Friday, August 27, 2004

another one going off!

salam bloggy!

today,another colleague kat office cekya resign lagi...i wonder what hr dept is doing,especially their so called 'leader'.can't they see...?masuk nih dah 5 orang resign for hq sahaja...other branches pun ada yang dah tender their resignation letters...5 orang nih are reporting directly and indirectly kat this hr dept head...dia tak nampak ke,orang dah fedap dengan dia...?

actually,me and colleagues in i.t dept are also annoyed.for the plans and everything that he's doing for i.t without our knowledge and pretending that he didn't get any inputs from us,reports to the management that i.t dept refused to communicate and give co-operations!what the heck is that???!!!

many many times,when we(any of the i.t staff,talks to him,he'll just have his eyes looking and wondering at other places)...i mean what's that???afraid??worried coz we all know what sh*t he talks about us to other people??coz we're willing to stand for our rights?and does not understand one word of i.t jargon and still pretend yang dia tuh bijak sangat!bila kita explain about certain things,he'll ask us repeatedly as he is always not clear about the i.t stuff and still stubbornly wanna do things himself-even if he does not know anything about it!duh!

kata orang melayu,bodoh sombong-he's a perfect example!just because he's a part time lecturer,does not mean that you know everything!coming in late,nearly everyday.no doubt he went off late but to where??no!not home but his night classes!duduk dalam bilik,check paper student....

marah betul cekya.bukan marah bagi pihak sendiri but for all of my colleagues...tak faham betul orang macam ni.kesian kat yang teraniaya...tolong ah bang!!awak tu group general manager..buat perangai macam junior clerk...huh!

and just now,a lady from a job agency called.she wants my updated resume.so i guess it's time to hop or to continue my studies!

boring!boring!

daaa guys...gonna meet up with a friend kat klcc...till then....wassalam...

p/s : istighfar cekya!eisk...banyak betul dugaan lately...:(...

Thursday, August 26, 2004

bright yet black morning!

salam to all....

cekya arrive office pukul 9:50am hari ni...nak tau kenapa?ada orang dah cross track lrt kat station abdullah hukum,so semua tren kena stop..or it was moving really slow...


masa cekya naik ke tingkat atas taman paramount tu,orang penuh and the train was there,stopped & stuffed with commuters.adoh la!kalau orang kat abdullah hukum tu terjatuh,then i felt sorry for that person...tapi kalau sesaja carik pasal nak cross track of cuba bunuh diri,memang menyusahkan la...istighfarr cekyaaa...hehehe

so i called my bro,asked me to pick me up and sent me to the office..heheh...dera,jangan tak dera!and i didn't know that i was actually gonna face another disaster!


yeah!traffic was all jammed!sabar ajelah...rasa nak nangis dalam kereta pun ada...it took me more than an hour to reach the office...masa kuar dari kereta,lenguh tak terkata...i can't blame the traffic though..memang tengah peak hours...

but at least i reached the office safely,despite the way my bro drove the car.alhamdulillah la yea...heheh...

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yesterday, bought my friend's wedding gift.and also some card to give away.cekya pun telah perabeskan duit dengan membeli sd memory card untuk digicam.128mb = 700++ pictures...yahoooo!!!!!!!!!

bestnya!!lepas nih main banyak la amik gambar and i don't have to transfer the pictures after snapping a few.sometimes,i had to delete some of the pics just because there aren't much space....such a waste...lepas ni,boleh la snap banyak mana yang cekya suka and it's gonna be just so usefull for my friend's wedding this coming weekend...she asked me to snap pictures during nikah,berinai and also hari sanding...and i'm just happy to do it for her...

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ermm...hari nih a friend of mine buat operation untuk buang lump kat kepala dia...anyone reading this,please pray for his safety and mudah-mudahan operation tu berjaya...

take care people...
wassalam...


Wednesday, August 25, 2004

saya akan tetap tunggu sampai bila-bila...!

