.:.she wanders.:.

Mak Long.

2010-04-29T17:57:00.002+08:00

Cekya punya zaman kanak-kanak & remaja yang biasa-biasa saja. Punya parents yang berkerja, cuti sekolah selalunya hanya di rumah. Adik Cekya semuanya lelaki. Boring. :D No girlish stuff please! Ya, kadangkala bercuti ke mana-mana tapi, yang paling Cekya suka, rumah Pak Long di Johor Bahru.

Rumah biasa-biasa yang penghuninya sangat amazing, Cekya kira. Kalau diizinkan ayah, dari mula cuti, sampai ke hujung, Cekya akan di rumah Pak Long. Mereka hanya bertiga, termasuk Mak Long & anak bungsu mereka. K.Fizah. Kakak & abang-abangnya tinggal sendiri. Jarak umur yang tidak terlalu*she's a few years older*, buat kami rapat. Cekya diheret ke sana ke mari. Malah pernah ke bandar malam-malam naik bas yang senget.*Cekya hampir percaya penyebabnya Cekya sendiri. hahaha!*

Mak Long. Walau Mak Long berkerja, dia akan memastikan segala yang perlu ada buat kami sebelum keluar rumah awal-awal pagi. Seperti ibu-ibu lain. Breakfast, lunch! Sungguh, Cekya tak ingat sangat apa yang K.Fizah & Cekya buat seharian dan bila sore menjelang, kami menunggu Mak Long di buaian. Dari jauh, terlihat kelibatnya berjalan perlahan dari jalan besar, pulang dari tempat kerja dengan seikat kuih tergenggam kemas di tangan.

Mak Long sedikit garang. Tapi aku tahu, dia sangat memanjakan K.Fizah & Cekya. Ibu yang sangat memahami.

Melihat keadaannya yang terkedang di katil buat Cekya menjerit dalam hati.

Mak Long Cekya yang dulunya berisi & tinggi, kini sangat kecil tubuhnya! * she weighs less than 40kg!*

Mak Long Cekya yang dulunya lasak ke sana ke mari, kini kaku kiri tubuhnya!

Mak Long Cekya yang hanya mampu merenung tanpa ada tenaga untuk berbual-bual lagi!

Luluh hati bila Mak Long dah tak ada upaya lagi. Sukarnya. Risaunya.* I feel helpless!*

Andai dapat Cekya pikul kesakitan yang Mak Long rasa.

Doktor kata hanya ada 6 bulan. Mungkin kurang dari itu. Maka bersedialah untuk apa jua. :(

Mak Long, Cekya hanya mahu yang terbaik untukmu. Bila tengok kekuatan sepupu-sepupu Cekya, Cekya tahu, Cekya harus redha.

Cekya mahu Mak Long terus bersama kami.
Tapi tak sanggup tengok Mak Long lelah begitu.

Pulihkan Mak Long, Ya Tuhan!
Sembuhkanlah dia.
Pulangkanlah senyumnya kembali.

;-(

hidden cousins.

2010-04-25T00:27:00.000+08:00

salam...

i have an uncle, who has another family. yes, another son, another daughter. yes, another wife.

the son's tying the knot in december, and my uncle wants my dad being one of the representative for nikah. fine.

this son of his, never saw us. only the daughter. and once, only.

i've been sending messages to the daughter that it'll be great if she can bring her brother, and the fiancee to come and meet up with my dad. my parents thought that it's an appropriate thing to do. so do i.

unfortunately, they've been having plans every first saturday of the month, when we were having our monthly tahlil.

but this month's reply was not much of a difference, and i can't help it but to send a cynical reply.

"oh ok...tapi kalau boleh mintak la ur brother dtg kenal2 dgn my dad. tak silap he'll be the wakil for hadri's nikah...mcm pelik la pulak, pengantin tak kenal wakil sendiri. hehehe... "

and then she replied,

" tula,sepatutnya macam tu kan..=(
nana pon tak paham perangai my brother,takpe,nanti i cucuk abah to paksa him jumpa your dad. =)
dont worry,sampaila ktorg nnt..;p"

what does that mean?! the son's been avoiding seeing my dad? he's been avoiding his own family? the same as the others are doing to my dad?! what's going on?!!! i know, i'm probably being difficult and think about it too much sampai bawak ke mimpi...:( but i just can't help it...

i've promised myself. today's the last the invitation. no more, kiddos.

felt like my dad has only my mom, me, my brothers, and my sister in-law. just the six of us. it's so bloody sad! :(

felt like crying buckets.

nite. :(

full fledge weekends!

2010-04-23T14:11:00.000+08:00

truthfully.

i'm loving my packed weekends. and it's packed with friends, old and new, and families.

and i think i'm a facebookaholic! haih. that thing is so addictive!

but it did good stuff. like finding old ~~flames~~ friends...:D

lately, been having these cruel dreams of fighting with my dad's siblings & my cousins, on defending my dear dad. oh it's a huge smelly ugly family thingy. didn't think about it too much actually. but it has repeatedly been in my dreams. and when i woke up, it's really tiring. emotionally AND physically. why eh? makes me malas during the day sebab too tired. sigh.

a lovely thing happened last saturday! met rai for the first time. seronok ok! like i hold her hand and hugged her so tight. sorry rai if you got crushed! coz it's been years, kan sis? luv ya!

truly hoped that k.lun, k.emmy, biah & azell were around. havoc lagi agaknya. mau terbalik itu pavillion! hehehehe...

hopefully can go s'pore and see these lovely ladies plak!

have a great day!

it's cruel but it's the truth!

2010-04-16T10:33:00.000+08:00

phew!

i've been away for quite some time!

so many things have changed. i'm partly happy.

and the unhappy part, i'm glad some of my friends understand.

but not most of them.

it's just so annnoying when they have everything that i don't, and still wants to comment, as if they don't have all that, and start thinking & saying things like, they might not be happy after all. i just hate it when my friends, so called close friends, for years, still don't get me. and expect me, to 'get' you!

oh come on! be grateful to Allah! i am, for what i have. and i pray hard for the things i want.

it's as simple as that.

so please, stop bullshitting.

i apologise. i'm so annoyed.

on a much much brighter side, i'm meeting masyi & rai tomorrow. bliss!

and i'll be heading for lumut late in the evening for a job on sunday morning. i love my busy weekends now! really!

i'm missing friends i met last sunday. kadok, aisyah, richa, addy, amar and as! oh, ms birthday gurl, k.yati!

happy birthday sweets!

2009-09-24T20:14:00.002+08:00

Salam Aidilfitri
to my dearest blogsahabats;
kak lun, masyi, rai, awan, cekmi, kak yati, biah, kak emmy & azell.

you guys are the siblings i have never had!

have a joyful raya...:-)

from,
cekya & family

and it's only day two...

2009-09-10T06:18:00.002+08:00

salam my sweet sisters and brothers...

it's pretty awkward posting an entry, at 6 in the morning. hehehe. got back early today, at about 4.30, had sahur, mandi & solat. and here i am...

it was pretty tiring yesterday but tonite, it was A alrite for me. probably i was warming up at about 1am, walking to a quite far 24hr mamak stall to have drinks with the rest of the team...we haven't really got to know each other but most are single and young guys. early 20s. so maybe wavelength kena adjust as the day goes by.

everything about the training and work is alrite, cuma there were some issues about the contract with the recruitment agency. tatau la if i'm gonna let go this job or not coz from the looks of it, i don't really have a problem since money is the main reason i looked for a job and it wasn't an issue for me. few colleagues will call the agency today and we'll just see how it goes.

guess i wanna take my power nap. at about 10am, mommy will wanna drag me to do some groceries shopping, etc.

so, later dearies!

and have a good day at work!

love, cekya.

so much for families...

2009-09-06T06:04:00.006+08:00

salam...

yesterday was an off-mood day for me.

i'm actually exposing dirty laundries here but had to tell it somewhere. talked to alfie's mommy and she was comforting, thank you so much...

some of you might know the cerekarama going on in my family. and my cousin wrote something rude in one of my postings in facebook. i wasn't even involved in that drama, yet this little cousin of mine, lashing it out on me, on facebook, for everybody to read!

i know, i'm not at the losing end. cekya tak rugi apa, and this will eventually 'introduces' the new her to relatives and close friends, nanti sendiri malu but somehow, i was terribly hurt. a cousin sister, who fondly calls me 'akak', acting that way. come to think of it, she was rude to my father, takat cekya nih, apa la sangat kan? she really got the guts!

i cried. but alhamdulillah, an hour @ masjid asy-syakirin during breaking fast & maghrib brought so much peace and ease. eventhough asyik teringat. but like alfie's mommy said, she's young, and immature, thinking that she's a uni graduate, having the liberty to lash out and say anything. and family values. if you guys were to meet and know her, kita takkan sangka. *sigh* it shows how she was brought up[so well, prim and proper as claimed], tapi hakikatnya...

i was her before, cepat marah and berdendam. cekya doa, satu hari, Allah akan bersih dan tenangkan hati dia as Allah has slowly soften mine. insya-Allah...:-)

let us all pray for her.

love,
cekya

p/s: and on the posting, i didn't answer her back, but i typed this instead -> :-).

i need changes. good ones.

2009-08-13T12:51:00.005+08:00

salam...

it's like a week away from ramadhan. i have really high hopes for it. i wished to be a better person, i wished that things will change for me, i wished for more happiness coz it's quite empty in that department.things are not getting any good for me. the job hunting is not going well. i'm a little demotivated and supports are not that strong.

i wished for thing to get better, really soon! :-(

here's a picture of the recent job. congratulations redha & shila...

take care all.

love, cekya

2009-07-24T01:24:00.004+08:00

salam...

i posted a story about a friend, a brother, a colleague once here about his sudden heart attack, or was it 'cardiac arrest'?

that story crossed my mind when i heard the brilliant director, yasmin ahmad's condition this evening. at about 5pm, some said that she has passed. alhamdulillah, it was totally a hoax, and some are actually spreading them, which bothered me so much!

i seeked news throughout the internet, and The Star gave me the whole truth. she had the same situation that cek man faced. alhamdulillah, cek man is up and about, and his health is just excellent! i pray, that yasmin would fight this, and insya-Allah, will recover, the soonest!

love, cekya.

update : yasmin left us all on saturday nite, at about 11.30pm. may Allah bless her soul. al-fatihah. :-(

and the hunt begins...

2009-07-22T01:12:00.003+08:00

salam all...

received a call from a job agency, wanting to see me tomorrow, as he thinks that my experience fits the job i applied yesterday.

so i'm off for an appointment tomorrow at about 11am.

i'm nervous. or not. not so sure about it. it feels different when going off for an interview when i was 22. :D i was shaken.

i'm cool. but a little nervous. i'm only human.

love y'all. pray for me.

love, cekya.

almost!

2009-07-19T01:35:00.005+08:00

salam all!

wow. it has been a year. well, almost. so many things have changed, losing something, gaining some again, meeting new ones, forgetting bad ones, rekindling old ones, it's just like a set of a never-ending tv series. i wanted to stop blogging and just close this little 'space' of mine. besides, the craze of facebook is just too good to ignore!

kak yati said no. she said that one day, i might wanna write again, expressing the unexpressed. which this blog, IS the place, i must admit. :)

so, insya-Allah, i wanna start writing again, to keep me sane, that's for sure. :)

love, cekya.

p/s: i so miss the blogsahabats. :(

it's here, again...

2008-09-26T11:40:00.001+08:00

dengarlah matahariku!

