Thursday, December 30, 2004

menjadi mithali...

salam....

lupa nak cerita, member cekya yang naik pelamin ahad lepas, masuk office. sabtu pagi, barulah bertolak ramai-ramai ke pahang untuk majlis sebelah pihak lelaki. ini antara perbualan cekya thru YM dengan huda;

cekya (3:41:08 PM): seronok ye huda...solat pun berimam skrg
cekya (3:41:08 PM): ;))
huda (3:41:40 PM): :)
huda (3:41:54 PM): pas solat buley calam n cium tgn hubby
cekya (3:42:00 PM): hehehe
cekya (3:42:06 PM): hmmmm
cekya (3:42:12 PM): meremang lak bulu roma saya
huda (3:42:32 PM): naper?
huda (3:42:44 PM): awk nih
cekya (3:42:52 PM): syahdu wey
cekya (3:42:53 PM): ;))
cekya (3:42:55 PM): :-j

huda (3:43:02 PM): ceh, trying 2 b isteri mithali gituh

hmm...sebak dan syahdu bila huda sebut salam & cium tangan hubby. tatau kenapa tiba-tiba perasaan jadi gitu. dah tiba masanya ke? cekya tak fikir macam gitu...sebab syarat-syarat sah 'ijab-kabul tak complete lagi...

kenapa ya aku rasa macam ni? sedih la pulak...:(

wassalam...

d-va@aku, dia dan kamu...;)

salam...

wow!such a refreshing day, even if i was having flu and all. also, the pain on my shoulders. semalam pi facial tu, akak yang buat facial tu picit belakang sekali. hari ni, punya la sengal!even my jaws terasa sengal. betul punya tenyeh muka kitorang. ingat nak ambil gambar but kami-kami diminta berkemban semasa facial dijalankan. so, tak dapek la...huhuhu...kang jadik blog 18sx pulak sheblocks nih.hehe...


dan yang best masa facial tu, cekya disahkan mempunya kulit yang tak ada masalah. even masa process 'korek'(maaf, terpaksa guna term nih sebab sakitnya, mak ku tuan...Allah saja yang tahu!airmata cekya sampai meleleh!!), tak banyak white heads atau anasir-anasir lain. hehehe....maklum la, orang tak guna make-up, tak kuasa nak try product kecantikan, tu pasal muka pun tak ada benda. tak adventure sungguh!huhuhu....

anyways, i got a truly, truly, truly good response @ my fotopages.
penghulu thought me how to make pics alot better. and he hand in few very good tips for me.he also edited one of my pics. memula tu, cekya tak nampak specialnya gambar tu. biasa jek. tak cantik and kabur. tapi tengoklah hasil kerja penghulu nih;


saya tabik spring ah kat awak!

and tadi, masa cekya lepak-lepak lepas lunch, i tried out the tissue paper trick untuk cut down the flash volume. i must say, it makes alot of difference;



wah lah! hmm... banyak lagi yang cekya tak tahu nampaknya. so i guess, i'm not the only one who has problems with very very flashy flash lights.

oklah, cekya ngantuk ler...nak pi surau, nak solat.errrr....hehehe
daaa!
wassalam...

p/s : tengah gila lagu aku, kau dan dia. best ah lagu tu....."...betapa bodohnya diriku, mau diduakan dirimu..."

Wednesday, December 29, 2004

#taman kejam#

salam...

semalam, sakan cekya carik kotak digital camera. nak study balik manual dia tapi kotaknya entah ke mana...!cekya rasa ada, tapi i just could not figure out kat mana cekya letak. i've might have misplaced it masa renovation work kat rumah kelmarin. tanya jugak kat ayah sebab ayah cekya rajin mengemas. dia tak ada nampak. mama pun tak nampak kotak tu. tak apalah...these things, kalau carik, memang tak jumpa. tapi kalau tak carik, tuuuu diaaaa!!hehehe...

anyways, masa tengah selongkar kotak-kotak cekya, i saw my savage garden cassette, bought masa cekya kat college. gila betul dengan lagu truly madly deeply! and i love each and every song in the album, but TMD's a favourite!