Bila Rindu - Ruffedge

Dikeheningan malam
Termenung ku berseorang
Tak lena mata dipejam
Terdengar suara terngiang
Suara merdu yg disayang
Bagai kau didepan mata
Ku capai tapi tak kena
Sukarnya memendam rasa
Ingin ku luahkan kata

Bila rindu
Terkenang mu sayang, terasa sayu
Syahdunya jiwa ku bila malam makin kelam
Jauh terbang diri ku melayang
Aku rindu
Sentuhan mu, ku rasa sayu
Inginkan jiwa mu selubungi jiwa ini
Bawa ku dalam pelangi
Melepasi batas diri ini

Jauh angan ku lena
Kurasa kita bersama
Kau bawa daku kesana
Ke alam kisah yang lama
Kenangan didalam jiwa
Bila tersedar semula
Disisiku kau tiada
Sukarnya ku pendam rasa
Inginku luahkan semua

p/s : insya-Allah,i'll be waiting for that person i miss the most..:-(

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

*demam?*

salam...

dah few days cekya tak tulis or bercerita apa-apa dalam blog ni.tak sihat.mula-mula malas nak ke klinik tapi malam semalam,pergi jugak coz cekya dah setkan appointment to see my doctor.memang cekya akan pergi jumpa dia every month to check on my condition.sekali dia amik temperature,cekya demam rupanya...

jenuh makan ubatlah nampaknya...and bila dah makan ubat,automatically,i'll be sleepy.hari ni betul-betul cekya mengantuk.dah tak larat.rasa nak landing aje kat meja ni...

ada banyak reason cekya sakit.yelah,when we think about things happening in life,rasa penuh otak ni...ada macam-macam issues.cekya ni memang gitu,tak boleh banyak sikit fikir,tak boleh sedih-sedih sangat,terus tak sihat badan ni...memang affected...and i just hate it coz it will surely mengganggu kerja-kerja cekya...

baru-baru ni,ramai betul resign in my company...they are going off for better offer.many of my good friends nak blah dah.sedih sangat...maybe ada orang yang tak suka diorang but for me,friends are still friends..selagi dia tak buat salah pada cekya,cekya akan still regard them as friends...i'm planning to buy a few farewell cards(yess...cardS...it shows that memang ramai dah resign) to give to them...

sampai sini aje.after office,i'll be going to jln pudu,temankan kawan cekya nak ambil tudung nikah dia and nak mintak the wedding planner tu ajar cara nak pakai tudung tu.hari tu cekya tengok tudung tu macam complicated sangat to wear...hehehe....kalau cekya,pakai jek tudung bawa,jahit je beads..hahahha....

take care darlings....kalau tak sihat,drink alot of water(this message goes to me as well!)..

wassalam

Friday, August 20, 2004

ikea day!

salam guys..

i was heading home when a long lost friend called.he wants to see and insisted that he wait for me beside the office building.ee planned to take me for a drink but i requested for him to bring me to ikea(bila lagi nak membuli kengkawan...hehehe...nak sangat jumpa,padan muko!anyway,thanx ma friend!).since i have planned to buy a few things and bersempena dengan pay day,cekya pun angkut barang yang kena beli...



so,here goes!


the curtain railings' holder.been wanting to buy it for ages.one of the old pair was lost during the renovation thingy..



the mirror i've been eyeing for since i saw the ikea's online catalog!if you guys are interested,there are 2 other colors.one is pink and another one is white...nice eh?it costs me rm65.00...;)



since my bakul baju is often missing(my bro took it and happily put it in his room-yet their baju is all over the place!),so i decided to buy this turqoise colored sort of bakul baju for the bathroom...



and last but not least,i saw this simple toothbrush holder and decided to grab it.cekya~~well-known of buying unnecessary stuff when she got the money!hehehe...

so that's about it!i'm planning to buy the pink colored mirror my mom's pink bathroom.macam cantek seksangat pulak!heheh...

emm...gotta go guys,i'll be going thru a long day tomorrow!
wassalam!

p/s:pictures taken with my nokia 6820..clear jugak ek...

ola!

salam semua...

cekya tak tahu,kenapa dan apa sebenarnya yang terjadi pada my emotional condition.i can just blame it on pms but it seems like it is more than a hormone thingy...