2008-08-28T20:10:00.006+08:00

would i say it's unfair? and when i wanna just settle for 'unfair', thousands of stuff running through my mind. right through my mind.
it's tiring to think about how, and why, and maybe.

i guess not everybody has its ups right now. we'll just have to accept and adapt, don't you think? well people, i just have to touch base with myself. coz i've lost it somehow.

believe me, it's frustrating, more than ever. depressed? tell me about it. frankly, i don't appreciate rudeness, sarcasm and stuff like that. not at this point of time. and i cried last nite. sizzled myself today with work, lifted like 20 heavy monitors. and still, it's there. won't budge. just please, go away, silly feelings. don't make me cry another nite. i beg you. i want out of these mixed feelings.

berinjaklah dari tapak itu
ke relung dirimu sebenar
meniti laluan berpercik air dingin
merasa hembus angin dijinjang lehermu
menghidu bauan alam
alami damainya sekali lagi
lebih selesa, bukan?

love, cekya.

p/s : salam ulang tahun buat kak emmy & kak lun. cekya sayang kamu.
p/s 1 : salam menyambut ramadhan buat kalian. cekya harap, ramadhan kali ini bakal merubah segalanya. amin.
p/s 2 : i did a 12'x12' enlargement and framed the photo above and presented it as a wedding gift to my boss. he loves it. :)

makin hampir kah?

2008-08-14T17:18:00.003+08:00

menitinya bukan mudah
namun aku takkan tahu, mungkin
rasanya pasti berbeda
tapi sakit kita, ternyata banyak yang sama
pedihnya saja udah sama
demi Tuhan, hati terguris
kalau kau memanggil nama ibu
bila bisa meragut tenangmu
garis masa sudah terlalu hampir, mungkin
kiranya, ia terlalu singkat buat kita
mati, mungkin kau mendahului
atau mungkin aku
hanya Tuhan yang Maha Mengetahui
mengertilah, fahamilah, terimalah
aku sentiasa ada
dan terima kasih, atas ingatan doa itu.

happy birthday girl!

2008-08-07T10:19:00.002+08:00

my second scrapbook styled card!

it's shida's!

again, happy birthday, girl! notty dak nih. walaupun ada anak sorang. hahahha... and the kain on her shoulders is my gift to her. kain ela. cantek ah, suka!

love, cekya.

hujung minggu...

2008-08-06T10:47:00.003+08:00

salam...

rasanya, hujung minggu lepas adalah yang ter'sakit'.

khamis :: kepala berat, depan mata, nampak berpusar-pusar. kalau tak berpegang mana-mana, alamat tumbang. susah juga orang mahu mengangkat cekya yang bertubuh comel ini. pukul 6 petang, semasa di pejabat, peluh dingin menitik. cekya bersandar dan cuba lelapkan mata. selepas setengah jam, rasa ok sikit, tapi badan masih rasa tak selesa. tiba di rumah, badan rasa letih semacam. duduk-duduk, baring-baring. terlena.

jumaat :: badan masih tak sehat. apa lagi. doktor + cuti sakit = yippee! doktor buat test. tekanan darah. ujian darah. segala yang berkaitan darah. kecuali dara. ops. he found something. i felt down and devastated. takpe. ini semua ujian, bukan?

sabtu malam, kami buat tahlil bulanan, macam biasa. nasib baik adik ipar kesayangan ada. dia boleh tolong mak cekya. huhu! i was so weak. perut tak selesa. tekak rasa berangin. bakal terkeluar fillet o fish yang cekya makan tengahari tu. cekya cuba kuatkan badan, kuatkan hati. letih nak sakit-sakit.

ahad shopping kain. dalam melayang-layang dan tubuh yang capek, cekya dapat juga pilih sepasang. sebenarnya, dah ada dalam kepala, kain yang cekya nak. tapi mak bagi ayat nih >> ''cuba la tengok-tengok dulu. banyak lagi kain lain nih.". rasanya sebab ini lah perempuan kalau shopping sampai 5 jam.

isnin, kerja macam biasa. lemah dan penat. tapi alhamdulillah, semuanya ok hingga ke petang.
harapnya, lepas ni, semuanya ok. cekya tak larat nak fikir-fikir. tak larat nak saratkan kepala.

ops. ada kerja.

cinta, cekya.

nota kaki : cek man dah pun keluar dari hospital. dah rasa sihat sikit katanya. "cuma x leh lari laju2 lagi la..." itu jawabnya. hehe. siapa suruh lari. :P

i wish you good health!

2008-07-30T12:16:00.003+08:00

salam...

minggu lepas, we talked alot. through phone. through YM. we even played DJ as he & another colleague played ranges of music. dikir barat, hotel california. lagu biro tata negara pun ada. hehe. and we had so much fun laughing!

gambar di atas adalah gambar cek man yang buat-buat busy. hehehe.

cek man left our HQ office last 2 years, transfered by our evil boss. entah apa dengki, cekya pun tak tahu. since then, i missed a colleague, a friend, a brother. and his family is like family to me. his wife, a sister. his kids, my nephews and nieces.

and last monday, i was informed that he's in ICU.
unbelievable. i called some of the senior staffs and they informed me that yeah, it is true.

the story - he passed out, and fell full weight, on his HEAD. 2 other colleages who was with him tried to keep him awake and he started vomitting. then darah start keluar from his nose, and then dia muntah darah pulak. upon arrical at kemaman hospital, he was x-rayed and there was a 3 inches crack on his skull, at the back of his head. then, he was transfered to a medical center in kuantan.

8 of us, bertolak dari office to kuantan. cekya risau sangat. hati tak sedap and my mind is with his 4 kids. dah start rasa sebak and nak nangis tapi cepat-cepat tahan.

masa cekya sampai, he was conscious. cuma pening yang amat sangat. we let him rest and just waited for the doctor outside the ICU. and when i hugged his wife, i can feel that she's terrified and lonely. and she admits that after seeing us, their friends, she's a little relieved. well, i would feel the same way too. dah la merantau. no relatives around.

as at yesterday, cek man dah boleh bangun, shower and have his meals. apa pun, doctor is still observing him. and giving him medication untuk cairkan the blood clot in his head. or else, surgery...

cek man, cepat sembuh, ok?

love, cekya.

p/s : i hope kak lun will have all the strength that she can have. kita doa sama-sama, ok?

scrappy time!

2008-07-23T12:00:00.005+08:00

salam!

i bought a few papers from craft haven @ one utama[http://www.craft-haven.com/] to do some origamies for a friend's birthday[will take photos and write about it in my next entry]. and of course, i have a few extra sheets to play with. another friend's birthday was just around the corner and decided to do some scrap-booking. things that are tedious and need lotsa patience, and in this case, only kak yati would have it. so i decided to give it a try, bought some scrapbook stuff, and some i just got it from the internet, and some leftover ribbons from the recent wedding. so here's my first scrapbook stuff - a birthday card! comments please.

and the birthday lady would be amilyn! she's a colleague of mine, we throw each other paperclips at all times. hehehe!

and here's what i got for her. a book - why men don't listen and women can't read maps. hell no! we can read maps. maps tu yang salah, ek ladies? huhuhuhu!

i'm so busy at work. penat sangat bila balik tu. will make some more entries nanti. next, origami!
love, cekya.

quite an update!

2008-07-11T10:41:00.006+08:00

#me, kak yati, julie, ejot, aan at my bro's reception.#
[beca ditaja oleh saloma bistro & restaurant]

salam!

pelik, dulu-dulu masa muda-muda, rajin betul update blog. what i had for breakfast, what i bought during lunch time, what happened during my trip back home from office. sekarang nih, malas yang amat though i have so much to tell. and i have not been keeping in touch with fellow bloggers, especially yang nun jauh di temasik. really, my apologies. :)

work is hectic as usually. the company's implementing SAP, a new erp software, which has created havoc. imagine, the system goes live but none of the support team[who are involved in SAP] is actually in HQ to give support. tinggal la cekya & the rest of the technical guys. it was really a stupid decision to place everyone in other places and let the consultant be here in HQ. staff will look for us, NOT the consultant. tak pakai otak, or their brains are too BIG to handle internal issues. i hate doing something i don't have any idea about. it made me look stupid.

#taman tasik taiping, one of SEPI's location, on one of my job visits to taiping.#

argh!

dah la. males nak cakap about something i can't solve. buat pening haku jek. annoyed sungguh. rasa dah memang tawar hati dah nak keje company nih. need to send more resumes la. ok. enough of the bebel2 eh.

my nights are getting better. good sleep. sangat best. sangat nyenyak. sebab siang sangat penat kot.

despite those very comfy sleeps, i have a few things in mind that i need to decide. cekya selalu cakap malas nak fikir but i will. owh i definitely will. it lingers and lingers. i hope that i shall make a decision yang tepat. what's best for me is the most important. sometimes, nak consider orang lain pun, will be wasted.

#i miss them so very much. i see them occasionally, but it was not like before. it will never be.#

this weekend, i get to rest and complete some uploadings of some photos in our website. lovely!

#they have the BEST chocolate department. heaven!#

have a rosey weekend, guys!

oh! i'm head over heels with this song, by afghan. terima kasih, cinta...eh awan, for embedding it in your blog.

Tersadar didalam sepiku
Setelah jauh melangkah
Cahaya kasihmu menuntunku
Kembali dalam dekap tanganmu

Terima kasih cinta untuk segalanya
Kau berikan lagi kesempatan itu
Tak akan terulang lagi
Semuaa kesalahanku yang pernah menyakitimu

Tanpamu tiada berarti
Tak mampu lagi berdiri
Cahaya kasihmu menuntunku
Kembali dalam dekapan tanganmu

Terima kasih cinta untuk segalanya
Kau berikan lagi kesempatan itu
Tak akan terulang lagi
Semuaa kesalahanku yang pernah menyakitimu

Terima kasih cinta untuk segalanya
Kau berikan lagi kesempatan itu
Tak akan terulang lagi
Semua kesalahanku
Kesalahanku yang pernah menyakitimu

love, cekya.

being remembered.

2008-06-27T11:09:00.002+08:00

salam!
it's been 2 weeks since i last saw him on stage. musly ramlee. playing THE role. and all of the dances, makes me wanna go up the stage and dance as well! the steps, the synchronization. it's simply remarkable.

tapi, one part of the musical, is somewhat similar with me. p ramlee wondered about the future. whether he will be remembered. and how.

i always think of it, all the time. i wondered how people would accept my departure. how people would think of me. would i be remembered. would people laugh at my antics, my habits, my beings.

would i be remembered, and would they talk about me? but how? what about?
i'm getting ridiculous, maybe.

till later friends.

love, cekya.

i'm a rose-petal-covered lady...

2008-06-04T09:57:00.003+08:00

Paul Smith "Rose" a new fragrance for Women

Thursday 2 August 2007

Fresh. Modern. Airy. Individual. Addictive. Sensual. Not words you’d automatically associate with a rose fragrance. But the moment you mist Paul Smith Rose, you abandon all preconceptions. Because Paul Smith brings to this fragrance his signature skill – an instinctive knack of redefining the classics, introducing an unmistakable note of edgy elegance. This is, quite simply, a rose fragrance for a new generation.

It’s also infused with a personal story. The rose at the heart of this fragrance is one that bears his name. “My wife, Pauline, created a wonderful birthday gift - a rose cultivated specially for me. This proved to be an inspiration for the fragrance,” says Paul.

The Paul Smith Rose, a potently fragrant, cochineal pink bloom, with a tight peony centre and full outer flower, rambles and scrambles all summer long. Cultivated by the famous English botanist, Peter Beales, it was presented for the first time at the Chelsea Flower Show in 2006, after three years in development.

What’s more, a very modern technique has been used to capture its distinctive aroma. No blooms are harvested, crushed and distilled. Using technology called ScentTrek, the living flower is isolated in a glass bell and special equipment ‘inhales’ the scent molecules, which are then analysed and recreated in a laboratory. The resulting ‘note’ replicates exactly the scent of the rose as it nods and shakes its head in the breeze on a summer’s day – one of the reason’s this fragrance is so natural, authentic and spirit-liftingly fresh.

Antoine Maisondieu, the perfumer who worked with Paul on its creation explains: “I wanted to combine an airy quality with a soft, velvety feeling on the skin. I blended Paul Smith ScentTrek with Turkish rose oil and green tea, adding a sparking halo of violet and magnolia flowers. A woody accord, with touches of clear cedar, provides depth and structure, which along with soft musks, give it an addictive quality.”

The bottle and packaging are unexpected too.
“We wanted to turn the typical presentation of a rose fragrance on its head,” declares Creative Director, Alan Aboud. “To contrast with the petal-lightness of the fragrance, we designed a heavy glass bottle with a strong, functional shape. The thick, deep bottom fills the hand with reassuring weight - the juice then appears to float inside like a teardrop,” he explains.