I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish, I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly Madly Deeply Do
I will be strong, I will be faithful
Coz I'm counting on

A new beginning
A reason for living
A deeper meaning..yeah..
I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

And when the stars are shining
Brightly in the velvet sky
I'll make a wish send it to heaven
Then make you want to cry
The tears of joy for all the
Pleasure in the certainty
That we're surrounded
By the comfort and protection of
The highest powers
In lonely hours
The tears devour you
I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

Oh can you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes
Coz it's standing right before you
All that you need will surely come

cekya pun amik cassette tu(and i immediately forgot about the digicam's box i was looking for), amik kunci kereta and dengar dalam kereta. i was missing my car and also my past. it all blends-altogether! cekya dok termenung dalam kereta. tak ada apa yang cekya fikirkan. my mind was completely blank masa tu. even masa adik cekya tutup lampu garage(he didn't know i was outside and i didn't start the engine), cekya diam jek. i sat there in the dark.


rasa tenang? entahlah. rasa lapang jugak, despite my coughings and sneezing. tidur masih tak nyenyak, and i was damn sleepy dalam lrt pagi tadi. it's been that way for the past few days. tidur tak nyenyak, not only because of my health, but the heartbreaking stuff that had happen.

i'm not saying that i'm good and perfect, tapi kadangkala, kita kena jugak ketepikan perasaan kita sendiri to NOT hurt others. tapi, kalau setiap kali, cekya yang mengenepikan perasaan sendiri...what is there in the friendship?and kita boleh cakap yang others sukar or tak boleh langsung untuk memahami kita.

it's the chances you give people to understand you more.
it's the effort that really matters.

cekya tak salahkan awak. awak ada rights to act and feel, mengikut apa yang telah sebati dengan diri sendiri. tapi, tak ada salahnya kalau kita bagi peluang pada orang lain untuk memahami diri kita dan menerima nasihat orang lain.

maaf kerana telah mengandaikan sikap awak, tapi, cekya rasa, ada cara lebih baik untuk menepis or deny andaian cekya dengan cara yang lebih manis. i know, the period of time yang kita kenal amatlah pendek untuk cekya mengenali awak luar dan dalam, but there's no need to insult my intelligence.

don't say "i can't help it, it's me". andainya memang begitu cara awak, change for better. pernah awak katakan dulu, berubah kerana kita sendiri mahu berubah, bukan sebab orang lain. then, change for a better you. bukankah berubah kepada yang lebih baik itu hijrah namanya?

cekyakah yang bersalah? kalau cekya yang bersalah, dengan secara terbuka, cekya pohon ampun dan maaf. namun cekya tetap kecewa dan jauh hati dengan sikap awak.

*sigh*

sedih, sedih, sedih. so i had to forget about things for the time being. lepas office, cekya nak temankan miza@driver teksi merah bumbung tinggi(my colleagues@akak paling rapat kat opis) pi giant, beli bahan-bahan untuk dia buat sandwich. kata dia, esok ada pot luck @ her toastmasters club. then, we all akan pi rumah soraya(another colleague) to do facial!hahaha...


ini la pertama kali cekya nak buat facial. tak pernah-pernah. miza and soraya memang 'hantu' beauty and fashion. things yang tak kena dengan minat cekya tapi dah diorang ajak, meramaikan majlis, so i agreed. orang yang buat facial tu will some to soraya's house to 'do' our pretty faces. we'll just see the difference la nanti yek?

so i guess, itu saja cerita untuk hari ni. till later guys!
wassalam...

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

dia, seorang teman...

salam...

it's 2:39pm. i felt dizzy and all. dada sakit. asyik batuk dari tadi. very very disturbing. lunch time, i managed to take some rice. rasa nak terkeluar balik but i just ignore the feeling. ewa called tadi, she cancelled our meeting lepas office sat lagi. she's suppose to pay duit kutu. morning sickness dia dah melarat ke evening sickness so she went straight home lepas dapat mc tadi. so i guess i'll be heading home after office...

oh my, my....it's another 2 hours plus till the 'bell' rings...i miss my bed...:(

*******************************
and a little something, for my future reference...i'm sad, i'm sick, uncomfy...ughh it's just a terrible feelings stucked in my body!:(



sometimes, there are things, yang tak perlu dicakapkan, sebab, tak ada apa lagi yang perlu diperkatakan. i'm hurt, physically & emotionally. but what can i say...it's faith, it's written by Allah Ta'ala. something that i can't deny nor ignore. it's my half of the bowl..cekya redha!
wassalam...

rounders @ kampung baru!

salam...

tengok gambar kat bawah ni;


you all pernah main rounders? it's something like baseball. cekya nampak these kampung baru kids main rounders tepi office and terus snap gambar diorang. teringat masa cekya kecik, we always-always play rounders depan rumah. me, my 2 brothers, my cousins-4 of them, and my aunt-tak la tua sangat masa tu,7 years older than me. there should be 4 angles macam yang dalam gambar tu-usually ditandakan dengan selipar and satu selipar lagi kat tengah-tengah. kira tempat baling bola. we usually used tennis ball dan pakai kayu baseball yang plastic tu. ringan jek, macam cota(read:kayu itam yang polis or rela dok pegang masa buat ronda tu...!)seronok sangat.