and this time,with some 'help' from problems around me,things are getting worst.adoi runsing betul.rasa nak fly cepat-cepat ke uk and further my studies.kalau orang nak kata i'm running away from my problems or what not,i'm not afraid to admit that i AM avoiding those problems.kalau boleh solve,i'll face it.

ini,things that are not meant to be solved.benda tu akan menjadi kenangan pahit selamanya...
insya-Allah,cekya nak bincang dengan mama & ayah minggu depan.ahad ni,insya-Allah they'll be arriving kat klia at about 3pm...

cekya nak bincang dan ceritakan panjang lebar tentang segalanya.cekya harap sangat mereka faham akan kemahuan cekya kali ni.rasanya,dah tiba masa untuk cekya start anew.mungkin silap cekya sendiri...dan dah tiba masanya cekya merubah segalanya...termasuk tempat tinggal,tempat belajar dan tempat mencari rezeki...

and please,jangan fikir yang cekya tak sayangkan keluarga terutama mama & ayah.itulah harta yang tak ternilai buat cekya.but i guess i can give more to them if i were to migrate...and i know,i will love them much much more!

teringat masa cekya di uk,tahun 1999...pertalian adik beradik,and also my relationship with my parents are beyond everything...rasa terlalu sayang!bila dekat,bercakar tapi bila jauh,cekya rasa teramat sayang dengan adik-adik...dengan mama & ayah,apatah lagi...

pernah ada orang bertanya,"do you think that by going to uk,you could have settled every problems that you're facing?"..memang,cekya rasa 90% daripadanya akan selesai...dengan izin Allah!tak sanggup rasanya menangis sampai tertidur selama-lamanya...sudah cukuplah segala kepedihan yang cekya tanggung...

rasanya sampai sini aje sesi meluah perasaan.hehehe...dalam bergenang airmata,alhamdulillah,cekya masih lagi mampu tersenyum dan buat lawak dengan teman-teman rapat...

cakap pasal teman rapat,cekya nak pi ronda one utama esok dengan seorang kakak kat office ni.we're ambitious,sebab nak habiskan rounding at both wings.kita tengok la lutut siapa yang ketaq esok!hahahah.....

oh yea...lagu ni,lagu cekya masa kat college dulu,too much - spice girls!

Too much of something is bad enough,
But something's coming over me to make me wonder,
Too much of nothing is just as tough,
I need to know the way to feel to keep me satisfied.


i guess it is true,too much of something is bad enough but nothing is just as tough!i'll stop here.will write again tomorrow,or if my weekend's occupied,i'll just blog next monday...

have a nice weekend darlings!
wassalam...

Wednesday, August 18, 2004

announcement - adoh!!!

salam semua!

hari ni cekya tak ada mood.gigi geraham belah kiri atas sakit.bisa sangat!and bila sakit gigi,berjangkit ke kepala...:-(
and i'll be leaving the office a little early,around 4pm.nak balik,take some painkillers and put myself to bed.takut nak pi dentist!uwaaaa!!!!!

take care people!

wassalam...




Tuesday, August 17, 2004

::insecured?::

salam....hi guys!

tadi,masa cekya tengah bosan buat kerja(i left my work open and surf in another window..hehehe)a kinda close friend of mine datang kat tempat duduk cekya.we’re quite close in terms of mengadu pasal problems.not all but we know that we have each other to turn to kalau ada apa-apa..

ahmad : ermm…dah lebih 12 jam dah ni.girlfriend aku tak call...
cekya : la…why?you guys gaduh ke?
ahmad : taklah..she went back to pahang,ada uncle dia meninggal..
cekya : tak ada signal kot kat kampung..
ahmad : memang la tak ada signal..i tried calling,tapi tak dapat.but there are always fixed line that she can use..!
cekya : ala..maybe she was busy tolong itu ini.you have to understand.
ahmad : if i go to any funeral ke apa,i’m sure to call her,seminit pun i call.kalau tidak,dia tanya,kenapa tak call...masa kat UK,she will call me,balik kelas,pi kelas..nak tido,bangkit tido...agaknya,dia tak suka kat aku lagi kot..
cekya : ya Allah…apsal fikir macam tu??she’s busy la tu.and maybe family uncle dia simpan the fixed line phones.we wouldn’t wanna receive calls time-time macam tu right?
ahmad : i just don’t know why i feel insecured.
cekya : dah la,don’t worry...tak ada apa-apa tu..she will call you when she arrive in kl.when is she coming back?
ahmad : today.
cekya : insya-Allah she’ll call you when she arrives or as soon as she got her hp’s signal..