“It’s topped off with an art deco inspired metal cap that feels quite industrial – almost masculine – in nature and each one is individually tooled, adding to a genuine feeling of craftsmanship. There’s certainly nothing ‘disposable’ about this bottle,” he says. Nor the soft cotton pouch featuring an exclusive Paul Smith rose print that hides the bottle within the box.

The logo – black and punchy - contrasts with the feminine, candy tones of the single rose stem on the outer packaging - a photo of the Paul Smith Rose itself, pushed so only the high contrast extremes of the image are visible.

To complement the eau de parfum in 50 and 100 mls, there’s a 150ml Perfumed Body Lotion and Bath and Shower Gel – dewy, delicious and delightfully different. Reminiscent of a rain shower on rose petals.

p/s : Felt like i'm showered with rose petals today. Huhuhu!

their wedding...

2008-06-03T10:56:00.001+08:00

salam all...

some photos of the wedding. will update more later!

emmm...

2008-05-06T15:54:00.002+08:00

salam!

weekend was over the top. the weddings went well, alhamdulillah. but resulted with me having muscle pains for both thighs. tired? yeah! satisfied. belum puas lagi... hehe..

both couples were an enjoyable lot. and i just hope these feelings of enjoying photo session will remain.

take care dear friends!

for wedding photos viewing, please visit http://exquisimages.fotopages.com.

love, cekya.

twiddle dee!

2008-04-30T14:22:00.004+08:00

salam!

may's gonna be a tiring month, which i look forward too. but can't stop thinking about the events that has been lined up for me and the team. it's mind boggling and making me nervous!

just for me, a quick mental note;

3rd may - wedding dinner reception @ dewan perdana felda
4th may - wedding reception @ ulu langat, outdoor shoot @ putrajaya
10th may - engagement @ dengkil
14th & 16th may - event @ impiana hotel
23rd, 24th, 31st may & 7th june - my brother's wedding
8th june - birthday party @ kelana mahkota

i'm drained. adeh!

office is getting ridiculous. with work, the people. rasa macam apa ntah. rasanya resolution untuk datang awal early this year, tak mendatangkan hasil. demotivated. macam nih agaknya rasa demotivated. sigh!

i need multivitamins.

love, cekya.

walimatul urus...

2008-04-28T11:54:00.002+08:00

salam..

would like to invite all of you to my brother's wedding,

on the 31st of May 2008, 12pm - 4pm.

love, cekya.

a little update...

2008-04-24T10:12:00.002+08:00

salam...

firstly, i wanna say thanx to all the well wishers. and also all the doas. thank you so much for praying for the little girls, as well as doas for my arwah auntie.

here are some pictures of the girls, taken 2 days ago, at pantai medical center.

here's ira...she's the active one. jalan ke sana ke mari...

and this is ika. she's still in bed, tak dapat bangun sangat coz her left wrist & arms patah.

and this is my little mai. she's so cheeky. pandai bebel2!

again, thanx for all the doas, friends.

wassalam.
love, cekya.

2008-04-21T14:28:00.004+08:00

aku, mereka dan flu.

2008-04-18T01:10:00.003+08:00

sneeze-sneeze here,

sneeze-sneeze there,

sneeze here,

sneeze there,

everywhere sneeze-sneeze!

lagu di atas, ditujukan pada wtl & biah, and to me too. sila nyanyi ikut tempo lagu paling lama berada di carta time kita kecik dulu - old mcdonald. huhuhu!

her day...

2008-04-16T09:23:00.000+08:00

oh oww sheila!

2008-04-15T18:02:00.002+08:00

i was just speechless. mesmerised, to be precise.

i had the best lunch ever, and i just ate a little coz of my sorethroat & flu.

multinational handbag!

2008-04-14T15:58:00.002+08:00

an american brand...
a korean product...
a hot selling item in malaysia...

i just had to buy it. huhuhuhu!

being remembered.

2008-04-08T17:59:00.004+08:00

salam.

it was amazing. felt like jumping up the stage and just follow their dancing steps. truly amazing.

tapi. satu lagi yang sangat-sangat similar dengan apa yang ada dalam fikiran cekya, p ramlee was so critical of what and how he would be remembered.

i always think of what people would feel if i'm no longer alive. how would i be remembered. would they be grieving. or laugh at my antics, when remembered. if remembered. or talk about my habits and stuff, when remembered. if remembered.

p ramlee had his tough time with the media. with public, when all the glamours and glitters were fading.

and i'll always cry after visualising all that.
because. macam selalu.
manusia, akan selalu diingati, and appreciated, when they are no longer alive, to watch and listen.
no longer breathing, to know that they are appreciated.
that's a bit too late. don't you think?

sad but true.

love, cekya.

exhausting weekend, ladies & gentlemen!

2008-04-07T10:38:00.002+08:00

yowww peopleee!

did you guys know that weekend has another meaning. exhaustion. i was so tired, all i think was my bed, sleep and the air-conditioner. and it was fuming hot too. i had a majlis cukur jambul to shoot on saturday. we were there from 10am to 2pm. it was this little angel's day, eizatt mohd jasni. he's a premature baby born on the 35th week but he's just so strong. welcome, baby eizatt!

when we came back, i had a little discussion on www.exquisimages.com with kak yati & awan. we have finalised on certain things to be implemented in the website.
then i just go straigth to my room and zzzz, while kak yati was trying to download ps i love you. hehehe....then came the other girls for my family's monthly tahlil. here's a photo took by kak yati of us. macam gile jek. memang crazy pun. but not crazylogicpopstar seperti rene, okay!

and on sunday, i brought my mom shopping @ klcc. she needed to find a pair of shoes for my brother's reception @ saloma bistro. and i bought this dinner pouch for the event. dapat juga akhirnya. it's just so practical, i can like hang it on my wrist and it'll be easier for me to hold my camera. huhuhu!

and i bought 2 t-shirts for alfie. hehehe...

sekian saja, cerita weekend yang double P > panas & penat. hikhikhik!

love, cekya.

pulak?!

2008-04-03T12:22:00.003+08:00

aku pelik, kenapa kau carik pasal dengan aku. kau sendiri kata tak mungkin mahu hubungi aku lagi. ni kau hantar pesan di yahoo! pada aku, maki-maki sebab aku lambat jawab pertanyaan kau.

pulak?!

takpelah. terima kasih. manis bunyi makian2 kau tu. sweet like chocolate. bak alunan gamelan.
oh ya. tak perlu msg aku lagi. kau dlm ignore list.

friends, click to this song. memang best!

cop mohor.

2008-03-31T11:05:00.003+08:00

malam tadi, aku menahan marah. sakit bercampur marah. tak ada rasa yang lebih pedih dari itu. aku tak dapat menyalahkan sesiapa, waima diri sendiri. ianya kemalangan.

tapi bila ada yang menyalahkan aku atas kemalangan yang membakar itu, aku rasa, pedih itu lebih dari rasa pedih. sakitnya, aku yang rasa. untuk apa menambah lagi rasa perit yang aku rasa. nasib baik tak perlu ke tahap operasi memindahkan kulit peha ke bahagian yang terbakar. hik! hik! semestinya bukan kecederaan terbakar tahap ke 3.

aku sensitif? terlalu sensitif? atau aku sebenarnya sudah tidak tahan dilayan sambil lewa. bosan hanyak berdiam tanpa protes.

tapi, kalau protes, aku akan dicop. kurang ajar. melawan. haih!

takpelah. terbakar sikit aje. peratusan keluasan kawasan kulit kau luas, cekya. tak perlu risau. hahahaha! oh pedih!

bertambah satu lagi cop mohor di tangan akibat hot glue gun. huk! huk!

all of us....

2008-03-25T09:55:00.005+08:00

i guess it was the longest hour spent with the blogsahabats. everyone was there, except our beloved singaporean ladies. we missed you guys!

wanna see more? go to blogsahabats yahoo group. and click the photos section.

untuk apa tangisan...

2008-03-05T00:15:00.004+08:00

at last, the long awaited tears has finally arrived. mata kiri cekya gerak, dah almost 3 weeks. i always believe that when your muscles below your right eye moves, you're gonna laugh your heart out.. and if it's on your left eye, you're gonna cry your eyeballs out. and it happened, everytime, without fail.

tonite, the tears are all about regret. how i regret letting both of us leave the relationship. how i was not convinced of his words and how i was not confident of myself. how i betrayed my own feelings. my heart, my soul. it's been 10 years since we first said hi. how i wished i could turn back time. yeah, it sounds bloody cliched but heck, i truly wished, if i close my eyes and went back to that pleasant afternoon when we first said our introductions.

the time when he patiently consoled me after a heated argument with my mom.

the time when he told me about his old but strong atok, marrying a young beautiful indonesian lady, and we were giggling about it like little kids.

the time when i left malaysia, saying that he can't wait for me to come back.

the time when i was studying in my room at marley's hall, essex, with a cuppa coffee, and he surprised me with a call and said that he misses my nagging, and told me to study 'betul-betul'.

the time when i came back and he wanted to tie the knot.

the time that i did not agree.

the time when he left, saying that i have played an act all along, and that i was not sincere.

the time when i cried and told him that's all not true.

how it broke my heart.

it still is.

2008-03-04T16:01:00.001+08:00

sedap yang bisa.
uh!

2008-03-04T14:30:00.001+08:00

cantik yang sedap.
ah!

2008-03-04T14:21:00.000+08:00

memang ada ya.
buruk yang cantik.

2008-02-22T12:32:00.002+08:00

it's all grainy.
dusty. gray. dark.
i'm alone and shattered.
i want to believe.
that a light will appear.
somewhere.
somehow.

we're even!

2008-02-06T13:27:00.000+08:00

A-Me-Lin

2008-01-31T14:12:00.000+08:00

I smiled at her today.

She was curious.

But why?

Weird.

ahad lalu...

2008-01-22T12:46:00.000+08:00

haihh!

2008-01-16T19:19:00.000+08:00

kenapa ek?

i have this life, filled with SO many things to do. so many things to think about. so many things to be delivered. yet i just feel so empty.

aku rasa aku banyak benda to take care of. and my weekends are usually packed. dan aku rasa terlalu banyak benda tergendala yang aku tak ada rasa nak buat. rasa sangat kosong. zero. yillek.

*istighfar*

kenapa ek?

time yang crucial macam ni, aku lembik. malas nak handle masalah. malas nak selesaikan kerja-kerja yang tergendala. aku, kalau boleh tak nak fikir apa-apa. in fact, aku rasa macam tak nak ada kena mengena dengan life aku yang sekarang ni.

pelik? mengada? cakap la apa pun. it's your call to judge and it's me dealing with my life. obviously not you. so, shut off! ahh...that feels good. hehe.

how i wish, i can be THAT spontaneous. and having the guts.

kalau bengang dengan colleague who complaints alot about her workload, i wish i could blast off and say something spicy, like these;

"ello cik kepoci, you're talking as if no one in this room is working" or

"you're talking as if we're not tired" or

"you're talking as if you didn't surf those forum rooms whenever you have no work to do!"

"you're talking and i know your puny brain is functioning and you blabber all day long but say NOTHING, catch ma drift??!!"

*ahh..heaven!*

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

all that, was last week. i'm a little sober. ada a few kerja yang dah gerak. and the fact that there are more things to do, didn't trigger any emotional distress. alhamdulillah.

my colleague, she's still the same. same 'ol, same 'ol. siap bagi announcement. dia tak layak lagi untuk handle meeting preparation. ada banyak lagi important stuff to do. eh? kerja simple maa. takkan tak boleh buat sendiri. tak salah rasanya, kan? anda juga pernah berada di bawah.

but anyway, tentang kerja2 yang terbengkalai, rasanya kena buat listing la. and to divide them into two. work. job.

work ++ kerja2 office yang bertambah sejak akhir2 nih.

job ++ artwork2 dan kerja2 photography yang liat hendak disiapkan. [ada yang dah selesai. amin.]

untuk 2 weekends yang akan datang, i'll not be in town. akan ke PD untuk a small family day with my colleagues, kira cuti-cuti bikin sendiri.[this one contributed to my headache. ada yang complaint2, rate bilik mahal. 2-3 kali cekya downgrade bilik. dia agree. kelmarin dia hantar email, tak jadi pergi. ada hal family. family comes first katanya.citt podah!]

and on chinese new year, ada trip ke perak, an engagement to shoot. kerja-kerja-kerja.

itu aje kot update buat masa ni.

till later!

love, cekya

another lovely lady...