we were shouting, screaming and laughing like nobody's business!hehe....best woooo...! run forest run!hahaha...ada yang jatuh tertonggeng. ada yang pukul bola, pastu the other group takleh carik bola, puas ler orang yang tengah lari ni buat home run ntah berapa kali!hahaha...sambil lari, sambil gelak. semput tak hengat!

anyways, balik tu, cekya singgah jugak beli mini telekung untuk ira & ika;

comel ek?? sabtu ni, family cekya akan buat monthly tahlil and i've told my mom to give it to the kids. sabtu nih, cekya tak ada, nak ke fraser's hill, insya-Allah. dalam kepala ni, dah tak sabar nak pergi, bukan sebab apa, tapi sebab nak snap photo banyak-banyak. it's been ages since me and my family visited fraser's hill. and cekya kena make sure, my coughs and flu baik by friday sebab semalam mak cekya dah cakap,"cemana nak pergi sabtu nih, awak asyik batuk jek nih.."

ermm...makan pun dah tak selera...asyik layan biskut kering.ntah ah. the quality of my health is truly bad at the moment. anyways, have a great day, guys...
wassalam...

p/s : cekya dah update the story. sesiapa yang interested, please proceed...hehe bunyik dah macam MD cekya la plak!!

Monday, December 27, 2004

lelah sendiri...

salam semua...

cekya sebenarnya letih. penat. melayan kerenah badan cekya. since friday, badan tak sihat. badan tak berapa panas tapi cekya batuk-batuk, sakit dada dan macam termengah sebab udara takleh nak go thru ruang udara ke dada. lemas betul.

sepagi sabtu, lepas subuh, cekya berlabuh atas katil. rasa nak demam, tapi badan tak panas. makan 2 biji panadol and off to bed. dalam pukul 2, cekya terjaga, masuk dapur, makan sikit, and makan ubat lagi. tidur lagi. cekya betul-betul letih hari tu. then pukul 4, cekya bangun dan siap-siap iron baju & tudung. nak ke ttdi jaya, shah alam for my cousin's kenduri doa selamat. insya-Allah, 07/01 ni, he and his wife nak menunaikan haji. proud of him. salah seorang pakar dalam bidang s.a.p software.

balik dari kenduri tu, berdekatan dengan junction ke glenmarie, kat traffic light, conversation sambil gelak-gelak dengan ira & ika diganggu oleh bunyi screeeechhhhh & gedegangggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!and all of us terdorong ke depan. sah! accident! ira dah nak nangis coz she hit her head kuat kat dahi cekya. terhantuk.

rupanya, our car, and kereta belakang, a feroza telah dilanggor-tak-hengat-donia oleh sebuah kereta wira. cekya turun, amik gambar serba sedikit. cekya jeling-jeling kat abang yang pakai wira tu. muka dah cuak teramats sangats. and bila tengok kereta dia, terbeliak le mata cekya. his wira was...err....bad! bumper depan dah cecah ke jalan. dah berderai dah enjin kereta dia. eisk! apa jugak la yang dalam kepala abang tu sampai lalai macam tu sekali. eisk...duit semua tu...nak repair...dah la kena cover insurance sampai 3 kereta...alahai...


...kereta ayahndaku...

bila dah ada kereta sendiri...or ada commitment yang melibatkan duit, kadang-kadang even orang buat salah macam tu, ada la jugak rasa kesian. bila tengokkan kereta ayah yang kemek dan compare dengan kereta abang wira tu, kesian pulak rasanya. cekya tak pasti kalau orang lain but i feel that way. ntah la...asyik kesiankan orang jek la cekya ni. orang lain, tak ada pun kesian kat cekya...:(

and sunday was actually a tiring day for me. dengan keadaan kesihatan yang tak mengizinkan, cekya ke area kl untuk 2 weddings. mula-mula, ke keramat. wedding huda, my colleague. alhamdulillah, her beloved hubby was discharged that very morning. denggi. dah seminggu cek abang dia dalam ward. masa nikah pun, lari balik rumah kejap sebab nakkan huda. hahaha... selamat pengantin baru huda & jalal!




check out this pretty girl's wedding @ my fotopages!

then, beransur pulak ke gombak. wedding dah habis but definitely not the food. makan-makan and terus kak driver hantar cekya ke lrt. masa tu rasa dah tak tahan sangat. jenuh rasanya menunggu almost 20 minutes dalam lrt. rasa nak landing cepat-cepat atas katil. tak terkata letihnya! with coughs and sesak dada. cekya rasa macam nak pitam.