(...and ahmad looked sad and worried as he was before…i know he still doesn’t feel good about it...)

cekya kesian jugak kat dia coz i know how he feels.cekya akan tetap call walaupun seminit untuk bagitahu cekya kat mana.tak nak orang bimbang. it’s all because we care about people around us…memang it’s not healthy to feel this way tapi kadang-kadang kita terasa macam tu…if we can do it and sacrificed the situation just to make a 30 seconds phone call,just to inform our partner that we are safe and everything is alrite,why can’t they do the same.isn’t relationships are all about ‘give & take’...why can’t some of our partners give in as much as we have?

memang sedap nasihatkan orang but we always feel that way...even ahmad’s girlfriend felt uneasy everytime he didn’t get to call to inform about his whereabouts or condition...and she’s actually doing it to him now...kadang-kadang,kita tak suka apa yang orang buat pada kita but at the same time,without us realizing,we’re doing the same thing to other people...

i just pray that ahmad’s girl is safe and sound.

and for you guys out there...give you loved ones a ring.they might worrying about you at this moment...;)

wassalam!

Monday, August 16, 2004

a tiring weekend!

salam...

how are you guys starting your mondays?as for me,memang 'perit' sikit.i had an exhausting weekend.the 'jalan-jalan cari pasal' program at taman botani,putrajaya.it was raining when we were heading to putrajaya but things got cleared as soon as we arrive at putrajaya area.

the weather was surprisingly good and we started spreading our tikar mengkuang and serving those delicious food(me and another 3 single ladies skipped lunch just to wait for the makan-makan session!hehehe...)ada macaroni with tuna,kuih-muih,2 mouth watering cakes and lotsa tit-bits.somebody even brought rootbeer with vanilla ice-cream.there goes our diets-la!

after the makan till you drop session,some of us when cycling.me?nah!cekya tak tahu kayuh basikal.hah!hah!jangan gelak ya...memang cekya tak tahu naik basikal since i was little so,apa lagi...snap pics la jawabnya.i got the opportunity to take some of the nice scenery...check
it out!then, we went back home by the erl express.first time naik erl.memang excited walaupun masing-masing dah keletihan.nak kejar akademi fantasia's final konsert,kena la berkorban naik pengangkutan yang serba laju tu.tapi rasa,more or less macam naik kommuter je...hehehe

we(me and another 2 of my colleague-they decide to sleep-over) arrive home at about 8pm.we rushed for shower and siap-sedia depan tv for the akademi fantasia final concert!hehehe...

and as expected(well at least i expected it..hehe)dear zahid won.he's versatile.and i suppose farah and bob should have grabbed the 2nd and 3rd place.to me,tak patut ada afmasuk...and i was annoyed masa linda kata rasa bersalah and all...well,semua ni rezeki masing-masing..i'm not a fanatic anyway..i still can survive the day without diari af!heheh...


gotta go guys...take care!
wassalam...


Friday, August 13, 2004

semalam...

salam....

cekya cuti semalam.sibuk mengemas rumah dan buat kerja-kerja rumah sebab belah petangnya kami semua pergi klia untuk hantar mama & ayah. diorg berdua nak mengerjakan umrah. so we left home at about 530pm.the traffic was kinda heavy.maklumlah,orang semua baru keluar office.

mama dan ayah cekya masuk ke departure hall at around 9pm.sedih masa tu.tak dapat peluk mama dan ayah lama-lama sebab sibuk dokong ika yang tak nak dengan orang lain.she was crying.i guess she really feels that my mom's leaving(my mom has been looking after her for the past few months)...sayu dan sebak rasanya and i cried too...it's all her fault!!hehehehe....

anyways,the house's ours(me and my bros) and we had to clean all the renovation messes and rearrange everything.wish this lazy-bum the best of luck guys!