2008-01-15T14:31:00.000+08:00

isn't she lovely...

2008-01-14T11:25:00.000+08:00

kau teramat sempurna...

2008-01-04T22:25:00.000+08:00

salam all!

it's weekend again. yey!

tanpa disedari, i've got plans for this weekend. it's not line me who has made the arrangements by mommy dearest. adeh!

saturday, tahlil as usual. i've invited few close friends, like the usuals.

sunday, mommy dearest has made an appointment, meeting a friend at a mall nearby. it seems that that friend of hers ada kedai perabut jati or something like that, so nak pergi and insisted that i escort her. kak yati's sleeping over after the tahlil so she'll be tagging along[thank God!]. ada la orang nak layan mommy dearest. hehehehehe!!

i've got loads of work tak abes lagi. argh i'm going mad!!!! at least ada 1 kerja settle petang tadi. need to manage my time elok-elok from now on.

and, i've made a point to come as early as i can to the office. kira before 9 kena ada kat office. i'm always late. tak la lambat, around 5-10 mins tapi rasa tak best la when everybody dah ada kat cubicle masing-masing.

oh! i've got some pretty pictures of kak yati taken in tmn botani. will definitely post it here when i have the time. tungguuuu....hehehehe.....

lotsa love,

cekya

here comes another year...

2008-01-02T19:38:00.001+08:00

salam!

wow. it's 2008. and i was in bed, snuggling comfortably under the blanket when the clock striked 12. and i received lotsa wishes. thanx. tak terbalas rasanya.sebabnya, baca sms the next morning which i think was a bit too late. hehe!

apa pun, i hoped for the best, for all of us. jadikan 2008 bagai bayi yang baru lahir, macam kain putih, that we can put colours and giltters on it!

take care peeps!

lotsa love, cekya.

surprise, or no surprise?

2007-12-26T15:27:00.000+08:00

hey people!

i believe it was a tiring morning. after the long or on and off hols, it's just bloody hard to start again.

it's 5 days to new year. i have so many high hopes for 2008. i've made some preparation to make my existing team strives better. and frankly, there are so many things that i have to improve. rasa perangai dah serupa ayah cekya. he established a consultancy of his own, doing everything from consulting to stamping his letters, invoices, etc.

ikut perangai ayah kot. haihhh!

but it's just tiring doing stuff alone. i had kak yati handle the admin stuff and let her decide[which sometimes she wants me to decide also - alo sista, i'm formally giving you a full pledge of authority for you to decide on the admin stuff. hikhihkhik!]. she's been helping me out, thanx so much sista!

there loads of work to do, both office and the team. i just hoped to get to finish it the soonest. adeh. rasa macam penat and tak motivated to do anything. and i had weird dreams for the past few nights. bangun tu, i'm all sweaty. then asyik buang-buang air. baru cekya perasan yang i dok bantai prunes sebalang since last week. tu pasal amat 'lancar' proses pencernaan dia. cet!

oh yes, semalam, went to visit aan's mother. she was admitted a few weeks back, got a burst vein kat kepala dia and of course, haemorrhage comes into the picture. aan was tough, walaupun at times, she'll cry. all i can do is just be with her, even if i don't have the time to visit but i tried to make a point to visit her mom since the day she was admitted.

there were so many issues that she had to handle before going through the surgery but alhamdulillah, it all went well. she was in the ICU before and after the surgery, and on one of the occasions, her mom did make us worry. she was blabbering about things. doctor said that it was the effect of the drugs.

and few days after that, surprise, surprise, aan told me that her mom was transferred to the normal ward. she's recovering so fast. alhamdulillah we were all overjoyed.

then, 2 days before 'aidiladha, surprise, surprise, aan sent an sms that she's bringing her mom home. i was like, "uh?!". the doctor has allowed her to be discharge and to come for check-ups, as scheduled. alhamdulillah.

and yesterday, after a meeting with a client in shah alam, kak yati, julie & myself went to her house. aan's mom is not only recovering, she's walking, talking and laughing! alhamdulillah!

surprise. surprise.

good or bad, i always 'enjoy' surprises. kalau good surprises, of course, it'll bring smile and joy. kalau bad surprises, it actually trains me to control myself of anger and sadness.

come to think of it, all these emotions that we feel, will definitely build us up as a human being, and makes us realise, we do HAVE flaws. it's a matter of not ignoring them, and to do something about it.

haihhh! easy to type it in words. and it's just so hard to do. sigh!

oh it's 5.30. gotta wrap up my work for today. nak balik awal and buat keje kat rumah la hari nih.
take care beloveds!

lotsa love, cekya.

it's amazing...

2007-12-24T10:00:00.000+08:00

salam people...

i went thru some of my old writings. those writings just amazed me. macam orang lain yang tulis. it's just not like me, at all! hahahha..pelik eh.

and i did promise not to buy new handphone but bought 2 phones after that instead. my defend - manusia hanya merancang. hahhahaha...! and alot of things have been bought since then. and i still wonder, berapa ribu juta la have been spent to buy gadgets, cameras, stuff for the cameras and list goes on and on.
and here's the latest;

it's mac and i've been using windows for like ages. i'm still adjusting to the platform. and i've been spending my weekend with bro mac in bed, with this guy on the player;

thanx kak lun for the cd. it came right on time! melompat gua dapat package dari ratnawati jasman. hehehe....

anyways, how can you resist such weekend? hehehe... tapi tu lah. the price i have to pay - boredom. tido, terjaga. tido, terjaga. it's tiring! rasa lemah jek badan. probably i was busy for the past few weekends, that i longed for another hectic one. tapi mcm wtl cakap, enjoy it while we can!

been reading this book;
it's a chilling thriller containing mysteries, crime and unsolved cases. an underground chamber has been discovered on the property of a former Boston mental hospital containing six small naked mummified female bodies in clear garbage bags. malam semalam, i was in the middle of the book and the story started to get creepy. terus letak buku kat sebelah, off lampu and went under the blankets. hahahah..takot! i seram uols! hahahahaha!

nih cekya baru lepas lunch and rasa melayang la. macam nak jatuh. napa eh? letih betul la macam nih.

anyways, have a great off day tomorrow and kerja semula on wednesday!

lotsa love, cekya

to stay together...

2007-12-21T17:36:00.000+08:00

salam!

it's a relaxing day. bosses pun tak ada. i've been 'stealing' office's time to complete a wedding job. pictures has been burnt to dvd, slideshow pun dah settle. semua dah ready to be delivered.

wtl's made a post that makes me think. or rather sad, actually.

i've been meeting alot of men lately. the wrong men. cekya rasa rimas dan lemas. i mean, these types je ke yang tinggal kat malaysia? unstable jobs. irresponsible. not wanting to settle down. not wanting to have a long relationship[oh yeah, they prefer a one night stand]. only one thing in their minds, s.*.x. kalau umur early twenties tu, gua boley accept la but ni dah 30+. takkan tak boleh fikir? ntah ah. thinking about it makes me furious, but talking about it makes me even madder. i've been doing and sacrifying alot. and i get nothing in return. not that i hoped for any but i guess, things should be working in 2 directions.

in the other hand, i kept thinking, am i the one with problems. yelah, orang kata, keep pointing your forefinger and the others shall be pointing at you. i guess i have to sit and list down what is actually wrong with me. maybe, banyak salah cekya yang cekya tak nampak. maybe, ada benda yang i have to look into. or improve, as a matter of fact. well accepting one's own flaws IS difficult. tapi kena buat jugak nampaknya.

alhamdulillah, i'm busy with work and wedding jobs, therefore forbids me to feel at least a teeny weeny bit of loneliness. but still. it's just within me. surrounding me. and i'm afraid it shall eats me alive. *sigh*

Ya Allah, please let these bad feelings away from me.

sincerely, as always,
cekya

=colours=

2007-12-19T13:02:00.000+08:00

salam!

it's 12 days to 2008. another hectic year, i presume. with all the new things planned, dari hal-hal office, to my personal plans. macam-macam nak fikir and to organise. haihhh!! thinking and planning all those made me even more tired than ever.
i watched a movie kelmarin. heartbreak kid. memang lawak. first few sentences pun dah buat cekya tergelak besar. and cerita nih, if you get the joke, you'll get it. kalau tak faham, then you'll be quiet when everybody's laughing like hell. heheheh...

well semalam round-round klcc with my colleague. bought a birthday present for myself. hehehe....it's my forever CK Be.

dari zaman student lagik pakai this perfume. kumpul duit to buy. ingat lagi, it was only RM150 with gifts and goodies. dah
naik harga sket la...cuma dapat 2 miniature this time round. takpelah.

and ahmad got me this;
tapi tak amik lagi. he bought it for me masa visit his wife in the uk. tak sabar nak amik but i guess we're both a bit busy. he's like;"weyyy!! when are you gonna take this terrible and smelly perfume from me???". siot jek. wangi tau! ngok ngek punya ahmad.

penat and hectic, didn't take me away from loneliness, as always. like whennn this kinda stuff will stop bugging me??!! letey ah.

anyways, do enjoy some piccas from the taman rama-rama visit with wtl & awan.

lastly, have a great raya korban, dear friends.
lotsa love, cekya.

p/s : kak lun, it's a dragonfly la sayang. not butterfly...;)

it's...late.

2007-12-14T01:44:00.000+08:00

yeah, it's kinda late. 1:45am. i'm still wide awake. the past few days were tiring. it's either i collapsed immediately after lying down, or, it's gonna be a long nite. the eyes just won't shut.

many things have happened. sad ones. nice ones. heart-breaking ones. happy ones. it's all in a package. something that i couldn't resist.

alhamdulillah, i'm making my own photography team a reality. i'm actively taking wedding pictures, and events that would have added experience, skills and stuff like that. it's tough at times, juggling with work and all[i wish that i could just walk from that office], but still, it's what i love doing and i can't complaint. it's just great. pretty great. i got a few albums to settle and i just don't have the time. :(

as for the happenings in the office, there are wayyy too many but it's just a totally idiotic just thinking about it. it's a complete hell..

but anyways, i got a deadline tomorrow, gotta chase a few people. and i'll be getting the custom albums i have ordered and the new lens i went crazy for, for the last few months. hehehe....

and i hope the supplier will deliver tomorrow as promised.

and i hope that the designers for the quarterly newsletter will cme back to me before noon or i'll screammm to her.

and i hope i can complete the foolish appraisal form. demmit ah!

weekends, i got a wedding to shoot in melaka. i hope this one turns out well. i still got butterflies in my tummy before ever single job. haihhh! then after the wedding, insya-Allah me & wtl will be heading to PD as i got a last minute booking. it IS hard to find any available rooms, since it's school holidays but it was pure luck! alhamdulillah. wtl would probably have some swimming lessons. hahahah...ready with your suit, girl? hahahahah....

so take care people.

lotsa love,

cekya

my sunday...

2007-12-10T17:46:00.000+08:00

the last of my 20's...

2007-12-03T10:13:00.000+08:00

tulus...

2007-11-27T17:23:00.000+08:00

smoga saja
dia akan terus-terus sayang padamu
akan tetap di sisi
selalu dan selamanya

smoga saja
aku akan tidak dapat menipu diri
yang kau tidak lagi ada
tidak pernah ada, mungkin

:fork:

2007-11-27T14:56:00.000+08:00

a beautiful soul
a memorable episode
a dream came true

shall it be magnificent?
shall it be remembered?
shall it happen, at all?

i’m feeling it. doubts.

memory remains...

2007-11-15T17:16:00.001+08:00

uneasy...