tiba saja kat rumah, cekya dah mengalah dengan badan sendiri. cekya terlelap sampai ke maghrib. bangun untuk solat dan sambung baring semula. tak boleh jadi. cekya terus mintak adik belikan 100 plus. lepas minum sikit, ckeya baring semula. berpusing-pusing atas katil. lemas. sekejap bangun. sekejap baring ke kiri, kanan, tertonggeng, tertiarap. semua style ada. eisk! payah betul nak lelapkan mata bila dada perit dan batuk mengganggu. it's all very disturbing. dan cekya tak tahu pukul berrapa cekya terlelap. sedar-sedar, dah pukul 6 dan terus siap-siap ke pejabat.

and i'm still tired. balik ni, cekya nak singgah jalan masjid india. nak belikan tudung untuk ira & ika since diorang dah nak masuk kelas agama next monday. pejam celik, dah nak sekolah dah! sebak pun ada. alahai....emo la plak...




kalau nak pakai tudung gini, payah nak pinkan!

ibu diorang mintak belikan mini telekung. orang tengah sarat, tak larat nak berjalan area tu. cekya pun faham. so i guess i'll be dropping by @ masjid jamek later. gotta go guys...

wassalam...

Friday, December 24, 2004

pants on fire!!

salam...

yesterday, was the day that truly challenged my patience and all.

first.
they guy that handled my dad's laptop refused to accept the laptop's warranty. memang la period of warranty dah abes, but it ended early this month. tak sampai sebulan pun and they say, if i wanna fix it, it'll cost me a hefty rm1,800!!!i truly hate unexpected expenses. i contacted they guy again and he's still seeking for some adjustments from the people @ the support center. deng! i was pissed off. big time! and a friend of mine, changed his water pump untuk kereta dia and he had to pay double the normal price. the freaking mechy charged for upah pasang more than the price of the parts itself. double deng!

second.
after office, i promised a friend @ dang wangi lrt station. she wanted to buy a new handphone. hers was stolen last week at her bestfriend's wedding.(cekya dapat pencurik tu, memang cekya hantuk kepala dia dengan handphone tu!!grrr.....). so, we took the monorail and stopped @ bukit bintang.


we went searching for the phone she wanted. nokia 7610. banyak wooo..duit minah ni! huhuhu...and to cut story short, she was cheated, somehow rather. the price paid for the phone is far more expensive than the first price discussed. dear mista ah-peh, may you burn in hell for lying to my dearest friend!eisk marahnya aku!!!that's a triple deng!






anyways, masa tengah sibuk nego price, another friend of ours called saying she's @ lot 10. she joined us and sent us home right after that. dah malas nak jalan-jalan lagi. the face & memory of the ah-pek conning us still linger...duh! on the way home, i talked about my trip to cameron. mainly about how lorry & bus drivers drove down-hill. and this morning...this came up in the papers;


IPOH: Lima orang, termasuk dua pelancong asing terbunuh, manakala 17 lagi parah apabila sebuah bas ekspres Kurnia Bistari terhumban ke gaung sedalam 25 meter di Kilometer 12, Jalan Cameron Highlands-Simpang Pulai dekat Pos Slim, petang semalam.

more news?click here.

gotta go guys. it's 12pm. we got a half day today because of the x-mas celebration tomorrow. i'm off to klcc, insya-Allah, to watch a movie. cerita apa? hehehe...i'll story about it on monday la yea?hahaha....and also, i'll be having a kinda busy weekend. esok, i've got kenduri doa selamat @ ttdi jaya, shah alam. my cousin's gonna perform his hajj with his wife. and on sunday, i've got 2 weddings to attend. i'll snap some pics, kalau sempat.

oh yeah, i'll be uploading some pics yang my friend(yang kena tipu dek ah-pek tu!) took masa wedding bestfriend dia last weekend. love the pelamin.

take care guys. have a good weekend!wassalam...

Thursday, December 23, 2004

salam..

pagi ni, cekya busy sikit. ke sana, ke mari. ada seorang staff warded, kena denggi. so i have to take over his tasks. kesian gak la kat dia. even kawan cekya yang nak nikah sabtu ni, tunang dia pun masuk ward. setakat nih, dah 3-4 cases yang cekya dengar. dalam busy tu, sempat jugak cekya baca online papers. macam-macam cerita ye sekarang. manusia makin zalim. bak kata kawan cekya, itu bukan manusia, tapi syaitan!rasanya, cekya terpaksa mengiakan kata-kata dia. it’s just so cruel for a so-called human being, to rape and kill a little girl. moga Allah memberi balasan yang setimpal kat orang tu!jahat sungguh!!