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tomorrow,i had to go to run some errands.and insya-Allah i'll be driving for the first time after a few monthssss....i'm so nervous and kept thinking about it.

ya Allah,i wish that everything would be smooth!then,around 3pm,i'll be having an informal get-together sambil makan-makan kat taman botani,putrajaya.i'll snap more pics this time,insya-Allah...

and i have planned to work out with the house,clean and rearrange everything as many as i can.kalau tunggu weekdays,memang possibility to do the house work tu is almost zero..

gotta go guys...take care!

wassalam..

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

dia kata...

salam semua...

cekya masih di pejabat.tak rasa nak balik lagi.baru lepas cakap dengan seorang kawan.what he said just made me wanna throw up!

he said that he's not looking for looks if he were to find a lady for himself.

dia kata,apa yang penting,keikhlasan dan kebersihan hati.
dia kata,kalau muka cantik sekali pun,kalau dalam hati tu kotor,memang perhubungan tu tak akan ke mana...
dia kata,penilaian dia pada wanita bukan dari rupa paras,bentuk dan other physical traits but what one could offer emotionally.inner beauty la konon!

cekya tak tahu sama ada kenyataan tu ikhlas atau dengan tujuan memancing tapi kenyataan yang sebegitu memang dah tak boleh diterima pakai.it's an ancient pick-up line..
so puhleeeezzzz...!

pada cekya,manusia teramat suka dengan benda yang cantik dan elok.itulah fitrah manusia.dan manusia juga mahukan sesuatu atau seseorang yang sempurna pada mata mereka...dan yang cantik itulah yang sempurna!

bukan nak protes atau apa-apa.cekya sebenarnya sudah jelak dan muak dengan kata-kata semacam tu.cekya rasa it's meaningless..sedih ya?akhir-akhir ini,cekya dah tak punya perasaan sayang lagi.dah blank.kosong.zero...

p/s : teringat cerita '30 hari mencari cinta'...

gwen : apa kaum lelaki nggak mauk lagi sama wanita yang punya inner beauty?
bono : apa itu inner beauty?salon?

hahahha...i guess tak ramai lelaki yang tahu apa itu inner beauty...;)

.::.panas hujan..::..



Sampai bila agaknya?
Harus ku turut rentakmu?
Caramu?
Undang-undang hidupmu?
Perlukan aku susuli segala yang kau katakan?
Yang kau maukan?

Namun yang aneh adalah aku
Aku yang pantas sekali menurut
Aku yang terkadang bodoh
Tetapi tidak kali ini

Kesempatanmu memaksa adalah tadi
Peluangmu mengunjuk bongkak adalah tadi
Tika saat kau menuding jari adalah tadi
Untuk yang terakhir kali!

Monday, August 09, 2004

ika tak sihat!:(

salam people...

masa cekya balik jb kelmarin,selain mak ayah,2 orang anak sepupu cekya ikut sekali.one of them,ika,dapat demam panas as soon as we arrive in kl.actually badan dia dah dedar kat jb,dah bawa pi klinik tapi temperature dia menjadi-jadi bila kami tiba di kl.puas cekya lapkan tuala basah kat badan dia tapi temperature still tinggi.so malam tu jugak,ibu dia bawak ke klinik.doktor mintak kami monitor dia,takut kena denggi.cekya cukup risau...sedih sangat.nangis kejap malam tu.as at today,badan dia dah beransur pulih tapi masih batuk dan selsema...



doa untuk ika eh..kesian kat dia..rindu nak dengar dia bising-bising dan membebel..

wassalam...

Friday, August 06, 2004

i'm back..

salam people!

i've been away from blogging for few days.
actually,i was on leave.i decided to head for my hometown-jb,with my parents.and although the weather was hot,it's kinda refreshing,something different from my daily routine and environment..

i visited my relatives and went shopping!it was nice having to meet my little nieces and nephews.hehe...

oh yeah!above is a picture i took in the morning,sun shining,going thru the front door of my late grandfather's house.nice eh?

do visit my fotopage,friends.there's more.insya-Allah,there will be something for you..something that you would like!

wassalam!