2007-10-25T10:21:00.000+08:00

salam!

hi people. i owed some raya stories tapi rasanya tak payah nak cerita la kot. ray apun dah nak habis. hehehe...!

tadi baca blog kak lun and i'm having bad dreams as well. same story tapi jalan cerita lain-lain. it bugs me alrite. rasa tak suka sangat tapi sometimes it makes me believe it. and bila percaya, rasa tak best, start to feel down and all.

cekya memang tak nak percaya tapi from the look of it, macam memang betul lah. kiranya, the dreams actually confirmed the story in real life.

baru 2 kali. kalau masuk 3 kali. tatau la.

anyways, today's alfie's mommy's birthday! so, here goes....

i'm bored. haih!

love, cekya.

alfie in action!

2007-10-17T17:17:00.000+08:00

salam!

i sent a few kuih raya to my aunt, as well as a small songkok for alfie. here's a few pics sent by my aunt.

err excuse his hingus dripping. ceh alfie!

will type in stories about raya later.

love, cekya.

2007-10-11T16:19:00.000+08:00

it's nearer....

2007-10-09T15:29:00.000+08:00

gambar hiasan - a picture of one of a friend's pottery series.

salam!

waa...dah meriah nak raya. kat kl nih, pukul 9 malam, masih ramai orang kat jalan tar, sogo. beratur kereta nak masuk parking. i guess the shopping places are open till late. and lately, hujan lepas maghrib. but yet, with umbrellas and all, diorang redah jugak bazaar ramadhan, sogo, globe, nagoya dan segala kedai kat jalan tar tu. shopping craze betul orang kl nih.

tapi seronok. seronok tengok couples with their small kids, cuba baju kurung, try songkok, kenakan sampin. semuanya sedondon. nampak cantik. well i probably won't have the opportunity. not in a near future.

rasanya, these past few days, have been a very 'quiet' life. yeah, it was hectic but things are a little bit idle. things, for me, deteriorated in its own way.

entah lah. ada dosa yang belum diampunkan Allah, mungkin.

plan beraya dah bertukar. trip to muar on first raya will be cancelled. my mak long will not be home, she'll be in kl to be with her eldest daughter. my cousin, is on chemo treatment, was just diagnosed with cancer. so the rest of the family will be here in kl.

so i guess, i'll be in kl this year's raya. tak syok lah! i will not see my other cousins in muar. eisk! later guys.

p/s : i wonder if my surprise to s'pore sistas has arrived?

love, cekya.

huhuhu!

2007-10-03T09:53:00.000+08:00

salam!

i had plans for biskut raya gerak gempur on saturday but i was at home last ntie doing nothing, so cekya decide nak buat biskut tu malam semalam.

1 embarrasing info - i suck in baking. be it cakes, cookies, anything like that. memang asyik tak jadik. and last nite's project was kinda succeeded. yey!

very simple recipe. and your kids would have a great time helping you guys out. untuk yang single. korang bubuh la smarties sendiri. hikhikhikhik!!

Biskut Nestum Lekat Smarties

Bahan-bahan :

250 gm mentega (anggaran 1.5 cawan)
1.5 cawan gula halus
1 biji telur
3 cawan tepung gandum
3 cawan nestum
1 sudu teh esen vanilla
4 kotak smarties sbg hiasan

Cara-Cara :

1. Gula, mentega & telur digaul rata. use a mixer dulu tapi jangan lama sangat. Then only, guna senduk apa2 to blend eveything evenly.
2. Masukkan tepung gandum & esen vanilla sedikit demi sedikit, gaul hingga sebati. Tang ni agak berpeluh gak la. Coz it's gonna start to turn to a dough.
3. Masukkan nestum, uli sehingga sebati. Nih makin berpeluh sebab dough dah mengeras sket.
4. Terapkan ikut acuan kesukaan anda. I just make a small ball and penyekkan.
5. Susun smarties di atas setiap terapan. Press a little.
6. Bakar pada suhu 180'C selama 15-20 minit. This depends on your oven. Mine, I only use 170'C, for 15 mins.

got this recipe friom >> http://mj.crazyartzone.com/selera/index.asp?file=resepi&id=90

try la. bahan pun tak banyak sangat. and it's easy!
happy baking, guys...;)

love, cekya.

sibuk beno!

2007-09-24T15:57:00.000+08:00

salam!

it's been raining since morning. nasib air-cond tak berapa sejuk today so boleh tahan lah. banyak hal dah settle. my insurance plus roadtax. the website enhancement i've working on. site pun dah on live. alhamdulillah, lega sket rasanya. been taking jobs for uni students to complete their photography assignment. been selling some photos to the students as well. and i've sold some of my story books. dapatlah duit raya.

health wise, i'm feeling rather upbeat eventhough it's fasting month. i guess the bz-ness makes me occupied.

hari ni huhahuha sket. make flower bouquet order for my close friend. her b'day's tomorrow. and been breaking fast kat luar more than at home ever since first puasa. hehehe...

ntah la. macam malas nak balik rumah. i'm just tired. emotionally depressed. i'm truly exhausted.
dah la can't make the s'pore trip. haihhh!

lagu2 abang nuar, walaupun best, buat cekya sedey lagik. hukk...

so this evening, prolly nak gi klcc, round-round carik present for my friend. berbuka dalam lrt ajelah kot. hehehe...

gotta go guys. tengah nak buat project baru pulak nih. photobook for a colleague pulak. later guys.

love, cekya.

http://www.bumiarmada.com/default.asp?cid=30&cat_type=fleet&prt=0

susah, kan?

2007-09-18T15:43:00.000+08:00

kadang-kadang,
rasa susah nak terima kenyataan.
biar bertahun pun, it's pretty hard to accept it.

best solution for me, apa yang cekya buat is denial.

deny apa yang dah sememangnya fakta.
apa yang sememangnya dah terjadi.

if i can turn back time.
i wish i could.

and today, something has hit me hard.
macam baru terjaga dari lena yang panjang.

realiti ni susah ah cekya nak terima. pedihnye.

name tag.

2007-09-13T14:25:00.000+08:00

salam...

hi people. salam 1 ramadhan...

cik yati@wtl soh buat tag. ok gak la. hilang ngantuk. hehehe...

THE RULES:
1. Each blogger must post these rules first.
2. Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
4. Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they've tagged, and to read ur blog.

Ms Read
cekya memang suka membaca. anything. any material. kadang signboard2 kat LRT, kat tempat2 menunggu, sakan baca. tapi paling utama, books, of course. WTL keeps her books. but i planned to sell them off. baru jual sikit. i’m just gonna let others read and enjoy what i’ve been reading…lagi satu, cekya nih untidy, buat sepah jek nanti. huhuhu!

Ms Sing-A-Song
i sing a lot. kat mana2 aje.kat LRT, bas, tengah jalan kaki. everywhere lah. sometimes my friends asked, “ko dgr cd player ke?”,”ko tengah dengar mp3 ke?”. nope. cekya kalau hafal, segala melody, bunyi gitar, bunyik dram, segala clarinet pun cekya hafal. so pitching dan segala tune, mmg lengkap lah. hahahahaha…

Ms Painty Mainty Mugs
i go crazy bila nampak these mugs. and all of my mugs mmg hand painted. baik kat office, kat rumah. kalau pecah, beli lagi yg hand painted. masa cekya gi UK baru2 nih, kat Whithard shop yang jual tea bags, serbuk2 the pelbagai rasa, they also sell hand painted mugs. it’s 10 pounds each, mind you. the exact same mug that i have here. that’s RM70. kat Jusco RM11.90 jek. nyiahahahaha!

Ms Yoggy Yogurt
especially Nestle’s Mixed Fruit. adeh sedapnya! and Dutch Lady’s Lime Lemon. i can drink it like 1 big bottle. yummy. they are just yummy. yummy. again. hehehe…

Ms Place Piccas
i got the pictures i took is all over. dalam hard disk. dalam external hard disk. kat dalam pc at home. sigh. i must, must keep them at one place. kalau tak, boleh pening. still searching for the best solution to keep them. my precious images.

Ms Wear Till You Swear
name it. heels, loafers, slipper. cekya akan pakai sampai kasut tu dah tak ada daya lagik. ntah. some people ada byk heels at one time. like me, i have like 2 heels utk kerja, 1 loafers utk jalan-jalan carik pasal. and 1 sneakers. and that’s about it. ada orang sampai 1 cupboard. Siapa ek? hehehehehe…

Ms Aunt Org
enough said kot. cekya malas mengemas. haihhhh! beg yang gi UK ari tu pun belum settle lagik. Ripley’s Believe it or Not.

Ms Cotton Candy
pink is my favourite colour. apa jua la yang warna pink. itu rasanya semua sedia maklum. hehehe…dan telah pun menjangkiti orang lain. heheheh…

who am i tagging? tak ada siapalah rasanya.
tata people!

dia...

2007-09-12T12:21:00.000+08:00

exquisite. enough said.

wabbits & weddings...

2007-09-05T16:53:00.000+08:00

salam!

lupa pulak nak cerita pasal the hectic and long weekend that i had with wtl & awan, as well as my families.

the jungle night dinner was fabulous and fun. thanx wtl, and her committee, for giving awan and i, a chance to enhance our skills in photography. and i'm glad that the staff of labuan re loved the piccas that i put up @ multiply. check 'em up, will you? here some of the photos. for more 'animal' photos, gi multiply eh...
and we had late dinner @ mcdonalds..and we slept at 4. sheesh!

semangat betul dengan chairman nyanyi lagu patriotik gitewww!

who's feet is this? but 'twas a happy feet indeed! hehehehe....

awan asyik mengadap show ni. nganga jek dia. huwawawawa!

on saturday, went to a wedding at pwtc. my cousin's wedding. geng2 main masak2[dia tukang carik daun2 dan ranting2 untuk masak!] dan kejar2, dan sorok2 masa kecik dulu. wuhuhuhuhu...he's 2 years younger than i am. it's been a while since i met him. the last time was like yearssss ago! congratulations bro!

engraved chochies for the guests. belgian. reminds me of kak lun's b'day cake. sheesh!

pretty pretty dais...:)

the beautiful couple...ma'aruf & emma...

til later guys. enjoy the piccas!

wassalam.

kfc, astro & bumbung yang bocor.

2007-09-04T09:43:00.000+08:00

hi people!

bongok. bongok. bongok.

semalam cekya tak lunch, so balik tu, singgah kfc for dinner.beli 9 pieces since my mom pun tak makan lagi. tiba rumah, dah mandi and all, nak makan. i was so pissed off bila tengok ayam goreng dalam kotak merah itu. semuanya isi. dada semata. aduih. too much of isi ayam is a bit too much for me. tapi takpelah. makan jugak.

on aje tv, hujan pun turun. as usual. astro would show this "service not available". of all nights, yang cekya being able to be at home early. and i can't watch the tv. erghhh!!! mama cakap, just off the plugs. kang kena sambar kilat pulak. fine.

hujan makin lebat. cekya masih lagi cuba untuk habiskan ayam goreng isi semata tu. tiba-tiba drips of water atas meja makan, right in front of me. bocor. toleh ke dapur. dah berladung air kat lantai. haihhh!! bocor lagi? tiap-tiap minggu datang fix bumbung, pun bocor?

contractor tu, ayah cekya yang hire. bila comment pasal bumbung, ayah will terasa, just because he hired that guy. unreliable. waste of money. every weekend fix the same sh*t. dia tak rasa bosan ke buat benda yang sama. betulkan benda yang sama. bukan nak kata apa la.
bukan cekya nak mengata bangsa sendiri. tapi....hish! bila bagi muka. macam ni la jadinya.

dah letak kain-kain & baldi-baldi untuk tadah air. cekya masuk bilik. pijak tepi katil. basah. aik...takkan cekya mandi sampai air berladung. bila dongak. tuuu dia. bocor jugak?

mama cakap, nanti bagitahu ayah. takpelah. malas nak kecoh. tadah ajelah dengan baldi. kalau repair pun, sama jugak macam kat dapur tu. mama diam. haihhhh!of all the day that i get to be home early, all these happen. just perfect. almost perfect!

chow people!

alfie's school

2007-08-29T11:45:00.000+08:00

comel kan, sekolah alfie? hehehe...

he'll be happy and energetic when it's time to go to school early in the morn. he got a classmate named lizzie. diorang akan berbual bla blu ble gu gu ga ga each morn masa arrive as well as masa balik sekolah. lawak la. bersahut-sahut macam orang tua berborak. hehehe...

and bila balik tu, alfie will look as tired as his daddy. nampak letih sangat. kesian dia. then ada a piece of paper given, macam daily report. ada details on how much milk did he take, food for lunch, snacks. berapa kali wet & soil. and what makes him laugh or cry. active ke tak. i mean it's a good record for parents. i'm not sure about singapore tapi cekya tak pernah plak nampak nursery here in malaysia buat macam tu. at that point, rasa nak bukak nursery jek. hehehehe....!

nurseries in the uk, in brighton to be precise, ranges between 20-40 pounds a day. yes. realllly expensive. alfie's nursery's 38 pounds a day. he'll be sent to the nursery 3 times a week[that's when my auntie works.]. kalikan ajelah...
that's 456 pounds a month.

mahal ek. haihhh...lucky alfie.

lelaki itu...

