i hope you guys are in a pink of health!

wassalam.

lengthy ramble...

salam....

it's 6:23pm now. i'm suppose to head home already, tapi i'm still here. ada family dinner tonite tapi cekya tak ada mood la nak meet people. my uncles, aunts, cousins & nieces. and my mom have been remiding me about the dinner. i just don't feel comfy around socialites. tak faham kenapa nak kecoh-kecoh to go to the dinner. i guess lately, i'm just so fed-up with these 2-faced people. when they laugh, does not mean that they enjoy it. they smile, but they hate it. then buat baik to get what they want. hidup mewah atas kesusahan orang lain. berpura jadik someone they're not. eeeiiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!!idiots. takyah la nak berpura-pura. be as you are. live life as per what you can afford. bila berpura-pura, diri sendiri yang susah. creeping to other people's pockets to patch their financial issues. what's that??? nak impress orang with people dengan benda yang you tak ada, that you don't really own.

and the funny yet ironic about it is, they get away with it. yeah! lepas! no hal! takde masalah. boleh settle at any time or cost. geramnya cekya! kenapa la manusia-manusia ni, bola buat silap, they don't bother. they did not worry of things happening or going to happen to them. pelik ya!

anyways, last nite, i wrote a lengthy entry and decided to close the window without posting it. rasa macam type mengarut je. i feel like i have something, bottled up in myself, waiting to burst. tapi apa yea? someone commented on my being semalam. this old man, said that have a big mouth. huh? what's that?

orang tanya, cekya jawab. whatever he said, i answered. apa yang salahnya. i guess he got annoyed coz i manage to answer his arguments kot. so what? women should not have brains ke? we should just be quiet and angguk-angguk, geleng-geleng whenever men say or ask anything. no offense gentlemen, tak semua macam tu kot. and when i say all that, dia cakap cekya kuat menjawab. and he said, no wonder, i failed in my previous relationships. duh! and that's when most snapshots of my life before this came in my mind. i cried. sampai hati yea, dia cakap macam tu. he did not even know me. takperlah, i rest my case, since he did not know me, almost at all! he can't be blame. not 100%. geram lagi cekya, buat sekian kalinya. adui!

what is it that you men want????
i'm just a human being for goodnes sakes. i'm not an animal...
i have flaws. i have a heart. i can cry. i can feel sadness. please, be patient with me. accept me as i have accepted your flaws.
i felt like i've had enough. damn!

ahve a good weekend, ladies & gentlemen.

p/s : to my sisters, sorry for the language. to my brothers, sorry if i have offended you.

pain...

salam!

hari ni, genap seminggu cekya pindah office. so far so good. cuma jauh sikit dari lrt so i had to wake up earlier than the usual time. bila dah train bangun awal dari biasa, cekya dapat memo tadi, that they’ve amended the working hours being 9 to 6. deng! aiseh. lewat la pukul 9 tu. matahari dah naik. not good for morning walks. confirm peluh berjurai bila brisk walking ke office. ataupun cekya kena setup closet sendiri kat tempat cekya so that i can change once sampai office? overnya! hikhikhikhikhik...

anyways, these few days, kaki cekya sakit sangat, bisa kat tapak kaki, both legs plak tu. mula-mula, sakit coz banyak angkat kotak berat-berat. baru je nak elok sket, berjalan kaki jauh pagi-pagi. not good for my feet. dah pakai macam-macam kasut for walking tapi kaki still sakit. adeh! tatau la bila boleh baik. memang bisa sangat-sangat, especially in the morning. rasa mencucuk when u step onto the floor. jalan pun dah macam orang tempang!

it’s 530, i better make my move. would be having dinner with my collegemates malam nanti. lepak-lepak kat mamak. Huhuhuhu…

gotta go. daaaa!
wassalam…

the 1st one...

Your Birthdate: December 1

Your birthday suggests that are executive ability and leadership qualities in your makeup. A birthday on day 1 of any month gives a measure of will power and self-confidence, and very often a rather original approach. This 1 energy may diminish your ability and desire to handle details, preferring instead to paint with a broad brush. You may be sensitive, but your feelings stay rather repressed.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?