on a lighter note, cekya ada ternampak satu opportunity untuk cekya dapat digital camera tanpa mengeluarkan satu sen pun! hehehe….i know, the possibility of winning adalah teramat sangat tipisnye but there’s no harm in trying, right?? so, sesiapa yang interested to enter this digital photography contest, logon to this website.best eh? the theme’s “Something Old, Something New”…well i have to get started and do some snapping…!

esok, the office has given us a half day leave. so i guess i'll be planning for a movie, after office. yeyy!! insya-Allah i'll get to watch alexander. yeah..yeah..it's just so back-dated since sekarang dah banyak new movies. pada cekya, movie like this, serupa macam troy, king arthur, you need to watch it in a cinema,baru best...kalau tak, tak thrill ler!

and, i have already faxed the receipt for the laptop that my dad bought a year ago. rosak, and they wanna see if it's still in the warranty period. sad to say, it was bought on 7th of december. yup!dah lepas warranty period! deng! but i have called my friend to arrange whatever's possible. dengarnya, main board ada problem. kalau kena bayar, geeezzz!!!

anyways, gotta go. ada kerja menunggu.

p/s : biarkan kemesraan berlalu, bersama kesunyian yang padu - sudirman hj arshad.

pelangi petang - allahyarham sudirman hj arshad



ku meniti awan yang kelabu
ku tempuhi lorong yang berliku
mencari sinar yang menerangi
kegelapanku

ku percaya pasti suatu masa
sang suria kan menyinar jua
membawa harapan yang menggunung
bersamanya...

engkau tiba bagaikan pelangi
tak bercahya namun kau berseri
tapi cukup menghiburkan
hati ini

seharian waktu bersamamu
tak terasa saat yang berlalu
bagai pelangi petang kau kan pasti
pergi jua...


p/s : alangkah pahit untuk menerima, jikalau sahabat-sahabat kita, hanya singgah di dalam hidup kita, cuma untuk beberapa ketika...dan menghilang, bagai pelangi petang!

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

hish!

salam ...

cekya tak faham, kenapa time cekya happy, rasa life tenang dan aman, alih-alih ada pulak perkara-perkara yang buat cekya sedih, marah....sudah la perut nih meragam. sejak dari sebelum waktu lunch tadi, dah buat hal, tapi cekya buat tak tahu jek. malas nak layan. tup-tup, lepas lunch, perut cekya bergolak, macam ada perang kat dalam perut nih...aduih la...

sudah la staff sorang lagi tu tak datang, so kena handle kerja-kerja dia to support users at other floors. tak productive rasanya sebab terpaksa jalan slow.

bila dah perasaan bercampur baur, marah, sedih, frust, kecewa, mula la rasa nak meradang. eisk...cekya rasa tak best betul hari ni! sungguh-sungguh tak best!

pelik cekya. kenapa orang disekeliling cekya, suka cakap atau sebut benda yang cekya tak suka. diorang tahu, i don't like to hear certain things , tapi masih lagi nak 'jolok sarang tebuan'..why?? sedangkan cekya cuba sedaya upaya untuk tak kecikkan hati orang lain bila bercakap. or mungkin mulut cekya, tanpa cekya sedari, ada menyakiti cekya, tak pulak cekya tahu. itu yang orang lain bukan main sakan lagi nak buat cekya rasa tak keruan...

entah lah! cekya rasa boring betul kalau rasa macam ni. dah la perut sakit! argh!!!!

wassalam bloggy...harapnya esok, everything would be fine.

Monday, December 20, 2004

{catatan tentang dia}


busy as a bee!

salam...

hish rindu betul cekya dengan blog, dengan menulis & also posting pictures! last week, dari 13th to 15th december, cekya pi cameron for family trip. yes, again! entahlah, i just love the environment. very relaxing. almost everything is in blue & green colour.

here's a view from the apartment we stayed

the weather was awfully cold during 1st & 2nd day of our visit. cekya sampai kena asthma! punya la sejuk. and my cousin pulak demam. sudah le kena muntah dek ms ika during our way up, sampai-sampai, sejuk tak ingat. memang badan tak tahan la...and we get to pick strawberries this time. there are so many farms available for you to visit and get yourself working with the little red ones. tapi kena be extra careful. tanya dulu how much would they charge sebab kadang-kadang, info yang bagi before we go plucking lain, lepas dah penat-penat memetik, lain pulak chargenya!

and to my frustration, masa we all pergi tu, bukan musim bunga. so the roses are not the fresh ones. maybe musim cuti sekolah, the nicer ones dah pun kena beli. even the strawberries yang merah-merah dah tak banyak lagi.


the red ones..cantik eh?ni untuk yang rajin gardening!