2007-08-27T22:55:00.000+08:00

salam people!!

it's been helluva week. it was hot. the heat i can't really take. i took some wedding pictures on saturday together with awan. ikut wtl, it was her colleague's brother's wedding. the pictures are at http://cekya.multiply.com.

+++++++

lately, i've been crazy over anuar zain's latest single, lelaki ini. absolutely amazing. he really knows his listeners. but anyway, cekya bukan nak cerita pasal anuar.

it's about somebody i know. knew.
he adores anuar. his songs. his voice. his musical involvement, basically. not men-men attraction yea. hehehe...

i remembered, we bet, who's gonna get his cd first.
i got back that day with anuar's second album in my bag and called him when i reached home.
his words was;
"oh my god, did u hear the 6th song. it has this bla bla bla touch"
"goodness, his voice!"
"i like track 8 the most. what do you think?"
"i dah tak nampak sapa2 lagi nyanyi lagi best."[mawi wasn't in the picture at that time but i'm willing to bet that he'll pick anuar, still.]
and we could have lengthy conversation about each song in the album. till dawn, ok? no joke. he stays up just to talk and pick fights with me. all about anuar. hehehe... and being in the entertainment industry, he knows better! sheesh!

i missed having in-depth conversations with him. exchange of ideas. not only about anuar. about stuff. it feels good to have great conversation, being heard, getting annoyed[but i have gotta admit, i enjoyed it!].

i wonder how he's doing now. i would like to know if he's found the happiness that he's been searching for.
i wonder if the 'wounds' has been taken care of, or it's still there.

i saw him few months back, but from far. watching him from far.
he looks good. healthy.red fresh cheeks.

hey but who knows. deep down inside, he's hurting, all over again. i just knew, nampak mata dia...emmm tak ada sparkle.

well my friend, i hoped you have what you want in life. you would laugh your heart out, like you did that nite. always always!

i missed you and will always pray for you. and remembers you whenever they have anuar's number playin'! and i hoped you'll remember me, bila dengar any anuar zain's songs. ;)

love, cekya
wassalam...

truly...

2007-08-23T12:52:00.000+08:00

ku mencintaimu lebih dari apapun
meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tau
ku mencintaimu sedalam-dalam hatiku
meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku

ungu :: kekasih gelapku

some pictures...

2007-08-20T14:34:00.000+08:00

salam people!

i'm swamped with work. there are so much things to be done.
here are some pictures. I'll write something later. busy la plak.

love, cekya.

jet lag...

2007-08-10T15:49:00.000+08:00

salam!

i hope everybody's fine. seronok rasanya dapat jejak bumi malaysia after 18 days of being away. lama jugak la yea? cekya rasa cam sikit jek amik cuti.
but anyways, the trip was tiring, to be frank, tapi memang best.

rasa macam terlalu banyak nak cerita but i guess i should do like series macam cekmi la kot. hehehe...

tapi, yang buat cekya happy sekali is this young handsome lad.

mommy dia dah sibuk suruh dia jadik macam thierry henry la, lewis hamilton la. oh yes, alfie nih memang manja betol dengan mommy dia. kalau mood baik, ok la. kalau tengah angin, asyik nak bergayut kat mommy dia jek. but most of the time, he's fine. comel sangat rasa nak telan. i even gigit his plump cheeks. geram punya pasal. dah pandai tertonggeng-tonggeng nak bangun berdiri and nak start jalan. he has not even mastered his crawling. hahaha...

this time, cerita alfie, next, will be the pictures i took and stories about the lavish london and brighty brighton!

take care people. wanna get some sleep. sleepy head, i am.

love, cekya.

london & brighton

2007-08-01T04:32:00.000+08:00

salam!!

it's been great 10 days. i've been walking most of the days, wandering around london, as well as brighton.

hoped everyone's well.

love, cekya.

updates :: 010807
i'm still in the uk, will be back in a week's time. sorry la kalau tersilap faham dgn entry cekya nih. hehehehe.... ;)

off i go...

2007-07-21T09:14:00.000+08:00

salam!

hi all. it's been helluva week. i'm going bonkers. very tired till i cried. i guess the pressure's too much. i came to realise that i'm not over about the fact that i'm out of the team. it makes sadder person, i think too much, resulted that i can't take the office work's pressure. i've been staying late in the office to settle everything before i went off for the 2 weeks leave. letih betul cekya when it comes to last minute task given. things that should be decided last week, hasn't been done. bongok betul. it's tough and it's taking too much out of me.

oh well, today's saturday, i have a few chores to do, actually shopping, to be specific. need to buy some stuff for the trip. london's gonna be wet next week, says my aunt but i hope it'll not coz i shall miss the nice shots. hehehe.

i'll be staying a week in london and another in brighton. i must admit, i'm leaving malaysia with a very sad note. i almost cried hugging my colleagues yesterday, although it's just for 2 weeks! however, i hoped to get rid of what i think too much now and start fresh when i'm back.

so long, farewell, aufwiedersehn, goodbye...[cam citer sound of music plak!]

take care my dearest friends.

love you guys lots!
cekya.

great weekend! how was yours?

2007-07-09T10:38:00.000+08:00

salam!

it's been alrite. weekend was fun. saturday, had small family tahlil. pagi-pagi bangun ikut my mom gi pasar tani. got a not so good news masa kat pasar. tapi takpe, Allah Maha Kaya. ada hikmahnya! the tahlil went well. as usual, tak ramai yang datang. had good food after isya'. wished i could eat more. kepala plak sakit. with a little wheezing. asthma mai lagi daaa!

at 11pm, ira & ika came. makan sikit and off to bed. tak sabar nak tido sebab ayah cekya baru pasang aircond kat all rooms. "macam kat hotel", komen ika. haihhh...!!! budak! and ika said something that made me stunned.

"dah lama kita tak jumpa auntie sue, kan?"

yeah. the weddings and all. i had actually created a distance between me and the kids. kesian diorang. sebak gak bila ika cakap macam tu. it's just so true. all i say was, "auntie sue ada keje, ada wedding, can't see you girls, nanti jalan dengan tok aje, bila tak ada wedding, we can go out for swimming or movie..." it's not that i regret having to shoot weddings tapi...hmm...entahlah!

esoknya, bangun and gi bawak the girls swimming. rasa seronok. rasa macam dulu-dulu. i can't imagine that i actually watched, and only WATCHED them swimming and having fun for 2 solid hours. hahaha... kalau ikutkan hati, biar sampai petang pun takpe. here are some piccas;

kemain susah nak ajak balik. my dad suggested that i tie a long rope on their bodies and bila time nak balik, tarik aje! hahahha...seriously! i had to lie saying that i'm heading home, baru terkejar-kejar nak naik. haihhh!!! sampai kecut-kecut jari semua. eh i'm hantu air gak and i wouldn't wanna be out of water kalau dah nampak swimming pool. can't blame them! next time, cekya nak join jugak la walaupun pool budak-budak. hehehehe!

well. gotta go. nak join my parents tengok citer gods must be crazy. jeles pulak dengar ayah cekya gelak sakan kat depan tu.

tata my friends.

love, cekya.

bertahan lah!

2007-07-06T10:25:00.000+08:00

salam!

i'm still recovering from asthma. ada letih lemah sket if i walked too fast or it's too cold. dada rasa bisa. takot gak kalau kena heart attack. huishhh seram gue! but i think my lungs are recovering, probably i was forcing myself to breathe and it has 'hurt' the lungs and chest.

last nite gi tengok transformers. i have never never never felt so chill in any cinemas, until last nite. nak tengok wayang pun tak comfy. and i'm not a big fan pun. saja teman 2 of my friends sebab depa suka tengok cerita-cerita cenggitu. but the graphic works. tip top lah. marvelous. impressive gila. agak ternganga gak la tengok.

at that moment, how i wished i was part of the graphic design team. seriously. it'll made me bloody proud lah! hehehe...

storyline wise, for you to decide.
tapi, the first line of the movie made me think, life ni, balanced. ada yang baik, ada yang jahat. ada yang buruk, ada yang gemok. ada yang ikhlas, ada yang pura-pura. ada give and take.

we'll just have to accept it. and make do.
have a great weekend guys!

love, cekya.

transformed? transformers? transformation?

2007-07-04T12:36:00.000+08:00

salam!

it was a dusty dusty weekend. some tebuk siti situ sana sini at my house. ada renovation sket. and as a result, i got the asthma attack. tried calming it down with my tablets but it's still there. haihhh....ni lah dia kalau renovate rumah. i will surely jadik mangsa. but what to do...

and i have a news for you guys, i've ended my 'photographer life' with redmedia.

so much as i wanted to stay, i have to go. reasons. so many of them.

yeah, sedih. as photography is my passion. and taking wedding pictures makes it more wondrous. but some say that i need to improve. my wedding pictures are not so great compared to my other pictures. point noted.

makanya, cekya kena banyak lagi belajar. banyak lagi ilmu! kena banyak lagi practice shooting. as for now, cekya nak rehat dulu. lepak. tenangkan fikiran as these stuff are really mind-boggling and i'm emotionally exhausted. i guess, ni ujian paling berat yang cekya terima. cekya kena banyak sabar dan tak mau mengarok. no point la kan nak marah-marah.

to all, thanx so much for supporting me & redmedia. insya-Allah, i'll try to improve myself, and i do hoped for your prayers. as i also need to dekatkan diri pada Allah. probably cekya banyak lalai and this is the price i have to pay, and cekya redha.

so i guess that's all for now. take care peeps.
wassalam.