kali ni, surprise jugak tengok condition cameron. the places are improving. dah banyak kedai souvenirs, shops selling fresh veggies, fruits, and also food stalls. masa cekya kecik, banyak kedai makan cina but now, they also have warung style places, malays food stalls. there are also budget apartments for small groups. i guess dah banyak berubah cameron highlands ni.

anyways, my aunts semua dah request for the next family trip to east coast. semua dah pakat-pakat nak shopping kot. insya-Allah, me & my mom would make the arrangements. asyik sejuk-sejuk aje, now nak panas-panas plak yea...hehehe...

so please, visit my fotopages' album. not much but maybe there's something that you would love. maybe. and i also have updated the story. so,enjoy!

wassalam...

Friday, December 10, 2004

off i go!

salam...
hmm..it's been a boring and also tiring week..!i'm tired of being bored!hehehe...
well, i'll be going off for a busy weekend and also for my annual holidays with my family. i'll be going to camerons on monday till wednesday. cameron lagi ek? takperlah...i love that place. relax and soothing. and yang penting...sejukkkk....hehehe...
and the best part is, i'm gonna take loads of pics!tu yang besh tuu....
so, have a great weekend friends!wassalam...
p/s : i've written a story, which you would wanna read. it's my collection. and i just want it to be place somewhere. and the story goes....or you can click on the right side of this blog...enjoy!

Thursday, December 09, 2004

bein' rude & all!

salam...

hari ni, cekya bermulut celupar. cakap orang b*ng*ng.
ermm...maaflah, cekya bergurau.
bukan serious.
cekya suka bergurau. tapi ada orang terasa hati.
cekya rasa, orang tu lebih banyak bergurau kasar dengan cekya.
so i was thinking, likewise la kan...ingatkan dia boleh terima. dia siap cakap, kenapa tak cakap p*k*m*k terus...eisk!

pastu terus letak telefon...period ke?
hmm....pastu cekya call petang ni, tak jawab,call lagi sekali;

"ada kerja sket la.ok bye!", terus letak jugak. eisk!

ampun dan maaf lah kalau kata-kata cekya melukakan perasaan saudara. tak ada niat pun. wassalam...

p/s : cekya rasa, cekya pernah diluah dengan kata-kata yang lebih pedih dari b*ng*ng. seharusnya cekya juga berasa hati.

mimpi..

salam...

few days back, cekya mimpi encik ahmad. and the next morning, i messaged him kat YM;

cekya (2:08:09 PM): are u ok
cek ahmad (2:08:25 PM): yes i am
cekya (2:08:36 PM): alrite then
cekya (2:08:41 PM): aku mimpi ko lagi mlm semlm
cek ahmad (2:08:44 PM): awat hang mimpi apa pulak?
cekya (2:08:56 PM): ntah
cekya (2:08:59 PM): u called me up
cekya (2:09:04 PM): asked me to wait somewhere
cekya (2:09:06 PM): aku tunggu
cekya (2:09:08 PM): lama gila
cekya (2:09:15 PM): but aku tunggu jugak...
cekya (2:09:26 PM): then i can see u searching for me
cekya (2:09:29 PM): aku nampak ko
cekya (2:09:33 PM): tapi ko still cari aku
cekya (2:09:38 PM): aku tak panggil ko
cekya (2:09:43 PM): i let u search for me
cekya (2:10:00 PM): pastu u saw me
cekya (2:10:03 PM): ko datang kat aku
cekya (2:10:11 PM): pastu ko blah
cekya (2:10:12 PM): hmm
cekya (2:10:14 PM): ntah ah
cekya (2:10:17 PM): mainan tido
cekya (2:10:19 PM): ngarut2
cekya (2:10:37 PM): i just hope u're fine
cekya (2:10:39 PM): thats all
cek ahmad (2:43:00 PM): u nie mimpi ngarut2 jer
cekya (2:43:13 PM): ntah la
cekya (2:43:16 PM): lately mcm tu
cekya (2:43:19 PM): sedih aku
cekya (2:43:30 PM): masalahnya skrg
cekya (2:43:32 PM): why you?
cekya (2:43:38 PM): dah tak ada org lain aku nak mimpi?
cek ahmad (2:46:25 PM): itu lah hang miss sangat kat aku tuh..
cekya (2:52:09 PM): hmm...
cekya (2:54:14 PM): maybe!


or perhaps, i was missing someone. definitely not encik ahmad. err....is it encik ahmad? entahlah. cekya rasa dah ramai sangat orang-orang dalam life cekya who's either missing(not traceable), far from me or not contacting me, anymore.*sigh*

yesterday, me & 4 other colleagues went for dinner at chicken hartz. buffet for RM15.30. cheap eh? all sorts chicken dishes, fried, stewed, roasted? just name it. and the silly part was, i forgot to snap pics. i would have shown it to you guys. anyway, it's better that way. i don't wish to be cruel to my blog friends!hehehe...

we also browsed for rings. i can't believe that there are so many diamond & platinum shop lots. the guys dah boring, tunggu lama bila we all dok browse. maaf le yea..hehehe

i went home by monorail & lrt. seram betul naik monorail tu. and the worst part was, dia stop in the middle of the rail dalam keadaan senget! adui la...seram sangat-sangat! i prefer taking a roller-coaster than that slow and jalan senget monorail..reached home at about 1030pm. mum's annoyed. marah la tu...*sigh*

sorry but i just don't really wanna be at home sometime...and the fact that mom's a little mad at me about a few issues, i believe that she wants me out of her side. jahat ke aku? i'm a human being. i need space.

take care guys. wassalam...

aku, terperangkap dalam diri...


Tuesday, December 07, 2004

#masih ada rindu#

semalam, seharian cekya sebak. teringat kembali pada dia. kenangan bersamanya. sudahlah penat berkerja seharian. ingatan bertubi-tubi padanya memburukkan lagi keadaan.

cekya hairan. kenapa perasaan sayang pada dia masih ada. ingatan pada dia masih kuat walaupun dia sudah lama berlalu dari hidup cekya. dia pergi meninggalkan selingkar cerita buat lipatan kenangan, untuk cekya ingati, dan tangisi.

dan hati cekya sebal. bila mana dia datang kembali. menyentuh tirai semalam. sebagai manusia yang baru. yang sudah berubah. mungkin demi cintanya yang baru. demi keluarga yang melingkari hidupnya kini. demi tubuh kecil yang masih belum boleh bertapak atas kaki sendiri.

cekya sedih. untuk apa hadirnya dia. mengapa ada dia, untuk sekali lagi. tidakkah dia tahu. cekya sudah hampir melupakan segalanya. cekya sudah penat untuk menangisi pemergiannya dulu. cekya sudah mahu melupakan tertawanya. amarahnya. suaranya. kasihnya.

adakah ini dugaanMu ya Allah? sudah hampir 4 tahun! kenapa amat sukar untuk cekya lupakan apa yang sudah terjadi? mengapa?:(

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on a lighter note, last nite, my nieces, ira & ika dropped by. they gave me a belated birthday gift and a song too. i love the card, the mug, check it out @ my fotopages.


they were jumping with joy. siap suruh cekya minum using that mug, THAT instant. sabo ajelah. they filled me up with smiles and lotsa of love, all over again. i'll be bringing them to camerons next week. i hope it'll be a nice journey, again...

p/s : i guess, my love for him was true & sincere, from the bottom of my heart, as i was a very young girl back then. a silly little lady...

Monday, December 06, 2004

canai 'n' candy

salam...

weekend was...well...tiring.saturday was the tahlil day, 1st saturday of the month. i was busy doing some groceries kat giant, singgah pasar tani and helped my mom in the kitchen till petang. it was the usuals. mom masak sambal tumis udang, daging masak kicap, sambal goreng and ayam goreng. rojak buah pun ada. we finished clearing up at about 1, then i fall asleep till it's 6am. then cekya tidur semula(which was a hugeeeee mistake sebab dah janji dengan miza to meet up with her and go catch a movie at 10!). tetiba cekya terjaga,tengok kat luar dah terang gila!

damn it was 945am!!i sms-ed miza, siap ala kadar(i don't wear make-up so it really helps to save time!) and rushed to lrt. kesian my bro, kena rush hantar.heheh...sampai aje kat lrt, miza's smiling away. masa tu around 1015am(heheh...cepat betul eh?). i decided to ask her a not-so-wise question;

me : dah lama ke sampai?

and she answered;

miza : tak nampak ke kaki saya dah tumbuh akar?

eisk!sorry la!hahaha...sampai je mid valley, we bought our tickets. tengok cerita apa?jap...tunggu...


we had our breakfast kat mamak near mid valley. i had roti canai(lama dah tak makan) and teh tarik. then dah selesai, we browse around mid valley. the center court looked nice with the x-mas deco. have a look @ my fotopages. then we went straight to gsc. we got a surprise waiting. candy floss@halusmitai, ladies & gentlemen!hahaha.... tapi, yang tak bestnya, kaler dia hijau. i prefer pink, macam biasa lah!hehehe....