{melaka + part 2}

2007-06-26T12:06:00.000+08:00

salam people...

here's the 2nd part of melaka trip. we woke up with a peaceful surroundings. tak ada bunyik kereta. tak ada bunyi riuh2. peaceful. kat belakang rumah pulak, bendang. cekya bangun lambat. hehehe. coz it was so hard to shut my eyes. maklum la. perut terlebih kenyang. but anyway, lets not brag about me getting up late. heheheh...lepas mandi, cekya angkat camera and round2 keliling rumah. my other friend with camera dah balik dah dari buat roundings. hehe... here are some pics;

then, we had breakfast, or shall i say brunch? had roti canai, roti telur , sambal sotong and the mouth-watering kari kambing. pehhhh! kari kambing yang sangat tidak berbau. daging dia empuk and sebati dengan rempah kari. eisk! teringat pulak.

then we bid goodbye to wtl, thinking that we're just gonna head straight to kl. masing-masing muka dah tarik sampai ke kaki. mungkin ngantuk, mungkin penat. tatau la tu!

tetiba kitorang teringat some bazar yang dibuka 24 jam nearby melaka sentral and we just had to drop by. sila la lihat gambar kanak2 yang teruja untuk mengunjungi kedai ala tujuh sebelas ittew;

and that place is so surprising!!there were NOTHING. hahahaha...ala-ala kedai mamak belakang rumah jual barang runcit, mentol segala. hahaha...adeh ler. ingatkan bazar jual barang kerastangan ke. adeh! time was indeed, wasted.

we then decided to head for bandar melaka. untuk menampal kedukaan mengunjungi bazar 24 jam. hehehe....

sampai je, abang bawak beca sound kitorg, kena beli coupon, kalo tak kena saman. haihh!...bukan apa la. aku rasa style coupon nih dah tak digunakan kat kawasan pj lebih setengah abad yang lalu. tekan mesin, masuk duit, kuar ticket, dah le. nih nak gores dan menang pulak. kalau gores tu, betul2 menang, tak apa jugak. ceh!
lepas letak ticket, we went straight to kawasan muzium2 and all those a-famose thingy lalu jalan merdeka. walaupun merdeka, jalan nih kereta banyak and the melaka river cruise project is an eye sore coz they didn't really cover the construction place.

on the way nak tengok muzium2 tu, we stopped by beli air mineral maha sejuk. best wooo. konon takut dehydrated. tapi mmg haus. and i got red spots on both my arms. nih bahana seafood. kena panas, lagi la terbakar. ye kawan-kawan, saya memang allergic sebeno'eh. heheheheh....!nih kat kedai beli air tu, diorg jual souvenir sekali. gambar nih disnap secara curi. hikhikhik...

trishaws like this are all over the places. and i suppose, semua beca kat melaka nih digi-sponsored la. semua pakai kaler kuning, payung digi, baju digi. tapi tak ada plak orang kuning tu follow beca-beca nih.

meriam. nak lebih penerangan? tebAbBbBOoOOooOWWWwwWW!!!!!!!!!! enough? hikhikhikhikhik....

model yang hanya berdiam kerana menahan terik mentari. cekya rasa kalau julie diri lebih lama, she'll probably be one of the statues. nyiahahahahha!!!!!!!!

nak turun ke stadthuys. smart tangga nih. i can imagine snapping weddings here. sure cun!

cam charlie's angels. julie, ejot & aan. masing-masing dah merah cam udang bakar! hehehe...me? macam ikan bakar hangus. hitam weyyy!!!!!!!

these digi flags are on most of the trishaws. like i said, probably digi has invested a sum of money untuk sponsor these trishaws. and they have decorated them like crazy!

gerai tepi2 nih banyak jual crafts and barang pelik2. barang yang dah lama kita tak nampak pun ada. example, a harmonica my arwah grandauntie bought for me when i was small.

love these tikar mengkuang. but i bought stuff for my mom already, so tak ada la beli apa2 kat melaka town nih.
told ya, we're just so red. macam udang. hahahahha....matching kulit dgn baju!
i love this shop. ada ornaments for sale kat tingkap. it's just so unique. pandai these people attract tourists and buyers.
the kapal @ muzium samudera. matahari memancar. adeh panas!
the place we lepak for drinks, and i repeat, DRINKS. hehehe.....
we drove through this place. tak tahu pulak it's a shopping place. ada a few branded and well-known brands shop lots kat dataran pahlawan nih.
and i guess was all for that hot sunday. we were heading for the ayer keroh toll. siap ada air terjun kat junction ni!
3 happy meals. eh silap. 3 happy people, trying to look as fresh as they can be. padahal dah kepenatan dan kepanasan yang teramat sangat.
and that's that. sunset. masuk ldp, was about 6 something. rasa tak sabar nak tiba rumah. indeed, it was tiring tapi cekya happy sangat. lama tak lepak keluar jalan-jalan macam ni.
and the best thing was, i was outstation tapi tak buat keje, meaning it was not a wedding job trip, or office work. it's purely about having fun, spending time with my closest friends.

will make sure that it's gonna be something that i do frequently.
to wtl, thank you so much sebab jadik tour guide kitorang, sabar melayan kerenah adik2 yang macam budak2 nih. hehehehe!

lotsa love,
cekya.

{melaka + part 1}

2007-06-25T11:20:00.000+08:00

salam!!

waa...i bet you guys did something interesting during the weekends. coz i enjoyed mine so much. walaupun starting tu agak upsetting, tapi redah ajelah. cekya tak kuasa nak bising2.
we managed to visit redmedia's first client newborn baby. baru 11 days. sarah raihana nih comel, ikut muka ayah. and she always smile in her sleeps. orang kecoh2 pun, dia tido nyenyak jek. congratulations to nadia & riza!

then we made our way to melaka. this trip was planned weeks before. me, and 3 other friends met wtl @ tampin/ alor gajah exit at about 2pm. then we made our way to klebang, wtl's hometown. sampai, relax2 sambil melayan her nephew, amar. then we went to the beach side. makan goreng pisang, nasik goreng, cucur udang, a bit of this and that coz we're gonna stuff ourselves later that nite.

here are some of the piccas;

+ nih model klebang, jangan marah ha!

+ cam model tepi laut pulak! hehehe...

+ nak beli tapi...errmm...

+ julie & wtl.

+ yang ni pun terasa nak beli...tepi...ermm...

then, we went to the place that wtl booked for us. a roomless house with one toilet attached. hehehe....very comfortable. it's not that we're expecting 5 star hotel ke apa. just a place to clean ourselves, tido and stuff. alhamdulillah, rumah tu pun ok dan bersih! suka sangat!
that nite, around 7.30pm, we made our way to the ikan bakar place. lalu melaka sentral, a transportation hub. menarik kalau amik gambar from the top. nih cekya snap dari dalam kereta jek.

and we arrived at crystal bay, kg alai, about 45 minutes later. and there was this signboard. my friends' remarks was,"mana lembu reti baca...hish..."..see the signboard for yourselves! hahahahahha....! memang lawak la!

sampai aje, orang belum la ramai sangat. but everybody's busy grabbing the fresh fishes, kerang, kepah, udang, sotong, ketam, pepahat, etc.

agak-agak korang, kenal dak cik kak tudung hijau tengah tersengih lebau tu? nyiahahahaha!!!

and here are some of the food yang sempat difotografkan. sebab right after that, we can't even lift our arms, let alone a dslr camera!hehehehe...

we finished mengerjakan makanan at about 10 something. singgah 7-11 beli yogurt drinks so boleh pegi toilet dgn kadar segera. masing-masing dah termengah. hahahaha. everybody was quiet though masa mula2 tu gelak2 sakan. kekenyangan dan kepenatan.

balik, semua relax2 and tido. aiseh. 'twas a foodfull day for the 5 of us! *sigh*

i'll post melaka part 2 later or tomorrow. kalau tak post sekarang, i'll probably won't coz redmedia's gonna have 2 jobs dalam masa 2 minggu berturut-turut. i'll be mighty busy then.

till later darlings!

love, cekya.

pheeewitttttttttttttt!

2007-06-19T10:39:00.000+08:00

salam people!

don't bother the title of this entry. it's merely out of "jadah apa aku nak letak as title eh??". hehehehe!
so here some snap shots from the meet-up.

attendees;
cekya
cekmi
biahnce
wtl
awan [notice him smooching his ice-cream? haihhh! cheeky betul la dia nih!]

by invitation;
khairil
azrai

absent with apology;
kak emmy
kak lun
ligo
masyi

absent and i am to seek apology coz i didn't mention the meet-up;
zuhri

it was fun. lawak giler when we tried to imagine the theater entitled "my horizontal car". hahahahaha!

sis wtl, no matter how tired you are, please check your tyres and be alert of the positioning of your CLK[cute little kelisa].

and we got the gifts from lun through wtl. kak lun, i love the pink tudung as well as the card. fits me well. pandai you pilih card eh? hehehe....!

and before sampai swensens tu, i got a message from a dear colleague who have given birth to a baby boy.

the next day, we visited her and lepak kat bilik dia from 11am to 2pm. hahahaha..betul punya melepak! and here's a picture of her new hero;

he's reddish and smooching. geram. and he got so ever soft cheeks. rasa nak kunyah. hahahaha...
to maz & iffzan, i guess this is the beginning. i know you guys can be great parents. and baby a'isy is one little lucky boy to have you both as his mom & dad.

hoped you'll get well soon, maz!

lotsa love, cekya.

darul aman...

2007-06-04T17:32:00.000+08:00

salam!

i'm back! kedah was hot too. adeh. panasnye tak terkata, serupa melaka jugak. and one obvious trait of the north folks, they drive like 50-60kmph. gilak tak? naik lemas. and they stayed on the right @ fast lane, no matter what. zuhri always always take the left lane. kosong wey. tak ada kereta. cepat jek kitorang sampai. nyiahahahaha!!!

alhamdulillah the job went well cuma ada some glitches siti situ sana sini but all and all, semuanya ok. we started early, around 7 something in the morning and everything ended at about 12am.
and we managed to shoot some pose kat belakang rumah pengantin perempuan. bendang! marvelous betol! here's one of the pics;

oklah, got alot of things to do. till later canaries!
wassalam.

love, cekya.

she's THE miss...

2007-05-30T11:05:00.001+08:00

salam!

yeah, miss riyo mori won the beauty contest. kat mata cekya, tak ada la cantik sangat-sangat. but she's smart. and the final question that she answered reminds me when i was small. the judge asked, what's the most memorable moment of your childhood yang buatkan dia ingat till today.

there was this concert kat tadika and everybody had to wear baju mcm ala red indian. and everybody got their costume except for yours truly. maklum la, extra inches everywhere, so i had to custome-made my costume. masa dapat tahu that there's no costume for me, i went back crying and the teacher called up my mum saying that i had to make one of my own.

then mak cekya gi sekolah, amik contoh from the school, beli kain and made a red indian costume for me. with the exact colour and all. hehehehe... and cekya smiles again!

bila fikir balik, ngengada gak la. tapi disebabkan nak join jugak kengkawan menari time concert, buat gak la baju tu. hmm...i wonder where the baju is. probably my mom left it in johor when we moved.

but anyway, i love miss japan @ miss universe's long dress. memang cantik! suka! nampak simple but i just love it!

gotta go! till later.

love, cekya.

trip to remember...

2007-05-28T11:36:00.000+08:00

salam!

i had a great weekend. melaka's steaming hot. aiseh wtl, i just can't imagine you going back to melaka every other weekend. panas sehh!! langit very clear, tak byk awan. awan, you should go to melaka...give your soothing aura kat sana. adeh panas. panas. panas. enough said? hahahaha!

the wedding went well, alhamdulillah, despite the hot weather. friday, sampai jek, bride to be was getting ready, so off we went to the resort we're suppose to stay to get clean and all. the place was rather decent. err...clean and all. cuma sabun dia yang tak sanggup gua pakai. macam fab buku. mau calar satu badan. hahaha...but zuhri said he used it anyway. hahahaha...

habis majlis nikah, amik gambar studio for the couple, we finished at 1.30am la lebih kurang. wtl waited kat resort. then 3 of us gi makan ikan bakar nearby the resort. adeh. terliur la bila cakap pasal ikan bakar cili dia. ermm...wtl kata ada lagik sedap. kalau gitu, leleh la segala air mata, hidung dan telinga cekya. nyiahahahahha!!!!

wtl stayed with me that nite. kita borak sambil tengok tv, sedar-sedar dah pukul 3am. aiseh. esok ada keje lagi nih tapi tak tido. best la kan sis? nanti buat another round of trip. we shall select a better and bigger place so everybody can come and stay in 1 room. hehehhee...and we shall borak till 5am! hehehe...

and zuhri called to wake us up. tak senonoh betul le anak dara 2 org nih. eisk...!

but anyway, the majlis ended about 5 something, gi makan and head home. jauh plak. wtl silap tunjuk jalan ke, kitorg yg silap masuk junction ke but we took almost an hour to arrive at the toll. adeh. we followed the signages tapi ntah le...

gotta go. ada keje. oh ye, gambar atas tu is the bride, getting ready to be photographed with her melaka's traditional costume.

love,
cekya.

p/s : i'm so excited nak tengok baby nuha tonite. i'll probably stop by at the hotel to see her. tak sabar dah nih! hehehehe...wtl, wanna come?

longer days, shorter nights.