bride & prejudice. cerita hindustan? yeap! but the dialogue is all in english. a very entertaining movie, i must say! and i figured out that it's actually a movie that truly promotes india, the country, culture and also lifestyle. aishwarya is a beauty-as usual!and her mate, martin henderson(who?i wasn't sure either..tapi comel wooo...hehehe) is a charm as well. didn't notice that he was acting in The Ring coz i guess i was busy closing my eyes watching it, rather than concentrating on the actors. hehehe...surprisingly, there's also alexis bledel(yup, miss rory gilmore). overall, it's fun. what's not to love. it's a typical hindi film. the colourful background of the movie, the ever-so-crowded people of dancers, the songs. but the actors & actresses, as well as the language used, makes it a more interesting movie to watch!

enough of that. i'm actually busy today. i'm kinda tired going up and down the building. some documents needed approval and verification and yours truly has to do it. gotta go friends. have a productive week ahead!(ugh!how lame!hahahha....)

take care all!wassalam...

Friday, December 03, 2004

=bayangan semalam=

.....hati ini mula menidakkan apa yang benar
mahu terus menyulam harap
terasa apa yang nyata itu bohong belaka
ada tika, pasti teringatkannya
cara dia mengusik
marah
bahkan melayan rajuk.....

.....payah benar mengusir kenangan
alangkah molek
kalau ianya sepetik jemari
sekerdip mata
senafas jaraknya.....

.....rindu masih ada
kasih juga masih di situ
bertapak bagai terukir di pasiran
hati terasa damai
kalau dapat bersenda bagai dulu
melakar merah jingga perasaan ini.....

.....janganlah hilang semuanya
lenyap segalanya disapa ombak
tidak juga derai dicemar gugur daun
biarlah ia kukuh
bersemi dalam damai
dalam rasa yang tersimpul rapi.....

cekya~30th nov 2004~21:09

~ilham dari kisah seorang teman~

Thursday, December 02, 2004

miss missy...

salam...

ira & ika..melepak atas katil cekya!

i just missed them both! badly!they'll be back from jb today, along with my parents. dah lama tak jaga these girls sebab ibu diorang dah stop kerja dengan MAS, so there is no longer staying over at my place kalau ayah diorang kerja. kalau tidak, they'll be waiting for me kat pintu rumah every evening, waiting for me to come home and bawak diorang jalan-jalan tengok neighbours' dogs. kebetulan, depan rumah cekya padang luas and there are often birds in various colors. ada blue, yellow. i missed the fun times!

well...my sis mely wants me to update what happened on 'my' day yesterday. nothing much sis...on my way home, i bought bihun sup utara(this thing rawkss!!), kuih sikit and i head home. my bro picked me up, lepas maghrib, off he went to ss3. tatau la,maybe dia ada open house or something. so i ate my food, solat maghrib.

lepas tu cekya pi kat living hall, rasa malas nak tengok tv. so cekya tutup semua lampu rumah, masuk bilik semula and start reading a book. tetiba dunia menjadi gelap! hahahah...cekya terlelap. i heard my hp ringing tapi memang ngantuk yang teramat sangat and i can't even lift my arms to answer my phone.

around 11 something, i heard the house phone ringing. terkejut cekya. kelam kabut bangun coz i thought it was my mom. sampai kat phone, the ringing went dead. tetiba dengan bunyi my hp plak bunyi. lari semula masuk bilik. it was cek ana. beria mintak maaf coz she forgot to wish me. tak apalah babe...i'm all alone today, so i don't mind. it was approaching 12 midnight pun masa tu.

so that's how i spent my birthday night. gempak eh?hehehe...tak apala, at least i got all the wishes. here are some photos i snapped last week.

raya deco & klcc


kl towers from kg baru @ miza's place

that's about it guys..till later. check out pics from my nokia@fotopages!
wassalam...

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

16?26?36?

salam...

i turned 26 today. i feel fresh this morning. alhamdulillah, i've reached another stage. for all wishers, yang hantar wish thru sms, calls, ym, thank you so much! at least i know, there are still people who cares..anyways, gambar kotak pink ni is a gift from an officemate, miza. there's this pink handbag, a pink bookmark and potpourri wrapped in a pink fabric with a pink flower on top in this pink box!and also, a pink birthday card, which the 'theme' colour is like 'd' colour for me!hahaha...

actually memang dah pesan, kalau nak bagi hadiah, make sure it's wrapped in pink wrapping paper, with pink ribbons. hahah...sabo ajerlah yea...mintak tuuuu!


i have plans petang nanti. going to have all the time by myself, tengok wayang. wanna watch alexander. pathetic ke jalan sorang? it's just me. i prefer to spend time alone, most of the time. so take care friends. may 1st december 2004 would give you great joy and a memorable one!

wassalam!