2007-05-24T10:51:00.000+08:00

salam!
lately cekya hari-hari balik lambat. chill kat klcc, most nights. hehehehe....bukan buat apa. balik from office pun lewat, then had dinner with my colleague, then beli some books. aiseh. hari-hari beli buku. i guess i'm back to my old habits.

balik rumah, baca buku sampai habes. hahaha...a book a day. tido around 2-3am. pagi, ngantuk. tido sambil berdiri or bergayut kat handle dalam lrt. hahahaha!

and today, i'm suppose to teman a friend of mine to buy a digital camera. haihhh! balik lewat lagik. ceh! and tomorrow, after lunch, me & zuhri will be heading for melaka, ada wedding. be back in kl on saturday.

and probably, on sunday, me and my family will be going to muar, nak jumpa my uncle to ask him to be the wakil for my brother's enggagement in november. haihhh! penatnya dengar all these plans.

pasal kerja, bertimbun. i just can't open my files and work. bercelaru lagi kepala nih.

oh masyi's coming to kl next week. something i look forward to after all these hectic days. tak sabar nak tengok baby nuha yang comel macam cekya. nyiahahahahhaah!!!!!!!

oklah. gotta go. take care people!
wassalam!

aiseh....idle....

2007-05-21T14:01:00.000+08:00

salam!

wowwie. this blog has been really quiet. tak ada sapa mai tinggal comment. takpelah. it's not that i have an interesting life lately. hehehe...

free time, i prefer to stay home and read books. rasanya in 2 days, i've finished 3 books. and kept buying. *sigh* and most of them, are love stories. am i hoping for something? or just easing myself, reading a good ending. about someone getting what she wants, who she wants, when she wants it. rasa soothing when i read ever perfect path of their lives. each of it ada cerita yang berlainan. and i know, none of them fits mine. hahaha! never will, i'm sure of that.

lately, gatal mulut nak tanya my mom, "how if i don't get married, at all?"
kang marah plak. or worst, kecik hati. hish. bosan lah leading life like this. cekya pun dah malas nak tengok my hp. i just keep it in my handbag. sedar-sedar ada miss call. i actually forgot that i DO have a handphone. hahahaha!

nak buat apa-apa pun dah malas.
anything. everything.

i guess it's a stupid idea to jot them all here. haihhh...!

...your day...

2007-05-15T12:57:00.000+08:00

them....

2007-05-14T20:30:00.000+08:00

my dear alfie...

2007-05-09T18:05:00.000+08:00

hutty celebration!

2007-04-26T10:03:00.000+08:00

salam!

6 of us were there.
we sounded like 60. mama emmy, biah & zuhri couldn't make it. and that would be 90 of us of they turned up. nyiahahahaha!

the nite started me being hush away by the waitress.
"tak ada space la kak. dah penuh. tak tahu lagi pukul berapa clear."
deng! so where to now? awan came and told him. i joked;
"cuba awan gi try tanya. probably she'll give you a table.."
2 minutes later, awan came to me with a smile.
"jom cekya!"
ceh! demyu waitress. tadi kata penuh. kalau perempuan tanya, cakap tak ada. lelaki tanya, terus ada. bongek! awan said that i gotta put extra. hell ya i did. but then again, i don't have that rosy cheek. nyiahahahahaha!

here are some pictures, so enjoy!
err on the number 17, the birthday lady claimed that she's 17. lets just agree. hehehe!

guys, i had so much fun.
kak yati, may you have more wonderful years ahead! and go watch those movies! need a companion? i'm always here..;)
cekmi, when can we arrange for a visit to your classes nih?
awan, thank you for securing us a table. really, i just don't know how you did it. ceh!
azell, i'll forward you the resume later eh? thihihihi!
and julie, thanx for joining us, the cracky bunch!

love, cekya

talkabout observations!

2007-04-19T12:59:00.000+08:00

salam!

wow. it's been thousands of stuff in my mind and i wish i can scribble everything here, sharing those with you guys.

early this week, cekya balik rumah naik lrt as usual, with my 7 months preggy colleague. she's petit and has quite a big tummy. we always have problems getting a seat for her. i know she's been tired lately. with swelling feet and numd hands, i feel helpless looking at her walk, even.

and that evening, we rushed in the lrt and there's an available seat. suddenly came this woman, datang terus duduk. i was like damn! biatch! so we just stand in front of her. she? buat muka tatau and buat-buat tido. biatch! tiba-tiba, a guys beside him, offered my friend his seat. and the interesting thing was, lelaki tu cekya memang nampak dia semacam. he was shivering, peluk tubuh, a drug addict.

haiya. penagih dadah pun faham yang a pregnant lady needs to take a seat. and a woman, whom i believe should have that sifat keibuan whether she's married or not, should have given up the seat. ni dok tengok my friend atas bawah. biatch! oh i've said that word 3 times now. enough already.

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office. is a total boredom. new boss. new colleague. adui. if i'm the only one yang susah nak adapt, then probably, i'm at fault. nih semua orang can't accept the way they work. the way they do things. the way they talk, even. it's just getting on my nerves la sometimes. ceh! cekya sampai tak tahu nak bercerita la pasal diorang berdua nih. and i got this deparmental meeting tomorrow. the boss have warned us that it's gonna be long. ceh! than siapa nak jaga department? who's gonna answer those damn calls. dia ke? dah la dulu sound gua sebab buat support kat tempat orang..."you jaga helpdesk...you should be at your place je...takleh gi tempat orang..!"...ceh! oh i've said that word 3 times now. enough already.

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lately, i feel pretty lonely. cam dok sorang-sorang jek. kalau balik lewat, balik terus mandi and tido. kalau balik awal, pun macam tu. tido. i guess that's the way to shoo-shoo my feelings kot. kadang tu i force myself to sleep sampai rasa suffocated. hahahaha....kalau letak cctv atas katil tu, macam-macam aksi ada. tutup kepala dgn bantal la. kaki naik atas bedpole tepi tu. baring melintang la. lemas betul. tpai nak menghilangkan rasa bosan dan menyampah dgn the mixed feelings i have.
i hope my friends out there tak le mengalami syndrome katil macam cekya. nyiahahahaha!!

oklah peeps. take care!

lotsa love, cekya.

sweetest lady...

2007-04-17T09:30:00.000+08:00

p/s : girl, i'm really sorry for the late wish in blog. take care of your health, alrite?

Sleepy Slappy Sloppy...

2007-04-09T12:49:00.000+08:00

salam!

weekend was hot, stuffy, berbahang..just name anything which is associated with heat. semuanya ada.

schedule for the weekend was a bit tight. majlis cukur jambul & wedding on saturday and album delivery on sunday.

pagi ahad tu, kepala sakit and i got a slight asthma attack. rasa macam mengheret kaki jek bila gi klcc ari ahad tu.

kat klcc, jumpa the client kat dome. zuhri ordered chicken pie, tapi telah dirasmikan oleh anaknda beliau, adiputra. hahahaha...tapi nampak sedappp sangat. takde mood nak mkn at that time, or otherwise, i've ordered one for myself. hehehe...!

and i bought this >>

i guess my old phone has given up on me. so i got this one, simple one with simple features.

so that's about it peeps. and oh, the above picture, is muhammad syakir, yang telah dicukur jambulnya last saturday and kerana rambut yang mcm elvis presley, tak berkurang plak rambut dia walau dah ramai yg potong. hahahha...he is just a charming little boy.

that's about it. take care guys.

love, cekya

bagaikan sakti...

2007-04-03T15:33:00.000+08:00

getting married?

2007-03-27T16:17:00.000+08:00

i'm just so busy and i just don't know where to start!
adeh bertimbun-timbun stuff in my mind and due to tiredness, usually cekya balik, mandi2, 'konon' nak baring-baring, terus tido sampai pagi! eisk!
pehtu malam semalam, oleh kerana letih dan mamai, jatuh plak dalam toilet. eisk! and i got some bruises on my leg. nasib baik kepala tak terantuk kat jamban. aiseh!

but anyways, few good things happened. masyi dearest, congratulations! baby nuha would probably be showered with pink dresses and pretty dolls! hehehe...hugs and kisses to both of you!

and i bought a new camera. but ada defect pulak pada camera so i'mm just gonna drop by kat kedai tu and see what they can do about it. to me, i demand a new set! mahal tuuuu!!

redmedia ada weddings coming up this weekend so no resting lah for this weekend!
take care people, and if you can rest, enjoy it, the fullest!
chow..!
love, cekya

till the day i die...

2007-03-19T16:06:00.000+08:00

+++++++++

been sick. cronic gastric. bukan sebab tak makan but i had too much of acidic stuff on wednesday, resulting on a serious cramps through out thursday. i was pretty worried as redmedia has got a wedding in ampang, friday & saturday respectively. i did go to both events, but friday was like killing me. the cramps kept coming, tapi tahan ajelah. and today, makan pun macam nasik hospital. no spicy stuff. boring!

and been drinking alot of soya bean, to help reduce the acids.

heard that wtl's been sick as well. the heat is eating us alive, i presume. and some are with flu, headaches and all. *sigh*

i truly hoped the rest of blogshabats are in their pinkest of health. hehehe! pinkest lagik!

love, cekya.

p/s : the picture above taken on last saturday, the ampang wedding reception ...;)

2007-03-14T15:14:00.000+08:00

"Jasmine, or its scientific name, Jasminum sambac is a species of jasmine native to southern Asia, in India, Philippines, Myanmar and Sri Lanka. Common names include Arabian Jasmine, Mogra (Hindi), Kampupot, Melur (Malay and Indonesian Language), Sampaguita (Tagalog), and Mallipu (Tamil).

It is an evergreen vine or shrub reaching up to 1-3 m tall. The leaves are opposite or in whorls of three, simple (not pinnate, like most other jasmines), ovate, 4-12.5 cm long and 2-7.5 cm broad. The flowers are produced in clusters of 3-12 together, strongly scented, with a white corolla 2-3 cm diameter with 5-9 lobes. The flowers open at night, and close in the morning. The fruit is a purple-black berry 1 cm in diameter.

It is widely grown throughout the tropics as an ornamental plant for its strongly scented flowers. Numerous cultivars have been selected, including some with double flowers such as Jasminum sambac or 'Duke of Tuscany'.

It is the national flower of the Philippines, adopted by its government in 1937. In the Philippines, the flowers are gathered and strung into leis, corsages and crowns or its oils distilled and sold in stores, streets, and outside churches. The garlands may be used to welcome guests, or as an offering or adornment in religious altars.

Besides the Philippines, it is also the national flower of Indonesia, which was adopted by Indonesian government in 1990 along with Moon Orchid (Phalaenopsis amabilis) and Rafflesia arnoldii. In Indonesia, the flower symbolizes purity, eternal love and nobility. It also symbolizes the beauty of a girl. The flower is commonly used in religious or cultural ceremony especially in Java and Bali. It is nicknamed puspa bangsa (nation flower or people flower) by the government.

In Hawaii, the flower is known as "pikake" or "pikaki," and is used to make fragrant leis. In South India, jasmines are strung into thick strands and worn as a hair adornment. In China, the flower is processed and used as the main ingredient in jasmine tea."

p/s : melur & melati, are they the same?

hot weekend...

2007-03-12T11:07:00.000+08:00

salam...

hi people!! how’s the weekend? last weekend, it was all about movies. cekya tengok 2 totally different ones.

first, it was mukhsin. yerp! i’ve watched mukhsin. funny, definitely not a typical cerita budak2. it really has reflected my younger days.
ermm...no mencemar budaya scenes. all clean ones. hahahhaa...parents, bring your children to watch mukhsin. they can definitely relate. i don’t see anything wrong in exposing them with some sweet naïve love eh? ;)

secondly, a totally mind boggling one. belahan jiwa. ahah...sounds so lovey dovey. NOT! it’s about cempaka, who’s mentally disturbed....and there are 4 other characters, who called themselves, soulmates. memang betul2 pelik dan confuse tengok cerita nih but i manage to conclude everything when they revealed something in the end. memang best lah. tu sebab kita kena iman, kena percaya pada Allah.kalau tak, we’ll all probably be like cempaka. it was stressfull for her, i understand. but things could have been better for her kalau ada kekuatan emosi and iman yg kukuh.

how did you spent your HOT weekend?

love, cekya.